Chapter 11 make myself proud

Dear Diary...

I feel like everyday time just gets slower...

everytime I comment about every thing bad that happenes to me, ..it's almost like God want's me dead..

I come at school and after when I come home Pepole always tell me that my efforts are not enough!...

like everything I do is for NOTHING!!!

I don't see this working...

my life is never gonna change...

my family's never gonna change...

my dad will never change...

nor will my Friends ever change...

no Matter what I do to make thing's right! are the thing's I'm always doing wrong...

I always let myself down!

I get so angry at myself!!

Mabey Pepole are right! Mabey I really am not enough...

I give Pepole my love and they throw it back in my face like I'm the one who doesn't deserve it! they take my support and I get NOTHING in return!

I feel cheated...

I feel used!

it's like I have no reason to care about people anymore....

why?

it's because they don't deserve it..

as a kid. adults these days Don't even treat their children LIKE children anymore and we have become more like slaves to our elders.

if there is ONE thing! that life has taught me so far...

is that the only person you should worry about is you! becuse if no adult or friend is good enough for you the only person that is, is yourself.

I'm not listening to Anyone!

I'm going to make myself proud and ONLY myself!

not for mom!

not for dad!

not for my family!

not for my mentors!

not for my friend's!

not for the world!

Just me...

sincerely

- Hannah 💓💪