New Friends

"Mother Hannah, is there anybody here except all of us in this mansion?" I asked mother Hannah.

*Sighs

"What are you talking about?" she asked so I tell what I want to say, directly.

"I saw a man there, in our room when we're all busy here. Who is he?" I asked.

If that is one of our housemate, Mother Hannah should introduce him to us or she just forgot to tell us that we're having a male housemate. But Is it just part of my imaginations?

"Ghost" Mother Hannah whispered reason why I stopped and looked up in the location where I saw him

"HAHAHA. Ghost doesn't exist! Mother, it's not true and I don't want to hear nonsense things like that. Answer my question using all of the answers except ghost because it's all fake!" I answered oppositely in her answer, answer that I don't accept.

"Then it's up to you, now. Tell me what is it if it's not a Ghost? What's that thing?Ceeinu? (Sey-nu)" Mother Hannah's last questions before she left me staring at the place where he located when I saw him.

Ghost are not true! If they are true----

"Something's bothering you?" Gail asked and now, I'm surrounded by her group.

"Nothing." I answered shortly and I was about to leave when she blocked my way.

She pushed me the reason why I fell in the ground. She pulled my hair and pulled me inside the dark basement.

"What's your problem?!" I asked angrily because she always treat me like a maid.

When I was new in their Dorm because Mother Lija send me there, they always treat me like a trash and I don't have a choice. I want to tell to Mother Hannah that Gail is abusing me but I can't because they are group and I'm just only one. I'm alone. My braveness was defeated by Darkness.

But years passed, I want to fight, and my braveness leveled up. So I want to thank her by doing this;

I stand up and stare at her, from head to toe reason why she stepped back.

"Oh my! I'm so lucky I have a sanitizer, this room was filled with Germs! Eww!Oh my, do you want?" I asked while wiping my hands and I looked at her with Yuckness

I pick her hands and I filled the santizer in her hands reason why she glared at me with annoyance.

"Bullsh*t! Did I told you to give me a sanitizer? You asshole!" she shouted angrily and even a deaf can hear it.

"Aww. I thought you need it! You look like a beggar begging for a sanitizer. 'Coz you're so dirty" I shouted then slapped her 180º in her left cheek

"Ouch!" she shouted.

"What's that for? That's for my revenge for treating me like a maid but that's not enough!" I shouted then slapped her again in her right cheek. Her group checked her if she's ok but I just laughed.

"You!" she shouted and point her fingers at me so I hit it.

"Before you go pointing your fingers at someone else,make sure your own hands are clean" I was about to look back when a white bulb appeared in my head. "Can I take you a picture? I love to collect pictures of natural disasters." I said and pick up my phone inside my pocket then take her a picture.

My camera flashed the reason why she closed her eyes. I look at the picture of her and laughed then leave.

I heard her gumbled reason why I smiled. I went inside the mansion to get my pencil and sketchpad. I saw my companions sitting in the sofa. Others are playing inside the house.

I sat beside a mango tree while holding a pencil and sketch paper because this is my Mood.

My attention caught Andrada while I'm sketching. I saw her sitting in the stairs and she looks pale. It looks like she has a problem but I just Ignore her.

Andrada. She's not my enemy either friend and she's nothing to me. She want me to be her bestfriend because she's also alone like me but I don't send her an answer. I don't know why I'm born unfriendly?

But I will choose to be alone because they will left me too. At first, they are always beside you but they didn't last. Do you think, they will stay? They will left you. So it's better to be alone because no one will hurt you, there's no pain.

My eyes stare at the clouds and it' starting to change. Earlier, the clouds are light but now, the darkness filled it.

I draw it clean and peacefully but someone's bothering me and that's Andrada. She's still sitting there. I try to draw her and put her in the place where she belong, in the stairs with so much pain.

After a while, while I'm sketching.... I saw Gail's group cornering Andrada. Andrada is now crying but they just laughed. I just ignore them.

When I saw them, passing Andrada everywhere like a ball, my anger lift up.

Don't let my evil side show Gail!

"looks like we have the two losers!" Gail laughed like a demon and you will thought that she was possessed.

"losers? I remembered that you have the ugliest and dirtiest group! Full of plastics!" I shouted and hide Andrada at my back.

"How about you? You don't have a friend!" she answered back but I'm not affected

"I don't need friends that pure plastics!" I said and her jaw clenched. "Come on! Answer me! What? You're just using them to be your shield because you don't want to be a loser but the truth is.... she's treating all of you as her servants and she's the queen. In your whole life, did you saw Gail fighting for you? Never! Am I right? Because she's selfish! And-----" I cutted my words when she spoke angrily.

"Don't you ever believe what she said! Stop It! Ceeinu!" Gail shouted but her group are angry to her because of what she have done.

"She's right, Gail! We never saw you fighting for us! We stand out to fight for you and we never give up to protect you but you can't risk your life just to protect and fight for us? You're so Selfish!" Meyda started to explode like a bomb.

Meyda is Gail's assistant in bullying.

"You know,Gail! I respected you since you became my bestfriend until now but you don't deserve to be respected. I quit! I asure that you will never be the queen again!" Lumina shouted and before she leave, she slapped Gail that's crying and begging right now.

"And now you will cry?pftt." Arianne slapped her and leave her

"Fvck you!" Keziah shouted and lift her double middle finger and slapped it at Gail's cheeks.

"I don't imagine that you're chopping our back?!" Reese flashed a grin and slapped Gail as strong as she can and it looks like she's the guiness worldrecord in slapping.

"People say everything happens for a reason. So when I punch you in the face, remember I have a reason. ;-)!" Calla punch Gail's face reason why her lips started to bleed.

"Now Gail? Who's the loser between us?" I asked and leave her crying

I went to our dorm holding Andrada's wrist.

"Thank you!" I'm shocked when she hug me at my back.

I felt her cold tears dripping in my shirt. Now.... Now.... Now.... Now, I felt this feeling. Feeling that someone hugging me, person who loves me and person who will never leave me and stay.

"I'm sorry!" I just shook my head and take her hands away from my waist. "A-Are you okay----" I cutted my words when she start to sobbed and cry so I turn my face to her and saw her kneeling. "What's your problem?" I asked.

"Am I worthless? Am I hard to be your friend? Am I a trash?" she asked.

"No Andrada! You are worth to have" I replied.

"Why having friends is like a curse? Why others? They have friends? Am I destined to be alone?" me too, I see myselft at her

I sat beside her and bow down. "When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody. Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out?" I asked her but all I heard from her is cry.

"You know?Sometimes i just want to kill myself just to see if anyone really cares. I have always been afraid of losing people I love, but sometimes I keep asking myself, Is there anyone who's afraid of losing me too? I don't have friends! We are like an island without people living on our hearts because I'm scared too because they will left me." I said sadly and stepped forward then hugged her

"Let's go?" I asked her and help her to stand up.

After I tried to calm her, we went outside. We saw Gail crying beside the wall but we just ignore her.

We ride in the swing at back of the mansion. I smiled at her twice. We were riding the swing while holding our hands.

"You know Ceeinu? This is my dream and I prayed that someday, Ceeinu will be my bestfriend. You're mysterious and hard to solve" she said reason why I smirked.

"Me too. Earlier, we're just crying but look! We're bestfriend." I said and we laughed together.

While swinging, I felt someone is watching me right now. I don't know but the presence is Familiar. I don't know but the wind is cold and I felt a cold gaze and I remembered again the scene when the rocking chair moved.

"Are you ok?" Andrada asked but I just nod my head.

"Yeah. It's so cold here" I said and smiled at her.

"Then let's go back inside!" Andrada said but I shook my head.

"It's ok here. I'm fine! How about you? If you're not ok. You can go but I'll stay here" I said but she just shook her head.

"I'll stay here, beside you" she said and my eyes widened.

It's the first time I heard others saying the code word 'STAY'. I want to celebrate but there's a piece in my heart that I am sad. I'm happy because she will stay beside me but I'm sad because... I don't know if she will do that at last. Even If I have a bad attitude.

"I'm going inside, I will get you a jacket" she said and I just nod.

She walked inside the mansion and I looked around. My companions walked inside the mansion but I stay here.

There's nothing should be afraid of. I'm strong and brave woman. I can punch faces, I can ruin everything I want to ruin. Even the soul, I can take them back here. I'm not scared in everything.

"Ceeinu, this is your jacket!" she said while waving her hand far away from me.

I approached her and get my jacket. It's a little bit cold her but It's ok.

"I need to go back inside, I will do Mother Hannah's command. Is it fine if I will leave you just for a while?" she asked.

"Alright. I'm fine here" I said and walked towards the swing.

I waved my hands saying 'I'M OK!'. She get what I want to deliver so she walk inside the Mansion.

While sitting in the swing.... I can't help but to stare at the forest. Forest are my favorite places. I think, trees are talking using their leaves. Mother Lija said, if the leaves of the trees fall, it means, they are talking. If a leaf fall, it means 'Hi'. If two leaves fall, it means 'Thank you', if three leaves fall, it means 'How are you? or Are you okay?' and so on...

"....."

I looked at my back when I heard someone whispered in my ears. It voice is so cold like an ice. I froze for a while and tried to feel that presence but I only felt the blowing wind in my body.

I just shooked my head and imagine that I'm with Cian, my younger brother.

»FLASHBACK«

"Cian, look! The wind is following me! Come on! The kite is good! It's flying!" I shouted and Cian walks towards me

"Wow, how can you do that? Do you have magics? Powers? Tell me! Tell me!" he shouted but I just laughed

"It's because of the wind. It will not fly if there's no air. I have no powers! Haha, you are so... Tsk" I said and brushed his hair.

He smiled at me so I gave the kite to him. He ran as fast as he can and happily watching the kite how to fly.

I sat at the stairs and someone pulled me. It was my sister Celina, she pulled me until we reached her room.

"Why?" I asked but she just smiled at me.

" Surprise!" She shouted and my eyes widened

I saw the big teddy bear. It was my favorite teddy bear and I want it to be their Birthday gift to me. My wish became true.

My tears dripped as they hugged me. Cian hugged me and rubbed my back.

"Oh my God! This is what you want? Am I right?" he asked full of excitement. "What's the teddy bear's name?" he asked.

I looked up trying to get a beautiful name that will suit to this teddy bear.

"Is it a boy or a girl?" I asked.

"A boy!" he shouted while trying to show it's tag but he can't because it's big.

"Ok! I will name it....Hmmmm" I tried to recall any names but I can't remembered anything.

"Let me help you! Let's name it, Senior!" he shouted and hugged the big teddy bear.

"Ok! Hi Senior!" I shouted to the teddy bear and hugged it.

"Hi! My name is Senior! Wanna play?" Cian change his voice and tried to copy voices of teddy bears.

"You look like a Chuckie, Cian!" my sister Celina joked.

Cian pouted his mouth and look at me. "Atleast I am cute"

Together, we laughed and played with Senior.... The teddy bear.

»END OF FLASHBACK«

I wish, I can talk to Senior, the teddy bear again with Cian. Cian and my family gone fast.

I missed them. I missed them. So much. So much.

Suddenly, I felt a hot tears dripping from myjacket. I realized, I am crying. I wiped my tears. I tried to stopped my tears from falling but it looks like they have lives too. They dripped continously.

I close my eyes and cry.

*Cry

*Cry

*Cry

*Cry

Someone help me. Help me from drowning in my tears. Help me from heartache because of my past.

I don't want to forget all of my memories but sometime I want to. Because it really hurts.

Ouch!

It really really hurts! I'm a drama Queen. Haha. But..... I want to forget the bitter things happened from my past. Please.... Someone help me to be happy.... Some----

"Andrada?...." I whispered when I felt her hugging me.

"Are you ok?" she asked reason why I sobbed. "Just cry. Just cry. I'm always here for you. I love you very much!" She said and I hugged her back.

So many times I cried. So many times I want to end my life. So many times I tried to give up. So many times I commited suicide just to escape this world. But one thing I didn't realize, I have to live. Andrada give me reason why I should live and enjoyed my life.

"I adore you so much because you are brave. Ceeinu, You are so very Brave! A brave woman! I salute! I SALUTE!" she said with an authority

"Thank you" I said while tapping his back.

We walked inside the mansion and I saw them smiling. They are my new family. I should be thankful. I want to build a new relationship but I don't to forget what I built first.

My family will stay in my heart!

I kissed Andrada's forehead symbolizing my love for her.

"I want to see you smile" she requested so I did it.

It's not christmas, It's not new year! There's no occation but we're so happy.

A best friend is someone who makes you laugh even when you think you'll never smile again.

A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself.

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, can be my world.

9:30 P.M→Night talks

"Mother Hannah, I'm sorry to disturb you but I just want to say thank you" I said while peeking her inside her room.

"come in" she said so I walk closely to her.

"Mother Hannah, thank you for letting me experienced this. Today, I experienced how to be happy! Thank you" I said happily and hugged her.

She hugged me back with shocked in her face but she hugged me back.

"We are always here for you, Ceeinu. I am strict, sometimes my face is angry but you know. We are family here" she said while rubbing my back.

We heard the creak of the door so we look at there and saw my companions leaded by Andrada smiling at me.

Mother Hannah send them a signal to come with us and hugged them too.

We hugged as a group. Even Gail is shy, she still hugged us.

Mother Hannah have teary eyes when all of us tell we love her.

"Mother Hannah, thank you for always being there! We love you!" Arianne shouted and hugged Mother Hannah tightly

"Mother Hannah, please read us a story!" Meyda shouted full of excitement.

"Ok. Before we start, I want you to be behave" she requested so we did it.

"Mother we're not like a child! Haha" Minuend said and we all laughed.

"But your brain is like a child" we all shouted and laughed at Minuend.

"Aww" I pouted my lips reason why she hit my arm and we laughed together.

"What story?" She asked so we think of it.

"Princess and the frog" Arianne's request but we shooked our heads.

"Stories are boring!" Keziah said reason why we look at her angrily.

"Nah, it's not!" Lumina Shouted.

"Stop! Don't Fight!" Mother Hannah calm us and we nod. "Let's just sing a song!" she shouted and get her ukulele

"You are my Sunshine...

My only Sunshine....

You make me happy....

When skies are grey.....

Please don't take my sunshine away....." we sang together the song while clapping.

This is just once in a lifetime. Earlier, we are fighting, crying but look at us now! We're happy together.

"Lift your head.....

baby, don't be scared.....

Of the things that could go wrong along the way.....

You'll get by with a smile.....

You can't win at everything but you can try....." we sang.

"Let's play a game!" Mother Hannah said and we all clapped. "We will spin the bottle, when the mouth of the bottle point to you, you will say a word that starts with a letter we announce" she said and tell the mechanics. "Like this! When the bottle's mouth point at me and the letter is A, I will tell a word start with the letter A. When the bottle turn to Ceeinu, the next letter will be B, you will tell a word start with the letter B. GAME!" she shouted and we nod full of excitement.

Mother Hannah spinned the bottle and it stops at Andrada's Direction.

"Amphibian!" She shouted.

She spinned the bottle again and it stopped at Minuend's direction.

"Bat!" she shouted and we clapped.

They do the same and it stopped at Gail's Direction.

" Cat!" she shouted happily

They do the same and stopped in my direction.

"Dog!" I shouted and all of them clapped.

"Elephant"

"Fish!"

"Giraffe!"

"Honey!"

"Ink!"

"Jar!"

"Kangaroo!"

"Lemon!"

"Mango!"

"Nest!"

"Orange!"

"Pair!"

"Queen!"

"Rest!"

"Strawberry!"

"Turtle!"

"Umbrella!"

"Violin!"

"Watermelon!"

"Xylophone!"

"Yack!"

"Zebra!"

And we laughed hard together. Mother Hannah tell her great idea to us. She decided to sleep outside with us. We will sleep at tents. We get flashlights and night lights.

We decided to have a campfire. We found some sticks that suits to our campfire. We get marshmallows inside and eat it after we cook it in fire.

Mother Hannah started strumming her ukulele and we sing happily.

I felt Andrada's hand touching my wrist. She smiled at me when I looked at her.

"Look in the sky! That's Cian!" She said while pointing the small star.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Yes! Look! He's watching you! Say Hi!" she said and waved her hand.

I did what she said and she smiled at me. "I told you!"

Cian....

Cian.....

Cian....

Cian...

I missed you....

So much.....

"Ladies, finish your foods! I will get some colas and drinks inside" We all nod and start chatting.

"...."

someone whispered from my back. I take a look at it but there's nothing except darkness. I just shooked my head. I stared at the fire and it looks like, they are dancing.

I smiled. The trees are whispering at my ears. The cold weather and the fire were colliding. Combining. The sound of silence hugged us.

"Ladies, get your drinks now" we did what mother Hannah said.

We laughed when the cola popped in Meyda's face. She ran inside the house and terrified approaching us.

"What's your problem?" I asked.

"I saw a....." she answered incompletely

"what?" Arianne asked.

Her teeth was shaking and her forehead was filled with sweat. We tried to calm her.

"What did you saw?" we asked while rubbing her back.

"What did you saw?!" Mother Hannah asked nervously.

"I saw a big cockroach" she answered reason why we slapped our foreheads.

Arianne hit Meyda's arm reason why Meyda laughed.

"Stupid!" Arianne shouted and Meyda run away inside their tent.

"Hahaha. Ladies, faster! The night is getting deeper. Finish your foods" Mother Hannah said and walk towards her tent.

We all nod and chat for a while. Minuend try to play the ukulele but it's so noisy.

"Shh! Don't disturb mother Hannah!" Reese said and hit Minuend's head softly using the ukulele.

We laughed silently and eat. We take some pictures before we sleep. We decided to sing a song but silently again and again.

"Ouch! Stop hitting me!" Minuend shouted reason why we cover her mouth. We uncover it when we are sure that she's not going to shout.

My face turned into a frown. I walk towards inside our tent. Andrada followed me.

"You're going to sleep?" She asked but I just shook my head.

"Nope. I'm praying" I said and she smiled at me.

"Let's pray together!" She said and sit beside me.

"Amen." We both said when we finished praying.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" Andrada asked reason why I laughed.

"Nothing. How about you?" I asked curiously.

"Someone is courting me.... But it's my cousin. We're not.... You know!" she said and brushed her hair using her fingers.

"Family stroke!" I shouted and she covered my mouth.

"shhhh... I want to ask some advice? Do you have some advice?" she asked and I laughed.

"I'm not a love expert but I adviced that follow your heart! Choose the things that totally makes you happy!" I adviced.

"Thank you!" she said and hugged me. "Can I call you Sister?" she asked and I look at her

"Call me Grandma! HHAHAHAHA just kidding. Just call me Ceeinu" I said and laughed.

She smiled at me so I smiled back at her. We sleep together.

This is my new Family, New friends and New Home.