Rolled back into memories...

Vindee lied her paining body on the bed. She has used all her strength not lose her consciousness at night. Now she lost all her power and lost her consciousness. The memories of him clearly appeared as her dream....

The one she admired since her childhood. The one she spent all her childhood and darkness with his thoughts. The reason behind her medicine. The muse of her books and poems. Her only love.....

They hardly met due to her health and security reasons while he was in Australia when she was in New York.

3 years back when she was 14. The year she returned to New York.....She saw a him on the ground with bleeding shoulder near her school. She looked around and found no one for help. So she carried him with all her strength and took him to her school medical room nearby. Doctor said that he has haemophilia and urgently needs O-ve blood. She used her blood since it was also the same. She knew that she was suffering with thalassemia, which means she has no ability to form new blood cells. But she still insisted it. She fainted because of excessive blood lose. When she woke she saw her sister taking care of Alex. Alex thanked mira for carrying and gave so much blood to him. Coincidentally her sister have the same blood group. Her sister neither denied it or accepted it.They got close after this incident. Since they nearly same age it was also easy for her. Sometimes Mira took her writings and poems telling her that Alex was interested in it. At that time vindee's happiness has no boundaries. She wrote all her feelings towards him in her diary, Tina.

Then he proposed Mira from his words the core reason was her first meet and her writings... 'I understood that she introduced my books as her own and he loved her thoughts which were actually mine '. She felt that he was in love with her thoughts but couldn't tell him. Because, her sister's love towards him she decided to hide her love but not give up on the love. She secretly burried her feelings in her heart and only focused on her studies.

From the start, both her happiness and sadness to her dairy ,Tina. Tina might be filled with the thoughts of him from the year xxxx till the day.

Now she used all her strength to wake up and go to her writing table and open Tina. She started to write about yesterday...

'Tina, I really wish yesterday to be a dream. But I can't understand that it was a good dream or a nightmare. Yesterday evening,On my sister's birthday party

They announced the world that they would get married which made my heart broke.

Yesterday night..... I was extremely close to him ,made love with him but I couldn't accept it. He did it thinking that I was Mira. He took my precious first time without any knowledge.' Memories of the night flashed her mind, the very first kiss he placed. His first impulsive hug. Her complete body sensed his touch. It made remember the night again and again.

She continued writing 'His actions made my half heart filled with love and other half fill with tears..... I'm thinking that how good it would be if you are human, so that I can hug you and cry. If I do it now,my memories will become shady....and I don't want that to happen. It might be a smile,pain,tear or anything given by him would be same valuable to me. My only regret is that he gives me everything incompletely....' Tears rolled down her eyes involuntarily. So she closed Tina afraid of making it damaged.

After sometime she forced herself to wash her body. While touching her body she remembered his touches over her her body. This was to the first time that someone acted impulsively with her body. It was so hard to remove the trace of the marks on her body....