My Chaotic Past And Complicated Present

Miracle's POV

"Don't mention it, Jaxson, that is the least I can do. My father is a philanthropist and I know you needed help. Imagine you did crazy things just to find money to keep her. I admire your courage and determination, Jax. You will do everything just to save her, you are a wonderful son Jaxson. Your mother must be very proud of you." I said.

"Yeah! But I wasn't a suitable boyfriend back then, I hurt you." He said.

"No! I understand Jax and don't worry, I have forgiven you. There are just times I was wondering how did you do it, I mean you are forced to date me so that Amanda can make her evil plans. You only kissed me because you had to do it for Amanda's sake." I said I can still feel the pain, and now I remembered Jace, is this my destiny? I am being kissed because they were only tasked to do it? I felt sad, I want to be loved by someone with no hidden motives, and I wished to be kissed because he wants to do it on his own free will. It seems all the kisses I experience were not intended for me, it was all fictitious.

"Miracle, I kissed you because I loved to, she never forced me to get intimate with you, she asked me to go out with you to have fun and do crazy things, she begged me to convince you to become wild, so that your father will become angry with you. But those kisses were all sincere, none were fake." He said.

"Nice to know then. At least my first kiss was real." I said, and I can feel butterflies in my stomach, Jaxson became hotter, and his maturity makes him becomes more attractive. Being an engineer makes him more desirable. The way he looked at me tells me he is still the Jaxson, I used to know, but many things have happened. Jax stares are killing me, I closed my eyes to avoid his captivating stares.

"Are you single Miracle?" He asked, I can feel my heart beating faster than normal, I opened my eyes and found him still staring at me.

"Why do you ask?"

"Nothing, I am just curious." Jaxson replied.

"I am not sure, but my status has nothing to do with you Jax, I am just glad that you call the police that time, and you save my life, yet I lost someone very important to me that day. I don't think it is a good idea that we will talk to each other. I am trying to forget that traumatic incident, so I just hope you understand."

"Yeah, I see, but I just wish to let you learn, Amanda called and asked for my help that time, she became worried about you. She begged Ryan to cancel the plan, but Ryan was persistent. Believe me, Mira, she doesn't wish to hurt you." Jaxson said I can see the seriousness in his face.

"Jax, I know you were in love with Amanda and it was the reason you agreed to use me. But Amanda was evil, she tried to kill me, even if she changed her mind at the end it was still her fault. I begged my father to absolve her because she was like a sister to me, but I can never condone what she did to me." I said.

"Miracle, I know there is nothing I can do that will change your mind about me. I forever feel guilty for using playing with your heart. I was too late. Before I can confess the truth you already find out about it on your own. I fell in love with you, I love you more than the way I felt for Amanda, I want to be friends with you, I know you are a good person deep inside you, you have a pure heart, you helped me with my mother even if I hurt you. That is why no matter what I do to forget you, I can't forget your beautiful face, and you are always here in my heart, Miracle." He said he put his right hand on his left chest. I am speechless, I don't expect Jaxson to tell me what he feels for me. I forgot him because of Jace, but right now that I am face to face with him, it seems old memories are all coming back to me.

"Good night, Mira! I know you had a long day. Have a rest and see you tomorrow." He said, and I just nodded. He is staying on the second floor, and his room is next to my room, how could my grandma do this to me?

I am sitting on a rocking chair, I can feel the gentle breeze that touches my skin. I am thinking about what Jaxson had said, I perceive that he is a good person, but I don't want to be closed to him again. My mind is in disarray because of Jace and now it became more chaotic because of Jaxson. There is one thing I should do, avoid both of them. It seems I have to run away both from my past and present. I know Jace is not my boyfriend, but what I felt for him is strong and real.

I did not realize that I had fallen asleep in the rocking chair, it was almost midnight when I woke up. And I am startled to see a figure standing next to me, that I get up from the chair, and it was too late when I realized it was Jace King.

"Oh! My goodness, Jace! You could have given me a heart attack." I said, and I punched his muscular chest when he comes near me. He gets closer to me and I step back, but I am trapped at the balcony railings, he is staring at me without saying a single word, then he cupped my face and claimed my mouth. I lost in his world, I put my arms around his neck and I kissed him back hungrily. I realized how much I miss him, the way he took my mouth is driving me wild. We shared a deep and long kiss when I realized what my father had told me. I stop our kiss and I slapped him on the face, then I run to my room without saying anything.

My heart is racing from kissing and running away from Jace. I have many questions to him, but I am so overwhelmed to see him that when he kissed me I didn't even protest. Why did he kiss me in the first place? I hate Jace for making my heart long for him, and he is giving me false hope. The way he captured my mouth is telling me he wants me to. Why it has to be so complicated.

I continue turning around on my bed, but I can't sleep. It made me realized that my bodyguards had arrived. Is Jace, one of the two bodyguards that will have close contact with me? I am hoping, but there is a part of me that wants him to stay away because I know I can't trust my heart. Every moment I see Jace he is like a magnet to me I can't run away from him. I am just glad that I fell asleep a while ago or else I don't have sleep at all.

I wanted to call Stella or Chad, but when I looked at the clock, it is almost one o'clock in the morning, judging by the time difference I am sure they are still sleeping at this hour. I miss them, I should have said goodbye. I am just wondering what would be the alibi of the Marketing Department why Jace and I stop reporting to work. I will call them tomorrow. For the short time that I have known them, I consider them my friends, and I will never stop communicating with them. When I come home, I will make certain we will spend time together.

I visited Calm in her stall early morning and I give her food. I felt so alive when she comes up to me and greets me, she nudged me. I wanted to stroll again, but I need to talk to my grandma first about my plan for promoting her future guest house. Annabeth's Farm is superb, and I am proud to promote its natural beauty. I will ask my grandma to accept a minimal guest only so that the serenity and peace of the whole place will keep and the guests will enjoy their stay. I don't like the place to be crowded with too many people.

"Hey, beautiful!" Charles greeted me, and I am so thrilled to see him.

"Hello Charles, good morning!" I said to him and I can't contain the wide smile on my face.

"Thank God that you are glad to see me." He is now walking with me in going back to the manor, I have already brushed the hair and fur of Calm.

"What you mean by that?" I asked, confused.

"Well, you run away, we almost lost our job, thanks to Jace he could convince your father, or else we are now jobless. You don't need us to look out for you since you even bribed the Janitress who almost lost her job too, but I am impressed with your strategy." He replied, and I felt guilty.

"I am sorry Charles, I don't want you to lose your job, I had a misunderstanding with my dad, and many times he is too much. Sometimes I forgot that every moment I run away, my bodyguards got fired." I said.

"It is okay, Jace saves us, that is why here we are. Please, Ms. Mira, don't do it next time, I know I can't tell you what to do, you are our boss, but some of us need this job." He answered.

"Why Charles? Do you have a fiancée waiting for you too?" I asked.

"I am not engaged, Ms. Mira, there is only one person who is planning to get married after we finished our contract." He stated, I can't stop the pain that pierced my heart, so Dad was right, Jace is getting married. I remain silent, I don't want Charles to notice my sadness.

"I envy Chris Ms. White, he wants to buy his future wife a house and a car after our job." Charles added, and I am shocked to hear that Chris is the one who is planning to marry his girlfriend.

"Only Chris? I thought many of you are planning to settle down."

"I don't know about the others, but I am sure Jace and I are not getting married soon." He said I can't hide the smile on my face. I hate myself for hoping, maybe my Dad was only trying to stop me from loving Jace that is why he told me Jace is getting wed. But it doesn't change the fact that Jace has a girlfriend. How about the kiss we shared last night? What is he doing with my innocent heart?