Chapter 17: Strange Feeling

"I don't think so, Astro. I don't want to violate the rules. And also I don't want to feel love towards human because the only reason why I am here is for a mission." I said.

"If you say so." he replied. "But you know what, Rojen. It might be possible for you too. Look at Mr. Pome, he made everything that he wanted to become possible by his will, it's just that you have to face all the consequences that comes after your action."

"That's it. That's exactly the reason why I don't want to fell in love, because of the consequence that I had to take. Also, I don't want to feel love towards a human because I can't take the sadness I'll feel whenever I had to go back to Astroella. I can't take seeing her crying because I left. It's hard." I replied.

"That's true. That's why I didn't tried to find and feel love while I am here on earth. Because of the same reason. Love is a killer. Not literally." Astro said.

"But you know what, Rojen, you can say that for now because you haven't experienced it yet. But when you do, I assure you that you'll do everything, even to sacrifice all you had just to be with that person and to make her happy. Maybe you would not understand it for now." Mr. Pome said.

"I don't think I can Mr. Pome. Because the only reason why I am here is for a mission. If I ever fell inlove, it makes the situation harder for me because I had to chose whether love over promotion or promotion over love."

"I undertand you, Rojen, because that is what I had experienced before. I was once thinking if I had to stay with the one I love or leave because that's what is destined for me, to be a star not a human, but just to tell you this, Roj, whenever the time has come that you need to choose, follow your heart because when you do, it's the only thing that can make you feel happy."

"But I am also afraid, Mr. Pome. I'm not too confident to do such thing. I can't bear all the sufferings we both had to take when one of us had to leave." I said. "And it also made me realize that maybe they made that rules for us so that we won't get sad, hurt and confused."

"Yes! But remember too that whenever you love someone, expect for it that you feel not only happiness because when you love, you'll feel anger, sadness, confusion, and hurt too and those things makes your relationship become stronger. In other terms, that will be your foundation for a strong bonding together and that your hearts won't get broke easily." he said.

That made me think all day. Our conversation makes me think whether I should fell in love or not. But I prefer not to. It's too risky.

"Rojen?! I've been calling you so many times already. Is something bothering you? Why do you looked like your thinking something? Would you mind if I asked what is it?" Fiona asked. She's early today so I guess she's not stressed from work.

"It's okay. Not important." I excused. Atleast that's not a lie.

"Are you sure?"

I just nod and smiled at her. I can't tell her what exactly I am thinking about. Well actually I can tell her our conversation earlier but I better not. If I can't stop myself, I may tell her about Mr. Pome's Identity.

We just walked today because it seems like Fiona is not tired of work today.

"Hey, Fion. Are you not tired? Why aren't we rode a taxi to go home?" I asked.

"Nothing. Just wanted to walk and feel the cold breeze that touches my skin." she replied.

No one broke the silence anymore. We just walked and roam our eyes to where it landed.

"Ah... Rojen, Ms. Mayne called me. She said that you'll work again on the day after tomorrow."

"Okay."

"Why does it look like you're not in the mood to talk right now? Please tell me what you think. Maybe I can help." she said.

"It's not important. Don't mind it." I replied.

"It's up to you. But remember it Rojen that when need someone to talk to, I'm just here. I'll do the same with you too." She said and smiled.

"I was just thinking on how can I get my bracelet back. Maybe I got my powers already." I said.

"Just work hard and earn money. You already had a savings right? Just keep it so that soon, you'll get your bracelet back."

"I hope so."

After about a couple of minutes, we already reach the apartment and entered towards the entrance door to Fiona's room.

We just prepare ourselves to get to sleep so that we can rest for the rest of the day.

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"Hey, Roj. Hey! Good morning. I have to go now, okay? I need to go to school. Just take a rest and it's up to you either you stay here or go to Mr. Pome." Fiona said.

I opened my eyes and looked at Fiona. She's in her school uniform. She looked simple yet beautiful. I just looked at her and didn't say a word. While looking at her face, I didn't hear what she's saying. Instead, it feels like everything went on a slow motion and I don't know why.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" she asked.

"I... Uh... Nothing. Take care." I said and closed my eyes again.

I didn't know what's happening to me. I heard the door shut and I suddenly stood up. I took a sit and layed my back on the edge of the bed. When I heard that it opened again, I suddenly closed my eyes and layed on the bed again.

"Hey, Rojen! If ever you'll come to Mr. Pome's, tell me okay? Tell him to text me where you are. I'll fetch you later. I have to go now. Bye!" She said and closed the door.

I stood up and fixed everything. I also prepared myself, took a bath, ate the breakfast and disguised myself into a girl. I really have to do this. I need Mr. Pome's and Astro's explanation and advices to this strange feeling that I never felt before. I don't know but whenever I saw Fiona earlier, I just felt something strange and I don't know how to explain what exactly what I feel.

"Yes! I must go to Mr. Pome's place to clarify everything." I whispered.