chapter 8

On our way to the hospital, Neil took my hand the whole time, I was crying, I felt vulnerable, but he was there with me, and that meant the world to me. Once we get there, he asked me for the name of my mother, I couldn't think straight: "why?" I said, he looked at me seriously and replied; "how do you think we can find her, it's not a movie, babe, wake up", even in those hard times, he always finds the moment to insert a bad joke and make me smile. We got in, I told them the name of my mother, they showed me the room, where they took her in, I didn't dare to ask one of the nurses, how is she, he put his hand on my back to let me know he was there, I always felt less alone when he was there.

I stood up, next to the door closed of her room, I looked at him, he smiled "I'm going to stay outside, call me if you need me, you can stay the time you want", I wanted to ask him to come inside, but I knew he would refuse " thank you for everything ", I kissed him on the neck, he blushed, I finally get inside, I saw my mom laying on this hospital bed, and men who fall asleep, while taking her hand, I didn't know what to do, I took a chair, and sit beside her, the guy, woke up and look up at me shocked, let go of her hand," sorry for that", he said before walking away, the only question that was in my head was; who is this guy? Why did he apologize for?

I waited for my mom to wake up, she was surrounded by electric machines, her heart bite was constant, she was in deep sleep, her beautiful face was damaged by purple bruises, and red scratch, she even broke her nose. She never had a bad accident before, I'm wondering what had happened. She carefully opened her eyes, checked on her left where the stranger was, she seemed disappointed, she didn't even notice me, "mom, you okay?", she turned her head and looked at me, her eyes clamming for forgiveness, she reached for my hand, I took it, " it's going to be fine, just go to sleep mommy", a tear dropped from her eyes, it melts my heart, I kissed her cheek and went away, I promised her to come back, every evening after school.

Once I opened the door, Neil was standing in front of me, he handed me a soda, I thanked him, I just wanted to get out from this cold and unwelcoming place, my head full of questions, Neil kept quiet, I thought he would surely ask me, how was it going with her, but he didn't, I'm really glad he did, to be honest, he took me home, we hugged and he went home. I took a shower, check my phone, I found a message from him "thank you for today, hope your mother is okay if you want to talk can come over any time <3", even when I can't think straight, Neil is there, making me feel less alone and less sad. I was completely exhausted, I fall asleep, without even getting rid of my towel, or eat something.

It was 7 am, when my alarm woke me up, I was a new man, until the thought of my mother, laying in the hospital, with a stranger, hurts me. Neil called me, once I get prepared for school, he wanted to pick me up, but I declined his offer, I needed to be alone, to think straight and organize my ideas, on my way to school, I saw Neil, back with his old friends, he looked at me, I whispered a small hi, and speed up my walk, I'm wondering why I was avoiding contact with him, but it didn't matter at the time, but then I saw, the senior who gave me the letter, his name was Alex, he comes towards me, I stood still and waited for him to come, with his shiny smile and welcoming vibes.