Feeling afraid of being left

Alexa hastily finished her bathing activity because she didn't want to make Melvin wait for her too long or would carelessly enter the room again. 'How could we sleep together earlier? But, he took care of me and didn't do anything. let's hope he's not like other men who like to find opportunities in adversity.' she thought as she put on the towel.

After taking a shower, Alexa rushed to get dressed. she put on red underwear and bra, then put on a maroon pajama suit with long sleeves, and the top of the chest was slightly exposed, then polished her face with light make-up and let her hair down without combing it again.

Alexa rushed to wear pink sandals with Mickey mouse pattern then walked out of the room. she walked over to Melvin who was waiting for her in the living room and immediately smiled at her.

"Feeling fresher?" Melvin confirmed.

"Yes."

Alexa sits on the other couch with her feet close together. I don't know, she was still very nervous because Melvin's gaze was so intense on her, making her uncomfortable, straightening her already neat hair.

"You said you haven't eaten yet. How about we cook together?" Melvin asked, reaching for the plastic bag he had brought. "I happened to bring some groceries. This is for you, to supply you with food while I'm away."

"You shopping for me?" asked Alexa.

"Only a few. this is food for breakfast and dinner because I know you always eat lunch at home," said Melvin then got up from the sofa. "Let's go to the kitchen. Let's cook together because I'm hungry too."

Alexa froze, looking at Melvin who always dominates. "You're just here..Let me cook," she said as she stood up.

"I want to accompany you, help you ... I often do that with Joey or Mommy," said Melvin grabbing Alexa's hand and leading her to walk to the kitchen but he didn't know which side of the kitchen was. Finally, he stopped at the door of the living room.

"Why?" Alexa asked as Melvin stopped and looked around. There was a door leading to Alexa and Gea's room, then several other doors leading out of nowhere.

"Where's the kitchen?" Melvin asked.

Alexa smiled then invited Melvin to walk towards the minimalist kitchen that was integrated with the dining room. She immediately released Melvin's grip on her hand then took the white plastic containing some of the food ingredients.

"Now you sit down. Let me cook," said Alexa. "But, what do you want to eat?"

"I want ... a mini burger," said Melvin thoughtfully. "I just happened to buy the ingredients."

"So, you bought western-style fast food ingredients?" Alexa asked as she unpacked the plastic contents. she arranged some groceries into the cupboard, and some into the refrigerator until she found some potatoes in the refrigerator.

"Yeah I think it's easy to cook when you're in a rush, and quite filling," said Melvin.

Alexa took the potato and turned to look at Melvin. "Do you like French fries?" she asked.

"Yeah, we'll just make it. Let me cut the potatoes," said Melvin then cook the potatoes in the package.

They cook together while chatting, breaking the atmosphere so it's not too awkward anymore. Sometimes Melvin steals the opportunity to kiss Alexa's cheek, while Alexa still hasn't kissed Melvin. Ah, looks like Melvin has fallen in love too.

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after finishing cooking and eating together, Alexa and Melvin chose to relax on the sofa while chatting and eating a snack in the form of cassava chips sprinkled with barbecue-flavored powder.

"So, your mother is seriously ill?".Melvin confirmed after urging Alexa to admit the reason she owed Siska.

"Yeah," Alexa curtly bowed her head.

"Then how are things now?" Melvin asked.

"It's getting better," Alexa replied.

"Thank God," Melvin nodded his head, feeling relieved then pulled Alexa to lie in a crouched position so that she looked at the table with her head resting on his thighs. "I want to pamper you before I leave."

"It shouldn't have to be like this," said Alexa while making her position as comfortable as possible.

"Why? Isn't it very comfortable like this?" Melvin asked.

"I've never been like this before," Alexa whispered.

"Neither do I," said Melvin, stroking Alexa's slightly tousled hair. "Haven't you combed yet?" he asked.

"Not yet," Alexa said, smiling shyly.

"Then let me comb with my fingers," said Melvin and then brushed Alexa's hair, occasionally inhaling its slightly fragrant aroma. It seems that stroking his lover's hair will become his favorite activity.

Alexa was silent, feeling comfortable in Melvin's lap who was also refreshing her hair very gently. She smiled, feeling comfortable but the smile slowly faded due to sadness for fear that all this would pass. in her heart she still wonders why a perfect man like Melvin could want her so much, want to give her everything she wants, even now he looks so dear to her. this felt too fast, but she also couldn't deny that love was also growing in her heart.

'Could this love be reciprocated? What if all this is just his way of trying to love me? What if he still can't love me? is it possible that he will leave me, or even after this he will leave and never come back? ...God, I'm afraid I'll get hurt.' Alexa monologues with herself in her heart, until she doesn't realize that her tears just fall because she is too afraid of the bitterness of heartbreak that people often say.

"Honey," Melvin called because Alexa kept silent. He looked down at Alexa who was crying...Instantly he sat his lover down and cupped her cheeks, wiping her tears with his thumb.

"Why are you crying? Have I saddened you by talking about your mother, about your debt?" he asked in surprise and pity.

Alexa smiles shyly and bends her face. she immediately removed Melvin's hand from her cheek. "It's okay... Eh, I just miss family," she lied as she turned her face away.

Melvin sighed, pulled Alexa's tiny body into his arms from the side, then rubbed her arms. "Don't be sad anymore. I promise I'll take you to meet them when I come back from Thailand."

Alexa was lost in thought, still in fear that all of this would pass. "Melvin... why are you like this?" she asked spontaneously.

"What do you mean?" Melvin asked.

"You are nice and want me? Are you planning to leave me after this?" Alexa answered at the same time wondering.

"Why do you ask that? Of course, I would never leave you." Melvin let go of his embrace, staring in wonder at Alexa who again felt doubtful. "Honey, why am I doing all this if I'm going to leave you? There's no point...I'm here because I want to love you."

"Really?" Alexa confirmed.

"Really. I just went out for work...and when I get back, I'll take you along to prepare for Joey's wedding. We'll be the bridesmaids on the wedding day." Melvin explained with a relieved smile, looking at Alexa who seemed afraid of being left behind. 'I've made her into my life ... Yes, I should never have left her.'

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