It Hurts so Bad

When Ryan got back to the mansion, he felt sick. 

He was still not ready to stomach the fact that Dylan was no more. Granted, he had been a pain in the ass, but that was because he wanted the soft caring touches of Dylan. This however didn't mean that they didn't show each other affection. Ryan was just too busy trying to solve the murder case of Alex that he almost forgot that he had a boyfriend. the worst thing was that the reality struck him a life later. 

He missed Dylan so much it hurt. He missed the beautiful laughs that sounded like the most beautiful melody he would ever wake up to. it was hard accepting that all it took was a five-minute time lapse between the last touch he got from Dylan. 

In five minutes, his world had lost its balance and had come crushing down. 

He was giving up.

He was ready to get crushed by the weight of his pain and anger. 

He was ready to sink into oblivion while depressed as fuck.