Chapter 9: The Baby Room

1.) The next morning. I wake up. Simon was asleep with his hand on my face. His big fingers...his big, big fingers. I smell it. I hold it with my hand. I smell it again. But for some reason... I want to...suck it. I lick it, put it in my mouth. A pillow hit me. I stand up. Jen was there. "Go to horny jail!" said Jen as she repeats it. "MAN! IT HURTS BITCH!" I said quitely, but angrily. We go outside. "WHAT THE... NEEDY FAIRY-FUCK ARE YOU DOING!" said Jen. I look away from her. "Ugh! Look at me... It's okay to be gay Alex...but please, not with your Dad! NOT WITH YOUR DAD!!!" said Jen. I roll my eyes.

2). "I love Simon, queen of pink-ass-stripes!" I said. "Alex. Please, as your teacher; a second parent... don't, you will just break your heart!" said Jen. She opens her arms. "Come here..." said Jen. She hugs me in her boobs. "Someday you will find the right man for you...It's not Simon." said Jen. Simon goes out from his room. Simon opens his mouth. He almost makes a rhetorical question and goes back inside. "It's not what you think Dad!" I shouted. "Just don't stain my bed sheets!" replied Simon. Jen and I face palmed. "You are BUDDY-zoned Alex... You will always and forever be his little Alex!" whispered Jen as she hugs me even tighter and adds, "But it's okay...Because you two are family." said Jen as she goes back.

3).This time, we are in Jen's car. It was kind of a bigger than, I thought, dark green in color. Jen and Simon were in the front sit. Simon kept on giggling. "What's so funny Simon?" asked Jen. "Nothing... I just...I mean, it's common that my son would like big breasted women... like his dad..." said Simon. Jen smirks. "Funny Jen, funny!" I said. Simon stops the car. Jen and Simon looks at each other. They laugh very, very hard for two very different reasons. Jen knew I was gay, and women and men don't affect me, except Simon, and Simon thinks, I like Jen, being a growing man... well. I feel weird around Jen. I don't understand it.

4). "Yes! I mean... big chests! Oh No! Because, Alex still needs...some guidance from a woman too..." said Jen. Simon smirks. "You are free to guide him... I beat, he will be! But, I wish, you will teach him, how to respect women, it's better than other things... " said Simon. "I will... Don't worry.... I won't teach him...the NAUGHTIES... he will explore it on his own." said Jen. Simon moves like he was covering his crotch and Jen just turned on Simon? Wow. We stop by the church. After that we go to the shores with lunch. The Fall is kinda getting more colder though. Simon is a little bit shaking. "You okay dad?" I asked him. "I'm fine..." said Simon.

5). Jen takes her scarf and roll it around Simon as she tiptoes. "There..." said Jen. Simon giggles. He fucking likes it! That bitchhhhh! For some unknown jealousy ,I move closer to Simon and snuggle him. "I'm cold too!" I said. Jen hugs me from the back. The boner again! I go away.... Boner, stahp being weird!

6). "Ehw! Am I turned on by Jen?!" I asked myself. I go back to them. They are laughing. I walk back. Simon ponders. "Come to think of it.... It means...mhhh... " said Simon. He looks at me. "I'm just glad, Alex is a boy...I mean, man... If it was a stepdaughter though...It could get lots of weird... everywhere... really fast. But if she ever develop feelings to me... I will not, have sexual relationships with her...Let alone, What can I tell her mother!" said Simon. Jen, you strike under the belt. "What are you two talking about?" I asked. "Oh, If I ever had a stepdaughter that falls in love with me, Man! That would be very hard and very weird!" said Simon. I glare at Jen. "It...IS! I MEAN...THANK GOD... ALEX IS A MAN!" said Jen as she squints at me.

7). "That's why I will always have a buddy!" said Simon as he cuddles me closer. "But Careful Simon, don't be TOO cute!" said Jen. "What?" asked Simon. "Nothing... Other women... will run after you..." said Jen. "Nah... I'm not handsome." said Simon. We look at him. "What?!" asked him. "He's not aware...Let's leave it that way!" said Jen.

8.) In the House, we rest for a while. We look at Jen. "Mhhh.... Alexis Goldman, I think... You need to... go back to your old room." said Simon. My eyes bulges. We are shocked. "What?" asked Simon. "Dad! Are you out of your mind? That's the..." I said as I look away and hold my left shoulder using my right arm and say, "It's supposed to be for...my sister." I said. Simon hugs me. He kisses me in the forehead and he says, "It's okay...it's okay..." he said. "I remember things with Silvia... and how excited we are...having a, how he could have a child of his own, how happy this family... could be." He says. I cried on his shoulder. Jen hugs the both of us. "Are you sure about this?" asked Jen. "I... am not too... but, I must not lament too much... for my son and for me." He said as he hugs Jen and me.

9). Later that Afternoon, we continue cleaning the Baby room. It rained. Simon looks at the room. "Bye..." said Simon as he kisses the cradle. I remember this is a remade cradle, the one Simon made to me when I was 2. The memories we have in this, with mom. I use this until I was almost 4. Turned into a small bed when I was 5 to 8, Got my own room when, I was 9. He destroys the cradle with pink decorations. He was shouting. He was smashing it. He looks furious and sad. He kept on doing it. It was emotionally draining ; watching Simon like this. Jen holds his shoulder. "Simon... Stop." She said.

10.) Simon stops. He just breaks down crying on his knees. I take the sledge hammer. I break the Cradle myself. It is painful for me too, but I must. We take all of it as I and Simon torch it out one by one, the little pieces, the designs. The masterful carve. The carving of my height, Simon just carved. He takes it. "I carved this one... You were 3 that time..."said Simon. "Dad... please... give it to met." I said. He was handling it with his strong grip. I slap his hands. He drops it. "DAD! I SAID I WILL DESTROY IT!" I said. I take it and throw it away. I burn it. Jen sits in front of the fireplace.

11.)I started to cry looking at it burning. Simon was weeping. It was painful. It was too painful. Letting go is the only way. "Come here you two..." said Jen. We sit down Next together. "Now both of you, lay your head on my lap." said Jen. We did. We started to weep, as we watch the cradle things burn; with All those...happy memories. Jen rubs our hair as we started to wail and cry. "Its fine boys... it's fine... Cry the pain away..." said Jen. We just cry out all night." We just watch the fire place all evening. Then we eat dinner later. Simon smiles sadly as he takes mom's Wedding DVD. He kisses it and put it on the fire. "Good bye, my Lovely Silv". I go to him as I finished my food. He cuddles me. Simon took a yellow paper, with my mom's last will and her last letter. "I'm letting you go Simon... Thank you...my love." I said.

12.) "Silv... I know. One day, I'll be fine...I promise." Said Simon as he smiles softly. Take the letters from me, and burn it, "Thank you for everything, my love..." said Simon . "We will get this through..." said Simon. He rubs my head as we sit in the couch. "SIlv... was always this wild flower...No dull moment around her. If she is alive today...she will say, You fucking dumbass! Move on already! Here! This was a nice girl! Smart,cute and sexy! I want you to have her!" said Simon. "Sounds like mom..." I said. We laugh. "She does." said Simon.

13.) " I just realized. Jen looks at the picture of my mom. "Oh! The pregnant lady on the supermarket... She once told me, I look cute... Someday, she wants me to meet someone..." said Jen. We look at her. "She said, there was a close person, he was handsome, very warm...very cuddly too! Wait... Mhhh... Why all her pictures hidden?" asked Jen as she looks everywhere. "Oh no! It's your mom!" said Jen. We laugh. Jen looks at Simon. They stare at each other for few seconds.