Hotel

i am so tired of you coming back into my life . Its like you forgotten that you were the one to push me away , you were the one who forgot that it was me who paid the price for each of your short visits . You destroied the most important things. You don't have it easy either , i know . Life has played you , I have my reasons too. I don't want your shadow blocking out the light i so desperately need. I take you back with a smile on my face like an idiot . I warmly embrace you . What do you do in return? . Abandon me . I am not a second choice , I am not a replacement for someone who isn't there . I really couldn't careless about you , yet here I am holding out my hand for you . Just beacuse it is out of a duty I did not want .

So if you think you are doing me a favour , than leave , just leave . I already have a life that is much better without you. You confuse me , you play my emotions so badly that when you are gone , I cannot even breathe because it hurts to much mentally . Just leave me be . You found someone to hold you . Now let me find someone to.

~A🥀.....