Chapter 40

One month later

Ian's Pov

"I know I didn't show up ever but I look up at the sky every night to talk to you, I would give anything to hear you talk back...If you wonder how I deal with the school and everybody else who talks about your story, I can easily say no one brings it up in front of me, I hide my tears every time I hear your name but the pain inside me is still the same..I missed you more than I thought I would, it hurts so bad and it doesn't stop..it's the kind of pain you feel in your bones, If you only knew how much those little moments with you mattered to me, You can't imagine how hard it took me to come here today, I didn't want to, I wasn't believing it..I just didn't want to, Although I come everyday to nan pretending that you're not here...even though I know she is beside you all the time" I put the rose on her grave then put another one on nan's "I'm doing as you wanted Moon, I'm starting my new chapter even though it's so damn difficult picturing it without you, but I won't promise forgetting you cause I'm not going to, I won't forget about you..I will always love you till my last breath" I stood up wiping my tear and when I turned I found Emily holding one flower

"Ian" I was about to leave but she stopped me

"Please...you were ignoring me the last month"

"Yes, Emily"

"Where are you going?" She asked as her eyes landed on my suitcase

"I'm going to London, Where Nan used to live"

"You're leaving...And what about here?"

"I have nothing left here" I said and I know my words hurt her

"I saw a sold sign on Moon's house" She wondered

"Yes, Her parent left to Canada" I answered "Any more curious questions?"

"Ian, I'm so sorry really...you don't know how bad I've been since that night, I blame myself every f**king second, I get nightmares every night I go to sleep...I'm so sorry"She cried

"Good and keep blaming yourself, maybe that will heal you and you shouldn't apologize to me you should apologize to her but guess what she's dead now" I shrugged

"Ian don't be cruel" She said taking a step closer

I chuckled "If you wanna taste cruelty go and see someone you love die between your arms and you are capable of nothing about it....useless" I hissed taking my suitcase and started walking away

I stooped and turned around "And yeah, next time bring two flowers." One for Nan and One for the love of my life.

The end