Those people

I have to message first . I have to ask how are you first . I have to try and deal with all your emotions first . I put you first .

I don't even come second for you , I don't even come to mind at all .

No matter how hard I may try , I will always come last for you . No matter how much I may care , I will always be a second thought .

I love and care first . I give first . You take and see how much can I give . Then love and then care . If I have nothing and ask you to help . I am better off asking a stranger . If money disappears , I am better off loaning from a friend . Sometimes they to use me but at least they are not of my blood . They can easily be forgotten by the heart and forgiven by the mind but not you . Not the people who spent most of their lives calling my name . Not the people who saw me crying , saw me helpless.

Not those people . Those people cannot be forgiven because the pain they caused goes deeper than my soul.

~A🥀....