Where is he?

It was already two weeks since Chao met Yitian at the library. And he has not met him since then. He made an effort, he visited his faculty many times, but nobody knew him. As if he was invisible. How could that be possible? He was cute, he should have been swarmed with girls or guys, whatever. But no, it was as if he was a ghost. Nobody knew him, nobody saw him. He had no friends. And Chao did not know what was more pitiful, that Yitian had no friends or that Chao let him leave again. Since they departed the first time his nightmares came back. He was waking up screaming, sweating, and trembling. When he met him at the library and let him leave again it became worse. It was the same nightmare over and over again, he was afraid to fall asleep. His roommate, Yixing, took him out to the club because he couldn't handle it anymore. And it helped. When he drank a lot of alcohol he would collapse into bed not dreaming. So there he was, sitting in a club having a drink after drink.

Chao looked around at the bodies swarming in the middle of the dance floor. They were touching, almost having sex there in the public. And he was disgusted by it. Why get close, closer than to anybody else, just to be abandoned by them? No, he could help himself, rather than do that. He was still sitting at the table in a black muscle fitting shirt and jeans when Yixing came with two girls wrapped around him. One of them was a foreign-looking girl with bleached blond hair that did not suit her Asian skin or face. The other was her Chinese friend, with black hair and big almond eyes. Her eyes shape reminded him of Yitian and he was enraged that he couldn't find him. He wanted to throw the glass of whiskey he was drinking when Yixing opened his loud mouth.

"Come on, you have to welcome Miki here, she came from…" he stopped, remembering in the list of all the girls he had then he found it, "... Japan. And she wants to meet new friends." He finished finally and dropped them both to the couch next to Chao and sat down too, glued to the other girl's side. Miki immediately pushed her boobs against Chao's body, rubbing them together.

"Hi, I'm Miki. What's your name?" she asked in Chinese with terrible tone usage making him wonder for a while what she was saying. Miki was trying to sound cute but it was like a rusty chainsaw for his ears. His instant reaction was to pull away from her torturing voice. But she clung to him as a newborn ape to its mom, hugging his arm, annoying him even more. He quickly drank his shot and gestured towards the server for two more. It did not matter how drunk he would get. At least he wouldn't have his nightmares. Yixing saw his unwillingness so he introduced Chao instead of him.

"His name is Jin Chao, but you can call him Chao," he said and Chao turned to him in disbelief.

"No you can't, call me Jin," he said back, being glad that the VIP part was quiet and he did not have to shout.

"Don't mind him, he is a bit grumpy. He lost something dear to him." Yixing laughed, making fun of him once again. As if Yitian died or something.

"I did not lose him. I will find him." And soon, he promised himself. He even thought of how to contact him afterward. Not letting him run away again.

"Yeah, sure, sure. You will never let anyone go again. But what if he doesn't want to be friends with you. You caused him problems two times already. And you, yourself, said it was something really bad. Not that I'm not curious. But the way he behaved. Oh gosh. I won't talk about it. I wanna have fun with these lovely girls here," Yixing said and nuzzled the neck of the Chinese girl.

The worst part for Chao was that Yixing had been right. He caused him to be beaten two times. And even when he helped him once, took him to the hospital once, it was something that Yitian did not know. So there was a possibility of Yixing words to be true. But Chao remembered the cheerful face Yitian made when promising to treat him, and involuntary smiled.

"Your smile is cute," Miki said and stroked his face. Oh, gosh. He wanted to puke, her smell was terrible, sweat from the dancing and cheap perfume that she tried to hide it with. Thankfully the server came and he immediately had a shot of whiskey, placing the empty glass at the server's tray and telling him to bring the whole bottle. They were all heavy drinkers in his family and it was nice to know that he had enough money to make himself drunk too.

"Come on. Don't drink, I can make you forget." Miki put her hand in his crotch and moved there. When Yixing saw the shocked and unwilling face of Yitian, he hurriedly removed Miki's hand from his friend. Both girls saw their money and went with them to the VIP lounge knowing what will happen. That maybe they will come to like them and care about them so they wouldn't have to work. Yixing knew that but he only wanted to have some fun tonight. Commitments weren't his thing. And when he saw Chao getting drunk he thought it would help him. But obviously not. They did not know each other so well, they met only this semester becoming roommates. So they had no choice to become friends. But Chao was guarding up against him.

"I will take these two angels to have fun with me. Are you okay here alone?" Yixing asked Chao who nodded only after getting the whole bottle. "Don't go to the dorms, take a taxi to the hotel," he said and Chao nodded again pouring himself a glass. Yixing shrugged but took two girls to have some fun. Chao will take care of himself.