Moments of Sanity

Love. It started out as a spark. A tiny flicker of golden light through the darkness, barely noticeable to even the most observant eyes. When nobody was looking, it grew into a flame. Later, an inferno. Fed by the way her charmingly innocent (e/c) eyes studied the world around her or when her intoxicating smile seemed to paint the room in its glowing tenderness. It wasn't long before he was completely captivated by her, cornflower eyes longing to memorize every detail. She was a creature who could electrify him with her almost overwhelming beauty whenever her gaze met his. A Phoenix who could make his heart skip a beat with just the feather-light touch of her fingertips. A woman who could take his breath away with a laugh as sweet as honey. A being whose soul was created with the most magnificent stardust the universe had to offer, blessing the earth she walked upon. In his eyes, she was perfectly irresistible. Temptation in its purest form. He knew what love was...he just never expected it to feel this agonizingly wonderful.

"Are you alright, Cas?" the nickname for him passed her soft lips like a summer rain, the angel finding himself longing to hear her speak again.

"Of course-" he replies quietly, eyes meeting her amused gaze as she takes a seat next to his bed, "-why wouldn't I be?"

"You seemed a little out of it-" she explains gently, crossing her arms over her chest, "-like you were distracted. Are you seeing Lucifer again?"

"No. I'm not thinking about Lucifer."

"Then...whatcha thinking about?"

"You." He sighs, crystal blue eyes studying her face as she raises her eyebrows at him in surprise. Chuckling lightly to herself, she begins to tidy up the small room

"Very funny, Cas"

"It would be funny if it was a joke, but I'm afraid I'm being completely serious."

Dismissing him with a wave of her hand, she walks over to the side of his bed, a soft smile pulling at her even softer features

"Come on, crazy-" she sighs tiredly, using the palms of her hands to lightly push the angel down onto the bed, his tar black hair scattering across the fluffy white pillow beneath his head, "- time for bed"

"I'm an angel, I don't need sleep."

She chuckles at the way his eyebrows furrow cutely on his forehead. Using the soft pad of her thumb, she gently smoothes away the deep lines above his eyes, smiling lightly. His stomach flutters beneath her warm touch

"I know, Cas-" she replies, amusement evident in her voice as she speaks, "-we go through this every night. Just pretend to sleep, alright? Lay down, lights out, the whole shebang until I come back for you in the morning."

"I understand."

"Good boy." She praises him gently before turning to leave the room. Just before her hand is able to reach the cool metal knob though, the angel calls out to her suddenly

"(y/n)?" His voice is fragile as he speaks, the girl turning to meet his anxiety ridden gaze

"Do you need something?"

"Stay with me...just for tonight."

There's a long pause that flows between the pair as they stare at each other through the darkness. Castiel was crazy, even he knew that much, but the angel also knew that the Phoenix was the one thing grounding him to reality. She provided clarity and comfort during a time in which his whole world was falling apart, a kind voice calling out to him through the black abyss to remind him that a part of his true self was still there. He was crazy and he knew it...but she was the one thing that made him sane, even if it was just for a few moments at a time.

"Cas, I don't know-"

"Please-" He practically begs her, fearing what would become of him when he isn't in her presence anymore, "-read me a story, tell me about your day, anything...I don't want to be alone."

"Okay, alright, I'll stay-" She says through a sigh, an amused grin on her face as she continues, "-but just so you know, I'm quite the talker when I want to be. You'll have to put up with my voice for a while"

"That's all I could ever ask for, (y/n)"

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"(y/n)" Castiel calls out to the sleeping girl, watching her fondly from his spot on the bed as she curls up into herself on the chair she sat in. Through his crystalline eyes he studied her expressions as they changed upon her soft (s/c) skin, nose scrunching up cutely as her pink lips parted slightly. Even with Lucifer terrorizing him with another awful rendition of ACDC's 'Highway to Hell', Castiel felt a sense of comfort when he saw her sleeping so peacefully. Suddenly, her eyelids flutter open, revealing to the angel the beautiful (e/c) eyes he found himself daydreaming about more than he should.

"(y/n)..." He calls out her name again, as if just having it pass his lips fills his mouth with sweet nectar. (y/n) stretches lightly against the cool wooden chair beneath her, eyes scanning the room until they land upon the angel staring back at her. She smiles

"Morning, creep-" She teases him playfully, standing from her chair to walk over to the curtains by his bedside, "-how're you feeling today?"

"I'm fine..." Lucifer taunts him from the side, haunting images of (y/n) being murdered in horrific ways flashing in front of his eyes. Noticing the way the angel seems to wince after replying to her, (y/n) pulls open the curtains to the window. The room is immediately filled with golden light as the summer sun peeks through the dense foliage outside, bees beginning their journeys through the flower gardens as a warm breeze passes by. (y/n) may not have been a real doctor, but she sure as hell knew how to comfort a friend

"It's a beautiful day today-" she states softly, moving to stand beside him, "-take a walk with me?"

Instead of waiting for an answer, she gently tugs the angel up from his bed, straightening his white dressings before leading him towards the door. He stays silent throughout their trip down the pristine marble hallways, eyes vacant as his mind is continuously plagued by agonizing images. It isn't until the pair are finally outside that he's able to calm down a bit, heartbeat returning to it's normal pace when the buttercup yellow light hits it's skin. He smiles slightly at the feeling, ears able to ignore the incessant ramblings of his demonic brother

"Did you know-" He begins quietly, the girl listening intently to every word as he continues, "-it takes about 18 minutes for the light of the sun to reach the Earth's surface."

"I did not know that"

"Do you enjoy the sun?"

"That's a strange question"

"Do you?"

"I do"

"Why?" Castiel never looks at her when he speaks, crystal eyes focused on the magnificent star above as it shines down upon the pair. (y/n) chuckles lightly, understanding now that the questions he asked were ways of trying to distract himself from the pain of his condition.

"When Eve created the Phoenix, it was said that she swallowed pieces of the sun to form it's flesh and bones-" she explains quietly, recalling the story of her species, "-you could say the sun and I are connected because of this."

"The sun is a part of you-" Castiel comments through a fond smile, his sky blue eyes reflecting the warm glow of the sun rays above as he continues, "-and you are a part of the sun. How interesting..."

"What?"

"The sun is suddenly-" He finally turns to meet her curious gaze, his perfect teeth on full display as a growing adoration reveals itself in his eyes, "-so much more beautiful to me now."

There's a long pause that flows between the pair, the Phoenix finding herself unable to respond to such an affectionate comment. It was as if in that moment, she saw a glimpse of his true and sane self. Castiel was constantly announcing how much he adored the girl, but she would always brush the comments off as just another one of his psychotic ramblings. This time however, there was something so sincere about his words when they passed his lips, eyes clearer than they've ever been. Butterflies couldn't help but fill the girls stomach, fingers running themselves anxiously through her (h/c) hair

"I-uh-well-"

"Did you know that the honey bee-" Castiel suddenly begins to speak, a goofy looking smile pulling at his lips as he continues, "-is the only insect that produces food eaten by man?"

"N-No, I did not know that, Cas..."

"Have you ever tried honey?"

"Not in a long while, I suppose" She replies, finding herself chuckling lightly at the excitement growing in his innocent looking eyes

"Wait here!" He demands gently, grabbing her hand for a moment to lay a soft kiss upon her knuckles, "I'll collect some for you!"

"Cas, you really don't have to-"

Before she's able to even finish her sentence, the angel is suddenly sprinting in another direction, child-like glee evident on his face as he makes a mad dash towards the beautifully planted flower beds about a yard away. (y/n) found herself watching him in silence as a warm breeze passed her by, (e/c) eyes studying his stubbled face as he crept behind a group of marigolds. Maybe, she thinks, just maybe...he wasn't as crazy as she originally thought