Chapter 19 Comfort I've been searching for

I was on bed crying my eyes out.

I was so tired of life and being alive.

Why had all this have to happen to me?

I sniffed and then, I heard my bedroom door open. And in a flash sonic was right there in the doorway seeing if I was asleep yet. My tears where falling from my eyes. I think sonic could tell I was crying. I felt him over me he was on the left side of my bed looking down at me. I tried to pretend to be asleep while I was laying on my right shoulder. Hopeing he would just leave. "Hannah I know your awake C,mon! stop pretending". In the Darkness sonic speeded my door closed, and the lights Turned on. I tried to hide my tears of pain by Covering my face with the quilts. But sonic was already on my bed again. "Hey! I know your awake Reckless! You can't fool me!".

he said playfully. I refused to reveal my face,

"Oh! so your going to prank me huh?". I heard him say. "Oh shit!" I said in my head. then he grabbed the quilt I was holding and flung the corner over. Revealing my scarred tear tracks..

I looked straight at him in shame. He looked at me and my face. red, with tear stains down my cheeks, It was too late. Sonics playful expression changed into a look when your best friend sees you upset. "Why did you do that?" I said to him. "Hannah... I'm so sorry! I didn't know..". he looked like he regretted his choice. "It's ok.." I said quietly. "silent tears ran down my cheeks even though I wasn't gasping for a breath when people cry. I just cry in silence. My face looked like a normal frown.

But with tear tracks and a red face. "Hey! What's wrong? Why are you crying for?" Sonic asked concerned. "It's nothing..." I said.

"Really Han? your going to reply with that?"

I looked at him. "I've been watching over you for years since your grandmothers death. I think I know all your cover ups!" "Hey! it's not my fault ok? I've told you why I don't speak up.

I think you should know that by now Blue blur!"

"I get it!" Sonic said. Then i started to cry again. "Oh Jeez Don't cry!". "What's the matter?" "I just miss my grandmother ivy.

If she where still alive things would be better than this" I said deeply missing her. I felt Sonic's arms wrap around me in a comforting hug. "I know how you feel. I felt the same after long claw sent me here. I was never the same after that" I listened to what he said. "I just felt so terrible without her alive knowing that she was dead was the worst truth I heard.." I said heavily. "Easy, easy now. I know it hurt you."

"It did!" I replied then I started crying again.

"It's so embarrising to--" "Han! listen to me. it's okay to cry in front of me. You don't have eny reason to feel embarrassed ok?" "ok.." I said.

"Why did it have to be Ivy to die?" I said as more tears kept coming. "Shhhhh, it's ok. I get you!" Sonic said in a gentle voice. I just cried in his arms I've been wanting comfort for so long... I really needed it more than anything.

"Shhhhhh don't cry han please! you know I hate seeing you sad." I just cried. "Shhhhhhhh don't cry for me" Sonic rubbed my back to try and calm me down. "remember: I'll always be here for you if you need me" I felt him hug me tight. I suddenly I felt a sense of safety, comfort. this was something I had never felt.

When someone helps me Ina time in struggling, I get attached to them quickly. I'm not clingy. I just care about you a lot. :)

I felt warm in his arms I just relaxed. "You know! when I was in the movie and you saw me replaying your struggles. I was shocked about how you went through all that on your own!". "and I can see how much your hurt".

he said. he broke the hug and looked at me concerned. "Please don't cry enymore I hate seeing you so upset!". "I'll try..." I said. And sonic wiped my tears away. "c'mon! where's the Hannah I used to know!" he said enthusiastically. "smile for me Reckless!" he said. then he started doing funny faces to get me to Laugh. "Hmmmm how am I going to get you to Laugh.." he smirked. "Oh no he won't!" I said in my head. then he started to tickle me.

"Oh I know! I'm gonna tickle you!". "Hahahaha Sonic....Stop...Hahahaha". then I hugged him.

"Thank you" I said. "No problem". he replied.

I got back in bed and sonic tucked me in.

"No more crying alright!". he said smiling.

"Ok" I said. and he turned of the lights. "Goodnight" and he closed the door....