Chapter 15: Tell You I'm Sorry

1.)The next morning. I skip class again. I went to the lighthouse. Jen was looking at it. She sees me. Another one looks at me, oh, Gwen was here too. "Huh?" They go up to the light house. "Uhm... Huh?" I asked them. "Oh... Needy Fairy... This is my cousin Gwen, Gwyneth. Yes, yes... we look a lot like each other?" asked Her. "Nah, we saw each other before..." replied Gwen. "I told Kris the truth. "I said. Jen do act like Jen now. Damn, It's like having a doppleganger. "This is the cute little needy fairy?" asked Gwen. "Yeah...He's gay too!" said Jen. She looks shock, as she looks at me from head to toe.

2.) "No! He looks like a cute jockie boy...Also, love the baby beard! He was cute like that Mechanic guy too!" said Gwen. "Yeah... Well... He was in love with the same person I did." said Jen. "WHAT?! NO WAY! I mean... Simon... is... still, your dad... stepdad." said Gwen. "I know!" said Jen. Jen looks at a car parking nearby, It was Simon's. Simon goes out.

3.) "Gush... Needy Fairy... I need to hide..." said Jen as she hides away, leaving Gwen and me behind. "I admit, your dad is a DILF... But, I don't swing that way." said Gwen as she pinches me, " But , I know a cute guy when I see one..." said Gwen as she takes out a cigarette. Simon goes upstairs. "Jen?" asked Simon. Gwen looks back, "Ho-ho, damn that's cute..." said Gwen. Simon's eyebrows crosses, "Oh, That's your Dad right?" asked Gwen. "I am still delusional...Sorry, I thought you are Jennifer..." said Simon. "Nah, they always say I look like here anyways... I'm her cousin...Gwyneth Phil!" said by her.Simon looks at her breasts. "Okay...It really is smaller..." said Simon. "Uhm...What?" asked Gwen. "Sorry, It was a running joke, my son told me that your boobs is smaller than your cousin's...." said Simon.

4.)Gwen laughs. "It is! How did you know!" said Gwen. They shake hands. "I wonder where sweet,sweet Jen is... She maybe. Sleeping with the fishes. No offence, or somewhere else." said Gwen. She goes downstairs.Jen was in the driver's sit covered in a scarf and hoodie. Simon looks at me. "Buddy." said Simon. "Simon, I don't want to talk anything..." I said. Simon hugs me. "I'm sorry, If I can only be a better father...maybe this won't happen..." said Simon. I sigh, "You are a Good Father Simon." I said as I go out. I put my bike home. I play with Tootskie.

5.) Simon was calling me from the phone. "I'm here at home, He is with me and Tootskie... No, I don't want to go to school." I said as I turn off the phone. I watch T.V. With Tootskie. The snow is turning heavy. Simon goes inside. "Alex...please talk to me." He said. I move, and prepare dinner. "Alex... Alex...Please, talk to Dad." said Simon. He sandwiches my face with his hands. "BUDDY, WHAT IS WRONG?" asked Simon. "This is wrong... this is very, very wrong." I said. "What's very wrong?" asked Simon. "Let me finish this for a while .Simon." I said. I finished my cooking then I goes upstairs, asked Ros for the lessons. The last day of class is day after tomorrow for winter break. I rest for a while. Maybe...I will tell Simon the real thing too. That...I love him.

6.) Then Dinner time, Simon goes home, takes out some beers. I go upstairs. I take that vial. If I will make the bad decision, I will take this. Simon looks at me. "Now tell me... said Simon, as he drinks his beer. "You are drenching wet Simon..." I said. He goes up to his room. I put two pills to his drink I shake it. This vial looks like some sort of rape drug.... Simon goes down in sweater and pants

7.)"So... Tell me buddy.." He asks me again. This time, he drinks the drugged beer. "What's Wrong?" he asks me. "I love you Simon..." I said to him. "I know... I love you too buddy!" said Simon. I hold his head and kiss him on the lips. Simon was shocked. He stands up. "My God! What the fuck! Buddy! What the fuck was that!" said Simon. He realizes what It meant., "I'm your Dad Alex! Oh my God!" said Simon. "I love, Simon... I actually do." I replied to him. He was very shocked as he starts to move backwards in a dizzy manner. Simon looks at me in a shocked manner. He falls down on the couch. "Alex... what did you...do?!" said Simon in great shock. "I love you Simon! I LOVE YOU!" I said to him. He looked terrified. I kissed him as I hold both of his hands clenching it in a tight bond, using my own.

8.) He's resisting, but his force is getting lighter and lighter. Until, he was almost sleepy, I release him, "No! NOOO! OH GOD NO!" said Simon. Tootskie starts to barks at me. Simon is losing strength I rip of his shirt off and start to kiss him then his neck, then his chest, down to his abs unto his navel. "OH GOD! NO! NO! ALEX NO!" said Simon as I slowly remove is pants. "NO!!!" said Simon I open his underwear... I proceed to... Pleasure and play with it, until it got hard and...PLEASURE HIM.

9.)Simon has pushes my face away, enough to knock me down. "NOO!!!!" said Simon. I looked at myself in the mirror. That crooked smile of a perverted man...Is the one I saw. Simon slowly pulls back his underwear and his pants like a very, very drunk guy. He wailed. "I raised you Alex... I raised you! I love you like one of my own! GOD! GOD!" said Simon as he wails with all the regrets as he falls down. Did I just...raped Simon? "SILV! SILV! MY GOD!!! SILV!!! WHAT HAVE WE DONE SILV!!!" shouted Simon. He still can't move properly. I close my eyes and cry. It felt so wrong.

10.) IT FELT so wrong. I run away into the deep snow. What did I done? What the fuck did I do?! What the fuck did I JUST DO?! I run, and run, and run. I rolled over, with bruises in the shorelines. The snow is intensifying. Please take me away...I don't want to leave anymore. A Car light shines to me. Please...end my misery, as I slowly closes my eyes. wake up. Someone was hugging me near a fireplace. It's morning, but the blizzard was still brewing. I look back. It was Simon on his Warm knitted sweater that my mom and I made. I started to cry. "I'm so sorry...I'm so sorry..." I said to him. "No... I am sorry... I never realize it. I never realize that you love me differently. But, I can only be a father to you Alex... I cannot love you as a person. You will always and always be my little buddy. But, I must accept... You are as you are... We only have each other, Alex... we are each other's family...just family." said Simon.

11.) I hear a familiar footstep as I look back. Jen sits down near me. She hugs the both of us. "I was never wrong when I told you the truth Alex!" said Jen, she was right, maybe. It was time for me to realize. between me and Simon. We are just father and son. Jen laughs. "I miss you guys. But, I can only, be with you...as long as I am Gwen. No one must know, except you two and Ros... I love you two, always...I will be here, somewhere...I should have visit you secretly too...I'm so sorry... I am not doing that until now. I never...felt so alone in my entire life!" said Jen.

12.)Simon and Jen looked at each other. "I will not let you feel alone...again Jen." Said Simon. After that. I returned to school, with all the bruises and scratches and a broken arm. I could've died when she did not found me. Maybe she hand me over to Simon. Well... I pick my date for my Christmas ball. Simon was pretty much dressed. We laugh at each other as Kris goes to me. I actually, picked... Jen a.k.a. Gwyneth the singer as my Christmas ball date Simon and Jen laugh at each other. "Well... I picked Simon, I might end up in the PRAY THE GAY AWAY CAMP." I said. Kris and I danced. We laugh. "I will love you as you are Kris, thank you for being honest with me." She said as we keep on dancing. "So, what will it be next?" asked Kris. "Maybe... I need to know myself more." I said. Kris smiles and hugs me. "I will help you..." said Kris.

13.) Then the Christmas time. I was cooking a meal for the two of us, Dad and I. He was just happy like this. I must be too. In the New Years, we gather up in the square to watch fireworks. Dad, holds my hand, as we skate in the ice. Kris says hello to me. She was talking this and that. Then calls Marcus. "Hello." Said Marcus. He's cool, bruh like attitude and manly- muscle features. He is kind of a little Simon. Simon laughs, they talk that he must take care of his only son. Marcus smiles at me.

14.) "I will... he's your buddy right...I will take care of this cute boy." Said Marcus as he stares at me properly. He is really that handsome, oh my... My tiny gay heart starts beating again. We skate through the night. Simon looks away. Jen was in the back along with Gwen's girlfriend and baby, in her Gwen get-up. Simon waves at her. She waves back as she goes away. "That! Lady told me, there is a handsome, boy here too... She was right...pretty boy." said Marcus as he flexes his big muscled body. He smiles. That smile.

Then comes graduation day. And The time have come.

15.) Kris, Me, Marcus, Ros , Marvin, John and Emil gather in the light house for the last time after the graduation. We biked home. "So, Marcus, when did you knew you are gay?" I asked him. He laughs. "I am not gay... I am bisexual." said Marcus. I realized it. "Well, It was... that time. I feel my unders...steering on both ways. Girls, boys...Oh! Why, You wanna have threesome with few girls I meet? Kris told me...you are still a virgin!" He said with a wink. I cover my crotch. "Good!" said Marcus as he calls in his phone.

16.) We went home. In my room. Marcus and Kris were laughing. "Okay! Well... Uhm... Uhm..." I said. "No, Kris... We never had sex before."said Marcus. 'Wait! Okay..." I said. "Shhh...." said Kris as she puts her hand on my lips. "Don't be afraid...to try...new things... I'll be your ...teacher." said Kris.She opens my zipper. "Hello there!" said Kris. "OH! GOD! OH! OH!" I said asMarcus joins Kris, doing... weird, sexy,delicious things on my manhood. Simon barges in, "I'm home! I brought beer!" He looks at us. Simon looked shocked."DAD! GO AWAY!" I shouted. "You dig chicks too?!" asked Simon. "GET OUT!" I shouted. Simon laughs away. "AH!!!!" I screamed as liquids come out of my genitals. "EHW!" shouted Kris. Marcus laughs.

Dad and Jen were smoking next to each other. "So, what will you do now?" asked Simon. "Well... Someday, I'll return...Simon." Said Jena s she kisses him in the lips. 'Ahhhh, Jen, you can return here whenever" I said to her. "I will, but for now... I am Gwen. The actual one went back to Canada. SO no one will know, I am Jen. So, Simon... See you, but not so much..."

said Jen as she goes away and put her shades.

Dad laughs as he hugs Jen. "If you ever felt lonely... Crawl back to me... Okay? Thanks..." said Simon. Jen holds Simon's crotch. She goes away as she peeks in her shades and wink at Simon. Simon laughs with his mouth open. "Dad... Stop!" I said.

Later, "Well, good bye House." Isaid as I take my big bag. Dad hugs me very, very tightly. "Good luck buddy..."said Dad. Tootskie runs to me, he was quite big now. Marcus waits for me, hewas growing actual beard. He laughs at me. "Let's go." Said Marcus as he holdsmy hand, we walk to the bus stop with out hands swinging as I look back andwave back at Simon... I mean Dad. Simon always says, "ILOVE YOU BUDDY!" I shoutedback. "I love you two Dad!" The Bus stops. We go inside. Taking a good bye onthis town and to my Dad, Simon.