Enclosure

i was scared of letting people in , scared to call someone a friend .

sometimes life does this to a person , where they feel like they are not enough

and will never come out of these feelings of heavy emotions that weigh down on their hearts

i understand , i was there to once , maybe am feeling those emotions right now

maybe crying myself to sleep every night or

wishing that the day would end

i felt as if nobody understood this pain that i was feeling

sometimes i would sit for hours on end

letting my emotions wash over me

and try to smile

because no parent wants an unhappy child

i try to speak my mind , but am always cut off by others

then was ask if i was okay

its laughable really

i cry my tears alone , thinking that maybe if i had a lover things would be different

but they never really change , they only add on to the responsibilities that weigh down on these shoulders of mine

so being scared and not letting people in

can you really blame me ?

tell me can you blame me for crying and screaming my pain , when there was no one there?

can you blame me?

~A.