Chapter 16: Inner Tumoil

Embra P.O.V

The time is nearly 11:00 p.m but, I feel no urge to sleep. So, I am now smoking a cigarette in my room after changing my clothes to nightwear. The heater is on in my room because this is winter but, my silk sleepwear is soaked with sweat. It is not because the temperature is too high because of the heater or I did a workout at this hour but, it is because I am angry with my pitiful self last night.

Last night which I still remember clearly, I was in my apartment in Tokyo, chilling while reading manga. Suddenly the room becomes dark and no sound could be heard, except for a flap of wings. I admit I was mesmerized in her beauty for a few seconds but, that is no excuse over my choice to stay low. I unconsciously chose to stay weak and poor in the face of an unknown situation where no sounds could be heard and shining feathers are scattered around in my own room.

Fu*k. No matter how I think about it, I feel angry with myself. I want to punch my past self so hard for acting like a wimp. No, calling me of last night a wimp would be praising. I was a fu*king boot-licking coward. Fu*k.. Fu*k..

*stomp* *stomp*

I lean back on the wall and looks down at the cigarette that I just stomped a couple of times because of my rising anger. Sh*t. My anger would not go down at this rate. My hands reach towards the glass of alcohol on the desk near me and I emptied the whole glass. Even though the amount of alcohol is small and it is only, maybe, 300 ml.

But, my throat burns along with the alcohol I just drink and my anger calming down a tiny little bit. I lean back on the wall again and thinks about earlier events while igniting a new cigarette at my lips.

Keinnayi, an angel and a goddess of Time and Space. She is haughty and full of self-confidence but, her confidence did not come from her ego and narcissistic self. Her overconfidence, which seems arrogance, stem from her ignorant of this world and her self-confidence that no mortal can hurt her. I don't know whether she is a powerful goddess or not but, she completely and utterly believe that no one in this world can harm her with anything.

But, she also has a kind heart. She feels sad for millions of people who will die because of this virus and she is mature. But, it is only in some aspect. She is still an amateur in some aspects. Maybe because she is a goddess that focus more on governing or ruling than fighting...

She was haughty and arrogant when she was talking with me but, would I have been alive if I act like I usually do? No, don't turn away from the reality, you fu*ing wimp. That is because of your pathetic self that she can acts arrogant. Fu*k. Fu*k this sh*t.

*sigh*

Sethar, a Valkyrie and direct subordinate of Keinnayi. She is also haughty and the same as her mistress, ignorant of this world and completely believe that nothing in this world can harm her. But, she is over-protective of her mistress, Keinnayi. She is smart, clever and has keen eyes. I am certain. She is used to fights. Well, she is a bodyguard for Keinnayi, so, it is understandable.

She is a soldier, no, warrior, through and through..

Between the two, who is stronger, I wonder. Keinnayi turns herself into a mortal or something like that, which I don't give a shit about. But, Sethar.. she is different. Her strength when she pulls my arms back in the car is no joke. If Keinnayi did not interfere, what will my arms become of? Sh*t. This is not the main point. The main point is Sethar can use her power faster than Keinnayi, who is now a mortal or whatever.

However, seeing that Keinnayi panics at first when I drove towards the disguised entrance, she is not reading my mind. I don't know why the fu*k she is believing me but, I am sure, she is not reading my mind. Is she really a mortal now?

My thinking never stops and I continue thinking about them till all my last and seventh cigarette. My mind is in a mess and I cannot focus on anything. So, I do my usual actions whenever I feel like that. I pick up my phone and call the head maid who handles my personal maid.

"Ba-san, is Ji Yeon there? " (Embra)

I call he Ba-san because she is over fifty and nearing sixty but, she has been working under me for the longest time than anyone. And, she manages the woman I sleep with. She prepared them before they come into my room and takes care of them after the night too. She also knows my tastes and I usually find the women I sleep with, however, sometimes she herself find some for me.

Anyway, after she confirms that the Korean idol, who arrived two days ago because of the virus, is indeed in the palace, she asks for me confirmation to send her.

"Then, send her, Yumiko and Airi to my room right now." (Embra)

I was about to hang up after telling the two women who can handle rough, to come up to my room but, her words make me stop my hands.

"I understand, Lord. Should I also prepare the newly arrived ones that come with you?" (Ba-san)

I stopped thinking for a second but, there is no need to overthink here. The answer is already obvious. I should not bite more than I can chew.

"No. Don't touch them. I am serious. Even if it is you, Ba-san, I won't forgive you." (Embra)

I turn her down firmly and hung up the phone. I sit on the chair and looks through the window while taking another glass alcohol. Not even half an hour has passed since I hung up the phone but, a knock can be heard on my door. I see who is knocking on my door from my tablet. Three women with revealing clothes can be seen outside my room. I let them in and from then on is the start of a rough night that lasted till 1 a.m in the night.

*Beep* *Beep*

"*Groan*" (Embra)

I woke up from my sleep because of the alarm. I open my eyes that are refusing to open because of my headache and sit up. I look at the three women who are sleeping at left and right of me. They are a mess. Fu*k. Was I too rough? Well, I don't care. They are in this for money anyway. I stand up and heads towards the bathroom without caring about the sounds on the way.

A nice long hot bath is the best for this type of morning. I stay in the bath for half an hour while drinking a drink to ease my headache. When I come out of the bath, it is already 4:30 a.m. The three women are already up and they hurriedly get out of my room after sweet talking to me for a minute. At least, they still know that they should get out of my bed after I wake up. Everything is alright then, they are not broke yet.

I head to the adjacent room of my bedroom, where gym equipment are, to work out a bit while listening to music. My bed will be cleaned by Ba-san and her maids as soon as she gets the news that I am awake. So, there is no need to worry about the smell of the bed.

When I finished my morning routine, I head to my computer room to check on the latest news. Well now, what is happening in the world. Will be bad news or good news? Well, I won't know that yet tell I read it myself, right? While holding a cup of green tea in my hand, I head towards my computer room and start working after locking the door.