Christmas (II)

Night before Christmas, there is a tradition that we are holding when it's before Christmas and it's gift giving which is pretty interesting but for me, it's not. Before this event, I neglected Mikhail's feelings, not because of what happened a long time ago. I believe he wants us to be friends but he tries to ask me again for another chance. I don't know why I can't give him a chance…

Is it because I want to focus more on my career or… Is it because of Christian like he told me last night? 

I shake my head to eliminate the distracting thoughts inside my head. I hurl my body on my bed and focus my vision on the ceiling. Then, I heave a deep sigh and crouch on my bed. I tug my hair in frustration. 

"I don't know anymore! My heart and my mind are really contradicting! Should I just avoid Mikhail or not!?" I exclaim while punching my bed.