My locked frustration

The whole time on the road was like hell to me. When we arrived at our house Paul first spoke with mother and then rushed upstairs where a dangerous man resides. Mother was so calm with Daniel and me as if nothing serious happened. But everything remains silent before a disaster.

Our relatives had already arrived for the party. Father's business is flourishing again, that's why the party is held. and as a member of this family my presence is must. Even if I tried to ignore it, I couldn't.

Although I thought that everyone will ignore Daniel. But when i see him now, he is being accepted greatly. All thanks to mother. As expected of her, she is really exceptional for our family. It should be a shock for her at this moment that her daughter has brought a man with her at the family party. It means I am trying to make Daniel a part of our family.

My father didn't call for me this whole time. He came down from his room a long time ago and also greeted everyone. But he didn't even search for me. Is he really that disappointed? Well..can't say anything. It's not like I care if he is disappointed or not. I gave up on such feelings long time ago. So...It doesn't matter to me anymore.

[At the dining hall, all our relatives have gathered with us. Father is looking happy. Paul is still stern as before. His face declares that the smile my father is wearing is a fake one. Anyway, I am prepared for anything.]

Father raised a toast to everyone,"My dear friends and my well-wishers , thank you all for gathering on such a great occasion. Thank you all for staying beside me all these years and supporting me. Because of your support, I could gain success and reached the top. I hope, I can gain your support in future also. Let's pray that my business will flourish in the future too. The very reason that I have asked all of your presence is because today I will declare the future heir of my company. My one and only brilliant child, Paul. Let's raise our glasses for him ."

My father is announcing my brother's name like an emperor declaring the next emperor of the kingdom. 'The one and only brilliant child' huh? So funny! My presence is just a hollow.It was always hollow . I shouldn't have come today. Brings back the past scars.

Father- But we have an unusual guest among us. That young man with blue hair and blue eyes. If I remember, I didn't invite you. Why are you here and whom are you with?

What is he trying to do? Daniel is looking at my father. If he can't say anything father will humiliate him in front of everyone. The one and the only person I don't want to get hurt .... I can't let this happen.

Evelyn- [Smiling slightly] I thought you were informed by your son about this sudden guest, father. Was i wrong?

He is looking angry. I have spoken over him. This kind of reaction is expected. Mother is worried about this kind of atmosphere. Paul is also taking preparation for taking father's side, I think.

Father- So this man is your guest. This is a family meeting. I don't think he is our family member. Can you explain what kind of relationship you have with this man?

Evelyn-He is ...my boyfriend. I love him.

[Murmur, Murmur. Everybody's gossiping about Daniel. He is famous.]

Father- Boyfriend? What does your boyfriend do? Is he by our family's standard? Or you just chose a random guy because you fell in love with him? What does he have other than his face?

Evelyn- He is my coworker.

Father- Co-worker, I see. So he also writes those dreamy and foolish romantic novels like you. You created a lot of trouble in our family since your childhood. And you are doing the same thing now. Everyone in this room are people with high positions. In our family, you are the only disgrace. It is a sorrow for me that you are my child. Even I have doubt about that.

He has crossed the boundary. Saying anything about me and Daniel was nothing. But about mother and my birth?

Evelyn - Then.. don't.

Father- What?

Evelyn- Then don't call me your child. I am not begging for it. Cause I don't care. Since childhood, you considered me as a problem. You never tried to think of me as a child. Always tried to handle me as an adult. None of you understood me as Daniel did. He supported me as a shield, comforted me. Yes, it is the right thing to love him and choose him over you. [Shouting]

Paul-Don't shout, Evelyn!

Evelyn- You shut up! Today I will speak and you will listen. I was just a child with childish imaginations. When I tried to speak with you about my thoughts you handled me as an adult and made me a psycho. You sent me to hospitals and made me take a lot of pills. But I was completely healthy. My health had worsened because of you. If you handled me as a child, maybe nothing would've happened. You can be a great businessman, but you can't be a father. For me, all of you are just nothing but some people with higher positions.

Father is shaking. Paul is also silent now. Mother is about to cry. She is old now. She can't handle such things on her own. I am sorry. But today or not. I have to let everything out.

Evelyn- I craved for your love all the time. All i wanted was your attention. But Paul was everything for you. ....I accepted that too...But I won't anymore. The only person who understands me in here is none other than Daniel. He stays by my side even if I leave him. He listens to me even if he doesn't. When I am worried he stays along my side. He is the one who knows me well. I loved him. I love him even now and will in the future. I don't care what he does or doesn't. If he is beside me then I don't need anybody. If it's clear then excuse us.

I grabbed Daniel's hand and pulled him. He is angry. Although I don't know if he has any feelings or not. But I can clearly say that he is burning in anger. Yes ...he is still with me. I turned to my father before leaving, "By the way, Daniel wasn't invited but he was dragged here by your precious son. So I think your son is the one who is at fault. He brought us here without our wishes. Please don't misunderstand situations."

We left the my house. I don't wish to come back here again. I hope it's the last meeting with my family.

[Everything happened so fast that Evelyn didn't even notice that she was holding Daniel's hand all the way to the bus station. The night road is empty. Only two people are walking together, holding the hands of each other. It's quiet but feels like so many musics are being played just for them. Pieces of music which only these two-person can hear and nobody else. It's beautiful, isn't it? Fascinating! Just like imagination, so beautiful and powerful!]