Chapter 38: Happy Feeling

Fiona's POV

Sometimes, I am wondering what if I'm going to sing again. Maybe it'll work or maybe not. But Rojen is right. If I continue singing then this might help us to earn money.

All this time, Rojen is the one who earns money because of his modelling of fashion clothes, so I think it's better if I also earn some for the both of us.

Rojen stopped his work for a while to take care of me and also my mother stole our money so we are broke now. I owe Rojen a lot. So I think I had to do this to provide our needs and also to survive on this crucial world.

I need to trust myself for this.

"Then..." I stopped because I had to finalize my decision.

"Then what?" Rojen asked. I know he is nervous now because he think I won't agree to this.

"Then... When is the contest?"

I saw that his mood lighten and a smile formed on his lips. I just like how fascinating that smile of him.

"By next week." he replied.

"And the location?"

"At the park, 7 in the evening." he answered. He can't stop smiling. I know that he is excited to do this.

"Then get ready and we'll go karaoke." I said and stood up to change my clothes.

We readied ourselves and we had to sneak out again through the back gate because Rojen said he's tired of changing clothes everytime.

We got out of the apartment with ease and headed towards the Karaocade. A place where people go to do karaoke.

When already reached the place, I just remembered that we had no money to pay for a room. I looked at Rojen and he showed me fifty dollars.

"Where did you get the money?" I asked.

"Mr. Pome let me borrow money. He said we can pay once we are financial stable." he said and smiled.

So thankful that Mr. Pome is always ready to help us when we needed it.

We didn't waste time and rented a room. Two hours costs twenty seven dollars and fifty cents. Good thing cause we can buy snacks to enjoy our two hours practicing.

"Let's just only this, Fion. Sing anytime you want until you have practiced your voice. But don't tire yourself, okay?"

I looked at Rojen then smiled at him and nodded.

"Then head towards the room first. I'll just go buy snacks for us." he said and left me.

I walked on the hallway to find our room number. I was so excited and I can't stop myself from humming because of too much excitement.

When I found it, I took a deep breath before I touched the door knob. I opened the door and entered the room.

It was so beautiful and there is disco light above. I saw a flat screen tv on the wall, a big curved sofa and a microphone and remote above the glass table. The design of the wall is fascinating. I felt like I am in a field full of colorful tulips.

A tear escaped my eye because of too much happiness. I am really happy. It was been a very long time already since I got here.

Before, the room was just simple. Just a plain color of the wall, a plain bamboo chair, the tv was not flatscreen and there are no lights everywhere unlike now, everything is different. Everything is upgraded.

I remembered before father and grandma used to brought me here to practice singing. I enjoyed it a lot. I enjoyed hearing them cheering me while singing in front of them. I missed them so much.

I wiped my tears and walked towards the sofa. It was so soft and the room is cold, filled with aircondition. I touched the microphone and it was so nice. It's already a wireless microphone and the tv is so big and bright.

I wouldn't experience all of this if Rojen was not here with me. Thanks a lot to Golden Star for sending Rojen here to be with me all the time.

I opened the song book and trying to find the song that I love to sing. I typed the number using the remote and click enter.

The intro of the song started and I get the microphone.

I took a deep breath before I pointed the microphone in front of me lips.

'Time, I've been passing time

Watching trains go by

All of my life

Lying on the sand, watching sea birds fly.'

'Wishing there would be

Someone waiting home for me

Something's telling me it might be you

It's telling me it might be you

All of my life.'

I was enjoying the song. I really loved it. I imagined myself before being with someone to be there always with me. Gonna help me, gonna teach me what should I do and also, gonna love me with all his heart.

All my life I was just searching something and doing something in order to live and survive but I have never done something before that can make me happy.

How I wish life was so easy. How I wish life was not unfair. And how I wish that life was not miserable. That's just what I want to wish. To be happy and to live happily, with someone who cares and loves me.

But I think that is an impossible thing to happen, because life is not easy, it's unfair and totally miserable. You cannot find happiness if your not hardworking enough.

I continued singing and showed my emotions through the song.

It reminds me of how Rojen stayed beside me always. Even though we faced a lot of challenges especially when someone was involved and that made our friendship became blur, I was thankful that destiny chose to be on my side and lead us to be together again.

I know Rojen was just temporary here on earth, and that saddens me that there will be time, he will come back to where he came from because he already finished his mission. And that means the moments we had done and had to be done will just remain in our memories forever.

A tear escaped my eye and a smile grew on my face because even though he'll gonna leave soon, still he did a lot to make my life easier and he'll finish his mission. I'm gonna be happy if ever that happens.

I shook my head and took a breath to set aside my emotions.

"I should enjoy this day and not think about negativw thoughts." I said to myself.

I picked another song and I made sure that it was a jolly and energetic song.

I had to be happy, even in just a short period of time.