Love

I watched on from the corner of the room everyone all around me, had blood shot eyes from all of the salty tears that traveled down their cheeks weither that be of children soft and innocent or of an elder whose stories are mapped all over their faces, however in both cases their eyes held so much pain. I saw my father breakdown, my mother quiet, eyes void of live, I didn't cry didn't let the pain take hold of me. I look around the room filled with family and friends, yet not once did I find you. Not once. My love, oh my dearest why did you leave so soon, what of all the plans you would tell me while sparks fly all around us and the world even with all its nosies would become silent. Oh my love, oh my love, where ever you maybe please wait for me, please. I promise to find you, promise that this time I will never let go. I..I am sorry my love, I wasn't there to hold you, wasn't there when the kiss of death took you. Oh love, our family , our family their broken, there is a sadness in their hearts along with the pieces of happy memories. I followed them, you know, I wasn't supposed to, as they feared I wouldn't leave you alone, but there was peace in the light drizzle that fell over us, there was comfort in the winds that hummed against us as we stood in front of you. I stood there, sometimes just wanting to be close, while waiting for death to bring you to greet me. I would speak to you, telling you of all the things that unfold in my life, as the snow turned to the warm waters that we used to dance in without a care, our family grew, they shine so bright love but here I am sitting in this corner watching them, but this time there were no tears, no sobs, no silent screams. I could have sworn that you were there with me watching as well.

~A.