CHAPTER 40

Jiyoung pov:

I slowly opened my.....ahh its raining today...a small sad smile made its way to my face...i went to bathroom and did my routine...ahhh i am hungry wt should i eat....i will just eat cereal...

Ahhhh yesterday was messy...i dont want to think about it but things dont go my way right.....after i left i didnt get a single message nor a call which is a good thing.....they gave me enough space...i agree that i was at fault too....so i will go say sry to him but i am still not sure about this sry.....wt if he will get angry after listening to me....ahhhh this is so damn hard....

I placed the dishes in the sink took my bag and left to office.....

(45 min later)

Ahhh i am here...i am a bit early today...actually not a bit i am way too early today...its just 8:00 now.....i went inside got into the elevator and went to the rooftop.....by the way it isnt raining now...its just drizzling....

...the black clouds...the warm yet cold brezze...the beautiful fragrance of plants.....the tiny tini water dropletss.....the little rays of sun.....the beautiful small birds singing.....ahh all of this is making me feel somewhat better.....keyword somewhat...ahhh the climate used to make me bright and happy....but now....nthg can make me him except for him.....

Why cant i be like this forever.....happy.....smiling.....having fun...okay if u decided to make my life sad then why did u make me taste this happiness god...huh?.... i am hurting so damn hard.....uk why?cz i cant help but think about that....that....that bastard.....i want him to stand here....beside me....hug me and tell me that...

"Bunsss i love u...everything is gonna be okay...."

I want to be in his arms.....but....but....we r fighting like manics....i dont know wt i did to make him like this....even though he insulted me....i cant help but love him the same.....i want to forgive him and.....just be with him.....i didnt really had a person in my life who made me feel things who made me feel that i mean alot to them...ik mina and jimin....i am imp for the both of them but.....but this bastard made me feel those things and alot more too....he did heck lot to me and then started behaving like this.....

Ahhhh it hurtsss when i am thinking about him....god....plzzzz.....just make me happy again...i want to be happy...i am literally begging u...i want him back....

I just realized that fat water drop lets were flowing down my cheeks.....i harshly wiped them....okay deep breathsss jiyoung ahhh....

hufffff....1....hufffff.....2.....hufffff.......3.......

I slowly opened my eyes....

"Issokay jiyoung we will go through this....we will be strong....right? yes we will be strong...now kaja we have a long day ahead..."

I told myself and left the rooftop....wahhh time fliess....its already 8:45....I am waiting for the boys to come...they have a concert the day after tomorrow.....so they have to practise alot....

Ahhh here they r....all of them are silent....not cheerful and bright like always....ahhh this all because of me.....

i will have to apologize to everyone...

"I am really sry for the things i have been doing lately.....all of u r suffering because of me.....u guys have a concert coming up...i dont want all of u to be like this...come on cheerup....issokay i am okay and things will be okay soon and.......BOSS i am really sry for wt i did...i will be in my limits from now on....i hope u forgive me....i am really sry..."

I said and bowed to him....everyone is just like that....not saying anything...and jimin was shocked cz...i ignored my pride self respect and apologized....

"No jiyoung...u dont really have to apologize....it was totally not u r fault...someone here should apologize to u but they have a damnnn big pride so they arent apologizing....issokay like u said things will be okay....lets get ready for the concert...wt say boys?"

Asked namjoon.....they all said....

"Yesss!!" And finally i could see those beautiful smiles...

"Fighting boyss!!" I said...

"FIGHTING!!!"

I smiled and left the room they started practising.....

(1 day later)

Ahh i a here at the venue...checking the sounds and lights system....ahhh i hope nothing serious will happen....we still have 7 hrs till the concert startss...the boys are resting the roomss.....i went to sejin sir...

"Sir...is everything okay...?"

"For now everything is good jiyoung ahh...oo yeah forgot to tell u can u plzz go and check our boys costumes...?"

"Sure sir..."

I went to the room and checked all the costumes were in a good condition.....and not even a single piece is missing.....thank god....things are good..i just left the room....uhh someone held my hand..i looked up and saw yoongi...i looked at him and smiled.....he smiled back..

"Can we talk?"

"Sure yoongi.."

"Come lets go..."

He took me to the make up room...ahh where r the boys i think they r busy with their own things...we sat on the couch and then he opened his mouth...

"Jiyoung ahh thanks alot..."

"For?"

"For the proposal..."

"Oo my goodness i totally forgot about it...wt did she is say...did she say yes!!" I asked excitedly...

"Damnnn!!! she said yes!!!"

"Wahhhh thatssss grt...!!!!"

I said and clapped ...wahhh i am happy for him...

"She fell in love with the deco..."

"Ahh really....that good"

"Yeah and she didnt believe me when i told her that i decorated it..."

"Hehehe...did u tell her that it was me...?"

"Ohh yeah i did...she is gonna cm her in the evening and i will make sure u will meet her"

"Ahh gladly i will meet her..."

"Yeah..."

"Okay yoongi i am hungry...i will go eat something..catch up later..."

"Sure bye"....

Ahh i am hungry...i went to the cafeteria....and ordered a cappuccion and a choco chip cake.....ahhh i am tired....they r here...wahh looks good...

Wahhh this is so damn tasty...these choco chips are really...wait i heard this voice before....i slowly turned around....and the sight infront of me broke my heart....