These vibes

your eyes would never met mine

you would always act as if i was never there

talking to me only when you feel like it

always trying to draw my attention

but then dismiss it once you have had enough

how is it that because of you i have to suffer

with all these mixed emotions that i never wanted

i see you as someone close to me

a person who could deliver the finishing blow

a person who fitted perfectly with my little bubble of a world

now even the thought of me near you , makes me want to erase my very existence

it was you who first showed me the warmth of being accepted by people

i was not used to being cared for by people other than my family

i was always alone , even if i smiled and spoke to countless of people

i never told any of them my pains , past memories nor any of the things that keep me up at night

it was you whose vibes seemed to change mine

but nothing ever lasts

so all those good vibes have now turned into

something words will never beable to describe

~A.