Chapter 4

"I'm Xia Alizondo the assigned surgeon, this my first major operation with you, we will open the chest and remove the shreds first and lookout for haemothorax, there's a puncture on the area near the location of Superior Vena Cava we should be watchful with that."

.

"Let's remove the 1st shred near the area of SVC"

I reached with the clamp ready to remove the 1st shred but…

"Team leader, the blood pressure is going down!" said Woonyoung

"Let's remove this quickly, meanwhile try to control the blood pressure, and increase the drop of blood"

"it has really punctured through half of the SVC"

"gauze!" I quickly controlled the blood to stabilize his BP

"Normal BP's back"

"Oh thank goodness!! now we may confidently remove the other shreds"

The rest of the operation went well even the haemothorax was taken care off.

"good job everyone, Bona please close now"

"yes, team-leader"

I walked out of the OR and went to Brix��s parents and told them how the operation went and saw their relieved faces.

"Doc thank you" said his mother

"It was my job ma'am" I said and slowly turned around to leave

"I saw you shed a tear earlier, do you know my son?"

I turned around to face her again

"I'm a fan of his for 16 years already I became a doctor with him as my inspiration I was just taken aback when I saw you ma'am because I recognized you as I have seen you appear in one of their reality shows, I didn't expect this would happen to him"

"you're such a good person, thank you again"

"it's nothing ma'am it was my job to save lives, I'll be checking his condition from time to time you may visit him at the ICU after an hour, I'll get going now."

I turned and left, and went to the locker room to change. When I was changing my dress, I was thinking about being glad that I became a surgeon and saved his life but I also thought of why did this happen to him when he never acted out even once. Yes, we found out that he's drunk while driving because the odor of the liquor is sticking on his clothes. Maybe he has a problem but I don't think it's about his family because I know how good of a son he is to his parents.

6 am, I went out of the hospital and head home so I could at least change my clothes and wash so I could return to the hospital immediately. I couldn't have my breakfast because I was too worried about him. That's why I went back as soon as I finished my business at home.

*knock! *knock!

"ne!"(yes)

"good morning Director Jung"

"Yes! Yes! Have a sit Dr. Alizondo, I heard your team called you for a major operation earlier. How did it go?"

"Thankfully it went well, I wanted to say something regarding that operation"

"Yes, please continue"

"Since it was my first case here, I would like to watch over him until he recovers"

"So, you wanted to start working ahead of the said schedule of your official work?"

"Yes, if you would allow me to"

"Well of course! if that's what you want, is he someone you know?"

"Well sort of? H-he's actually a member of an idol group I like, and he's been a big part on how I achieved my goals."

"oh I see, so you're one of those 'Successful Fangirls' they're saying" she laughed, but there's a worry in her eyes.

"Well, if that's the case then you may officially start your duties now, I'm glad that you'll be taking care of that patient. I'll tell your team as soon as I finish some paper works"

"yes, thank you director."

I went to my office to get my Doctor's Coat and went to the ICU. As soon as I entered….

"Oh here's the team leader of the thoracic department" director Jung said

"Listen everyone this is Dr. Xia Alizondo, she's from the Philippines the new team leader of the thoracic department she's scheduled to start her official duties next week but she requested to start today to watch the first patient she operated earlier in our hospital, isn't she too dedicated?" she said with a cute laugh

"Naneun Xia Alizondo-imnida sumul yeodeol-i-yeyo, yeorobeundeul mannaseo bangapseubnida" (I'm Xia Alizondo 28 years old, it's nice meeting you all)

"Shall we go to work?" director Jung said

"Thank you, director" as I smiled at her

She mouthed "No problem I should be the one thanking you for saving his life…"

"oh… it's my job"

I went to the cubicle of the ICU where Brix was and checked his stitches and vitals, he's doing well but he hasn't woken up yet, I'm assuming that there might be a trauma.

"uisanim?" (doctor?)

"oh, annyeonghaseyo"

"thank you for looking after my son, I heard you were supposed to start next week in the hospital to let you rest first and settle your house here in Korea since you just arrive from the Philippines but asked to work earlier, we're sorry and also really thankful"

"I've already sort things ma'am and I could adapt easily"

"I bet you're still tired"

"no ma'am I've rested well yesterday"

"ah, doctor, please just call me 'eommoni' "

"ne? umm but that's…"

"I just want to be comfortable"

"okay, ma- I mean eommoni" I said

"Please call me Xia ma- eommoni" she chuckled to my almost-mistake of calling her ma'am again

"they said I could watch over my son for an hour only, since this is a restricted area"

"don't worry eo-eommoni we'll keep watching him from time to time"

Bona appeared in the cubicle while catching her breath...

"Excuse me, team leader, the cardio-surgery department's lacking a member of their team they're about to do a heart transplant they told me to call you"

"Yes, I'll be right over"

"Bona will watch him for now eommoni"

"Yes! Yes!"

I went to the OR and assisted on Cardio-surgery's heart transplant. We had difficulties during the operation as the patient encountered heart arrest twice and it was difficult for the main surgeon to control the bleeding. The operation went for four hours and 15 minutes because of difficulty in controlling the bleeding, but we managed it well.

I went to my office to rest for a while. I was about to close my eyes when my phone rang.

"ah.. who could this be?" I looked at the number, it was the caller before I left Philippines

"this is the third time tho" it wasn't calling on my new number but my number when I was still at Ph

"this is odd--"

*knock *knock

"yes!?"

"team leader we're going out for dinner would you like to come with us?"

"ummm.. I just finished my operation I'm too weak to walk, I'll just eat at the cafeteria later"

"okay"

"umm.. eat well guys"

"ne!~~" Bora replied in a cute way

I'm really happy I'm getting along really well with my team though I'm quite younger than most of them with a few years, yet they accepted and respect me as their team leader.

I passed out on the chair while trying to just rest for a couple of minutes which became an hour. I haven't eaten anything yet since morning and I'm really hungry. I head out to the hospital's cafeteria and bought food, I sat down and was about to take a sip of the soup…

"Paging Dr. Xia Alizondo please proceed to the ICU"

And then a call came…

Caller: Bona Jung

I picked up

"team leader, the patient is now awake--"

"wait what's that sound?"

"that's what I'm about to tell you... The patient has been throwing things out and doesn't want to take the meds" when I heard that I came storming out of the cafeteria to the ICU

"I'll be there, okay, don't let him hurt himself if possible, administer a sedative if it's doable try to calm him or else the wounds might open" I said on the line while running

I saw everyone looking outside the ICU cubicle of Brix and I could hear shouting and I could see my team trying to calm him.

"YA!! NEO SIBAL!!" (you're a shit!!) while pointing at Bona

"NEO!! WAE NAREUL GUHAE JWOSSEO!?! WAE!!??" (You!! Why did you save me!?! Why!!??)

"NAEGA JUGOSSIPEUNDE!!!" (I want to die)

It shocked me. As I watch him, I couldn't imagine my idol doing this, but it's happening right now. I stepped in, but he took a shattered piece of a vase and pointed it near his pulse.

"hwanjanim jebal hajimaseyo!" (Patient please don't do that) I couldn't call out his name I took my courage and took one step

"NA-EGE GAKKAI OJIMARA!!" (Don't go near me)

It startled me. He suddenly cut his pulse and blood began to drip I held his pulse to control the bleeding with my gown but he swept me with his other arm I fell down near the shattered pieces of the vase. He was about create another cut but I managed to pull his arm and Bona managed to give the sedative.

"It's really a deep wound"

"Would you like me to do the stitching team-leader?" Bora said

"No, it's fine I'll do it, I should do it carefully and beautifully so he won't get a scar since he's an idol"

"keunde (but), team-leadernim you look pale, eodi tachyeosseoyo??" (are you hurt somewhere?)

"ajik mollayo (don't know yet), I should mind the patient first"

I was about to finish stitching I only have to do 3 stitches remaining on his pulse area when he regained consciousness

"sir please don't move yet"

"what are you doing?" he gave me a stern face

"I'm stitching your wound sir"

"how many times do I have to tell you people I'm so done with this life!!"

"Bona please leave for a minute"

"Will you be fine team-leader?"

"yes"

"Sir, please! There are people dying just to have your life and live, yet you wanted to die?"

"you don't know my story so you don't have the right to lecture on me"

"I may not know your story, but for the 16 years I've been a fan of yours you never acted out this way the fans are worried about your condition since the day you were rushed here, the fans are camping outside this hospital to know if you're alive or not, you said they are your priority and you want to take care of them. I was shocked when I saw you at the operating room, thinking how did you got hurt? As I was operating on you I'm so nervous thinking anything could go wrong if I made a mistake, every move I make is full of worries, I don't know about your problems but at least think of your fans and find a reason out of them to live life."

He looked at me with his brows meeting each other and then turned his eyes on the window

"I've finished stitching up your wounds I'll be back to check on your stitches and vitals later, please don't even think about doing something reckless again."

I came out of his room and I could feel his eyes followed me and watched me through the glass. Suddenly my left-lower back is aching, as if there's something stuck into it. I managed to hold on the wall with my free hand.

"Team-leader!! Are you okay" Bona said

"C-Could you take a look at my back? it's kinda aching" I said while trying not to fall down because of the pain

She took a look

"Doctor!! There's quite a huge piece of the broken vase punctured in your back!! It's half deep though come let's take that out"

"okay---" suddenly my vision turned black

Ahhhh… I feel pain in my back

"Team-leader??"

I tried to open my eyes

"Team-leader are you feeling well now??"

"oh? Yes, I'm quite fine now… it's just my back hurts a little"

"the anesthesia might have worn off... ah there are 7 stitches on your back doc and 5 stitches on your left arm"

"oh… yes thank you, wait… did you give him his meds?"

"Not yet doc"

"hand me over his meds I'll bring it to him"

"but doc I think you should rest more"

"I'm fine, really…"

"okay just a second I'll get it from the station"

I'm waiting for Mrs. Lee to come with the meds. Meantime I will fix myself….

"Xia-ssi??"

"Ne?" as I turned around, I saw Brix's mother

"Oh! Eommoni! How did you know I was here?"

"I heard what happened earlier so I asked where I could find you, I'm sorry in behalf of my son"

"It's fine eommoni no need to be sorry"

"No, it's not right to treat someone who saved his life that way"

"don't be sorry Eommoni, maybe he's just going through a lot of things that's why he's like that"

"Yes, you're right, he's been going through a lot"

"what do you mean eommoni?"

"He's been keeping his relationship with a girl from the public for 1 year now"

"He has a Girlfriend?!?" I asked in shock

"Yes, His girlfriend wanted him to stop doing his promotions but he's afraid to leave his fans and the thing he love doing the most which is singing, dancing, and acting. He told his girlfriend about that but she didn't understand him and broke up with him instead. My son really loved that girl that's why he's the one who's hurt the most"

"I see… I now understand him… Don't worry Eommoni I'll try to understand him more until he's fully recovered"

"thank you, Doc!"

"No, it's my duty" I gave her a smile

"Doc here are the meds you asked" said Mrs. Lee

"thank you I'll bring it to him myself you may go back to your station mrs. Lee"

"okay doc"

"Eommoni would you like to go with me?"

"y-yes I'd like to see my son"

We head to Brix's room, he was transferred earlier after he woke up from the sedative I gave him.

His mom knocked the door and opened it. I stayed back to give them time.

"Adeul?" (Son?)

"Eomma? Wae Yeogisseo?" (Mom, why are you here?)

"I came by to check on you, I heard what happened earlier, please don't do that again, I've been so worried about you it's gonna kill me, do you understand?"

"That won't happen again. I'm sorry"

I knocked to let them know that I'll enter the room.

"Sir I brought your medicines" I laid the tray on the bedside table and handed it to brix

"Just leave them there, I'll drink it later."

"Sir you should follow the timetable for taking your meds, it shouldn't be delayed"

"I get it!!" he drank it abruptly showing he was angry

"Now leave!!"

"Brix!!" his mom scolded him and he looked away

"You shouldn't be doing that! she was the surgeon who operated on you and saved you yesterday!! She had 7 stitches on her back because of you!!"

"Ma'am it's okay" I couldn't comfortably call her now because I'm afraid he'll be pissed off if I call his mother comfortably

"Sir I'll be back to change the dressing on your stitches later, please rest a bit" I turned around and leave

I'll admit it. It hurts, that my Idol shouts at my face telling me to leave, but what can I do? I need to understand him as my patient and as my Idol who's been hurt emotionally and physically. I really need to maintain professionalism and don't let my emotions meddle.

I went to my office to rest for a while, this day has been tough for me. That reminds me, I haven't had my Dinner yet. I went out of the hospital to look for a restaurant. I fed myself some Kimchi Jiggae and rested there for a while.

While resting I decided to open my Facebook account and scrolled on my News Feed. Ummm the usual news I see… well you know, as a fangirl, it's a necessity to know your idol's latest news. I saw some of articles about Brix's car accident and there was a fan who commented on a famous blog site of a reporter saying:

"Brix oppa, I'm so worried about your state I hope your company releases an official statement regarding your condition"

And I replied to her comment pretending I have heard his condition from a trusted source

"I heard from a trusted friend that he's fine but has to stay at the hospital for 2 weeks more to let him fully recover his energy, you'll get to see him soon. J"

But another comment made my anger spurt.

"That serves him right!! You guys fool for him because he's handsome well let me tell you he's no better than my oppas"

I can't let it pass so I left a reply on her comment

"No person deserves to be in a stake between life and death that way, you think it's funny?? what if this happens to your oppas and we would say the same thing to them. I don't think you'd be happy to hear such. It's not about handsomeness that we like them, it's about their talent and morale, now as a person, who would like you if you don't have manners? Learn something and do good young woman!"

Without even a minute most of the netizens who read my reply has liked it and supported my voice. I'm thankful that most of the readers are leaving get-well-soon messages for Brix. If he could only read these, he wouldn't even think of doing harsh things to himself.

I continued scrolling down and I saw a post of my Ex's new GF she was kinda letting her anger out through her post maybe they fought?? well it doesn't matter anymore since we had our relationship when we were 1st year in high school, too young to fall in love, I know, but we were pushed to each other by people who think we matched well especially our families that's why we ended up having a relationship but eventually the childhood friends turned-lovers ended up as strangers after 6 months of our relationship. We became friends again when we entered 1st year college but we're now taking different fields, I concentrated on becoming a doctor and he studied to become an engineer, we were too busy to check on each other, but I heard he had a girlfriend during his 3rd year college.

Around 11 pm I decided to come back to the hospital. I saw an ambulance entering the emergency drop off. I hurried myself to see if there's something I could help.

"What happened to the patient?" I asked the 119-responder. (A/N Korea uses 119 as emergency hotline instead of 911)

"she���s been hit by a car she's complaining chest pain and have spit out blood once"

"she has a huge area of chest contusion" and when I looked at her left lower rib "she dislocated about two ribs on her left lower rib cage"

"please lead her in I'm just gonna call my team"

"yes doc!!"

I dialed Bona's phone number.

"B-Bona?? Gather our team we have an operation, come to the operating room as soon as possible, okay?"

"Yes, Team leader!"

I hang up and followed the rescuer who brought the patient inside

"How old is the girl?" I asked

"about 7 years old ma'am"

A nurse came and assisted us and I asked her for an X-ray.

"It'll be quite difficult to relocate her ribs since she has quite a small build"

Bora came to me and told me that the operating room is now ready

"Transfer the child to the operating room and get the X-ray I requested I'll just change." I tapped her back and left

The operation will start in a few minutes. Everyone's in the OR now.

"Let's do a briefing Lee Yona, 7 years old, hit by a private car about 45 minutes ago, she has a chest trauma resulting to contusion on her left-lower chest and has 2 dislocated ribs on the same area, we will take care of the contusion first and relocate her ribs. We have to be careful not to touch the nerves on her spine this could cause paralysis"

"Yes, team leader"

"Let's start"

Eventually the operation started around 11:50 in the evening. We need to be very careful especially it's a child. We had trouble on controlling the hemorrhage due to a ruptured blood vessel. The operation went for 3 and a half hours.

"Sugohasseo yeorobun" (you've all worked hard) I said

"Bona please wrap this up"

"yes team leader"

"I'll check her on the ICU after an hour"

"ahhh Team leader…." Nurse Leah sounded troubled

"Yes, Nurse Leah??"

"The ICU is full today, the cardiology and Nephrology Department brought in many transplant patients this afternoon, that's why it's fully occupied"

"How about a private room? She could stay there and let's just take shifts to watch over her condition"

"That's possible though but we only have 1 room left where she can stay but it's Semi Private, all other rooms are occupied because of the food poisoning that happened on a fieldtrip this morning"

"which room??"

"Brix's room"

"That will do, sanitize the whole area she'll get transferred and we just have to cover her with transparent curtains to avoid Infection set it up like an ICU but please let Brix know about it first and get his consent. Just kindly request for things that are necessary for her recovery"

"yes doc"

I went to the locker room to change. This is my second operation in the hospital and it feels great to be helping people. I went to my office and looked for my journal. Every time I do an operation whether major or not, I try to write it down on my journal. What did I do? How did I control shortcomings? And what did I feel during the conduct of operation?

"Oh!! A call! It's from the same unknown number"

"Hello? Who's this?"

"X-xi-a"

"hello?" I couldn't hear something from the other line maybe it's because it's a number that's supposed to be used only in the Philippines?

"Hello? May I know your name?" I tried again

"Xia I'm--" Oh the voice suddenly became unclear

*Knock *knock

"come in!" I didn't hesitate and turned down the call

"Team Leader, Yona's in the room now"

"I see, have you reached her parents already?"

"I heard she's from an orphanage a kilometer away from here, she was running an errand and about to buy medicines needed in the orphanage"

"poor girl"

"But the Mother Superior said she'll visit her from time to time and she said not to worry about the bills"

"I see, uh Bora can you please tell the Billing counter to exclude my Doctor's fee for the child?"

"really?!? Wow!! that's so kind of you team leader"

"It's my gift for the child… for not giving up…"

"I'll tell them right away. I'll get going now"

"okay"

After Bora left, I put my doctor's coat to go and see Yona.

I entered Brix's and Yona's room and a nurse from the station was checking on Yona, meanwhile Brix was in a deep sleep. I checked her Vital Stats and she seems to be doing fine.

"umm nurse have you check the other patient"

"you mean Sir Brix??"

"Yes"

"I already checked him Doc, he actually asked for a sleeping pill earlier because he said he couldn't sleep but he feels tired, Doc Bora approved the pills"

"I see thank you, but if he asks again for a pill tomorrow refrain from giving him another"

"yes doc, noted."

I sat beside Yona since we still have to monitor her situation since she lost a lot of blood during the accident and the operation, her heart might get tired of pumping enough blood to supply to her body and cause a Cardiac arrest. So we need a close watch even though we're supplying her with blood. I looked at my phone to look at the time. It's 4:57 in the morning. Still got no sleep and this is my 3rd day with no proper rest, my body might give up anytime soon. I put my head on Yona's bed just to take a nap.

Just an hour after I heard the ECG's alarm. I hurriedly called for assistance and pushed the alarm button connected to the Nurse's station.

The nurses came to the room quickly with a defibrillator

"Call the Thoracic department, tell them to come here immediately!"

"yes doc!!"

"charge to 150"

"150"

"Clear!"

"Charge to 200"

"200"

"Clear!"

"Again"

"200"

"Clear!!"

"This won't do…." I put down the paddles and climbed to the bed to do CPR manually

"1,2,3,1,2,3,1,2,3….."

"Team leader!!!"

"Oh! Bona!! Take charge of the Manual Mouth respirator"

"Yes, team leader!"

"1,2,3,1,2,3,1,2,3..."

"Team leader!! Your arm!! I-I think your Stitches opened up!! Come down and I'll do it!!"

"No!! if we shift now, she might die!!"

"But Team-lea----"

"No Bora!"

I continued, though I could feel the blood dropping on my arm

"1,2,3,1,2,3,1,2,3….."

"The Vitals are back!!!!" Bora shouted

"Oh, thank you!!"

I went down and catch my breath and saw my blood on Yona's shirt.

"Nurse please change her clothes later"

"team Leader let's stitch your wound again"

I held my bleeding arm to stop the flow of blood, I went pass Brix's bed and saw him looking at us and shocked, was he watching the whole time? He looked at my bleeding arm with a certain look. I hid it from his view and hurried out to get myself medicated.

"Team leader I think you should go home and rest for today"

"yeah, I might agree with that idea. Take shifts on watching the child. If another arrest happens call me immediately.��

"Yes, team leader"

"Thank you for stitching it again, I'll head out now."

I went to leave my gown on my clinic and started to head out to my apartment. Before I reached my building, I decided to eat breakfast on a ramen restaurant. I filled my stomach slowly so I won't get indigestion. After the meal I finally went home and head for my bed.

"ahhhh… finally… a proper rest"

I closed my eyes and hoped to have a good sleep…

3:00 pm

"ummmmm" I groaned as I stretched out

I went to my fridge to cook a little so I could eat before I take a bath. I 'm not a good cook but at least I don't burn the food I cook hihihi!!

"oooh just right to my palate"

In no time I finished eating and did the dishes. I could now properly take a refreshing bath. I usually take 30 minutes on the shower and another 30 minutes to fix myself.

After an hour I'm about to leave my apartment. There's a new coffee shop across the street so I decided to buy some for my team.

I went straight to the Room where the interns and assistant surgeons under our department stay and where we conduct our meetings.

"Oh! Everyone's here, guys I brought you some coffee and buns!!"

"Uwaaa!!!" they all shouted

"The old team leader never bought us coffee before, we're so glad he left" bona said which left everyone laughing.

"ah team leader…" Woonyoung called out

"hmm???"

"there will be interns entering our department from Y**sei University tomorrow"

"Really?? When I was young, I really dreamt of entering that school but I didn't get a scholarship for exchange students because they said the slots were already full so I have to get into another school in the Philippines to take Medicine"

"oooh….. but after all that didn't affect your future since you finished your specialization in Thoracic Surgery at the fastest time possible, you're truly amazing team leader!" Bora said

"Naah!! I just got lucky and of course I studied hard. Oh!! You guys continue to eat I'll just do some rounds."

"yes, team leader!!"

I went to patients admitted to our department and checked their conditions, 6 of them are preparing for their scheduled operations and the rest are minor complaints.

It's 6:14 PM I'm quite late on my shift to watch Yona and I still have to change Brix's dressing.

*Knock *Knock

I slide to open the door

"Good evening Sir I'm going to change your dressing"

I started to change his dressing and I noticed he kept looking at my left arm.

"u-uh your stitches are quite getting better, but some are still fresh, but they'll heal soon"

"there it's finished"

"u-ummm doc?"

"yes sir?"

"h-how's your arm?" he asked but he didn't look at me he had a straight face

"ah… it's fine sir"

After hearing my answer, he closed his eyes and went to sleep.

I went to Yona's bed to watch her until 2 am, since it's my shift already. The girl hasn't regained her consciousness yet.

"There's a lot of good things you could see, please wake up already" I whispered into Yona's ear as I tried to fix her hair.

I sat on a chair beside her and read a book about Thoracic surgery which I borrowed from the research department of the hospital to let the time pass.

I stretched out after I finished some chapters. I looked at the time on my phone it's already 1:44 am. I checked Yona's vitals and the urine bag and wrote it on her records.

"Team leader"

"Oh Bona"

"I'll take the shift now"

"It's still early"

"There's just a few minutes until 2:00 am it's fine team leader." Then she smiled

"Ok I will leave her in your care" I tapped her shoulder

Before I head outside, I also checked Brix's blood pressure quietly and adjusted his dextrose. After, I went to my office to sleep.

Around 3:30 am I woke up, I was about to close my eyes again but suddenly there's a call coming from Bona.

"hello" I said

"Ommo!! Team leader!!! Yona's awake!!"

"really?!? Ok wait for me I'll be there..."

I ran as fast as I could and without even 2 minutes, I reached the room.

"did you check her vitals" I asked Bona while I was checking Yona's Pupil

"Everything's normal Team leader"

"that's good"

"Hello, I'm Xia. I'm going to ask you a few questions"

In response she nodded

"Jeon uisayo. Hajiman~~ Yonaneun nareul Eonnirago buleododwae" (I'm a doctor. But~~ Yona can call me sister)

"Ireumi mwoya?" (what's your name) I asked in a cute way

"jeoneun Lee Yona-imnida" (my name is Lee Yona)

"eung..… Yona~~ myeot sal iya?" (How old is Yona?)

"Ilgobsalimninda"(7 years old)

"Yona, Yeong-eo malhaneun ara?" (Yona, do you know how to speak in english?)

"Ne"

"Ok I'm going to speak in english from now on okay?"

"okay"

"do you feel pain anywhere??"

"no"

"tell us if you feel pain anywhere in your body okay?"

"yes eonni" she flashed a bright smile towards us

"okay rest a bit more it's still very early in the morning. I'll be back later okay?" I fixed her blanket for her

I left the room and came back to my office to get more rest. I'm glad that the child woke up now.

It's 7:00 am in the morning, I brushed my teeth and now washing my face

"Gosh!! The water's freezingggg!!!"

*knock knock*

"Doc! we're going to take our breakfast at the cafeteria"

"yeahh!! Be right over"

After fixing my hair I followed Wonyoung, the youngest of our team. We gathered on the table on the cafeteria to start our day with breakfast, everyone's deliciously eating their meal

"I'm so excited to see the interns later!!" Wonyoung said

"Why? because you have someone to pass your errands now??" Bona lightly flicking Wonyoung's ear to tease him

"ahh!!" he reacted

"noooo…. Because I feel there will be pretty interns later, not like you~~ :P " Young answered teasing Bona back

"duh!! I'm very pretty for you to notice… Flirt!!" she answered with an irritated expression

I laughed at how they were bickering and teasing each other and ending up with one person, sulking. It's actually refreshing to see this kind of episodes in our team.

"guys we need to check the patients let's hurry and finish the food" I said

We went from room to room of patients to check their status. This is our daily routine, we conduct our rounds early in the morning and in the evening or afternoon, I, alone, do the rounds to check if my team have done their duties throughout the day.

We're through with our rounds when I received a text from the Hospital admin.

"Guys, the interns are here, we should head back to our Hideout" yes, we're calling the Thoracic department Office as "Hideout". Before I came here my team has been calling it Hideout for quite a long time already.

Along the way, the youngsters were bickering, Bona and Wonyoung, well they're just a year apart that's why they decided to be friends (act as same aged).

"Annyeong haseyo leader-nim!!" 4 interns greeted and bow at the same time.

"Ne! annyeonghaseyo!! I'm Dr. Xia Alizondo head of the Thoracic Surgery team I just started working here a few days ago, I'm from the Philippines, let's work and learn comfortably okay?" I said brightly

"This is the Thoracic Surgery Team, guys go and greet your sunbaes.." (Sunbae- Senior)

My team introduced themselves individually. So as the interns, we have 2 boys and 2 girls who entered as interns in our department and they're so smart looking and bright!!

"Guys I'm seriously not strict to the team but I will boldly scold you for your mistakes and not paying attention. If there are question you want to ask feel free to ask your seniors or me okay?"

"Oh and one thing, to the interns just call me sunbae, and to my team, isn't 'team-leader' too long?? I just opened this now because we're not busy unlike the past few days just call me 'Doc' okay? Let's be comfortable."

"Yes Sunbae" "Yes Doc" exclaimed the interns and my team

"Interns you may go home for now, pack your things and do everything you want to do, because you'll be staying at the hospital 24 hours for several days, and be sure to come here at 6 am for our routine tomorrow, dismiss!" I smiled and waved at them as they leave the office.

"guys take care of the patients I assigned you to check okay? And prepare for 2 operations this lunch and later in the evening, if something came up, I'll be on my office."

"yes doc"

I left with a smile and went to my office to study the operation I'll be doing later. Well the other one is not too complicated but the patient I'll be operating in the evening might take 6 hours because of the complexity of the procedure we will be doing.

"Doc the operating room is now ready"

"Oh! Oh! I'll be right there"

I already changed into my scrub suit, I'm just going to wash my hands and start the operation.

After an hour the operation ended

"Bora, I'll change Yona's and Brix's dressings first, just leave the X-ray and the lab results of the next patient we'll operate this evening"

"Yes doc"

I'm about to slide the door open but I hesitated when I hear woman's voice

"Brix please don't call me!! My boyfriend's getting mad!!!"

"Ya! We just broke up and now you have a boyfriend??!!"

"Brix don't you get it!! I no longer love you!!"

"Is it really true that you only used me to gain fame??!!? Is that why you wanted to publicize our relationship??!?!"

"Fine!! I did!!"

"I don't believe you!!!"

"Brix it's really over"

"Ya! Don't you dare leave this room or I'll kill myself!! I'll forget all about this just please Come back to me!!"

"Ya! Younhui!! Choi Younhui!!!"

I was holding the door handle when it suddenly opened…

"Ommo!!" I was shocked and was dragged to the side when the door opened

The girl glared at me as she walked past to leave the room completely. She's gone in a blink of an eye. Then I heard loud noises it the room. That's why I entered hurriedly

"Ahhhhhhh!!!!! Wae!!?? Wae?!?!?" (wae=Why) he was throwing everything he could see...

"Yona!! Yona!! Are you okay??" I hurried to Yona's bed which is facing opposite Brix's bed

"Oh my God! It's Okay Yona Don't be scared…" I told as she hid under her blanket

I pushed the emergency button on Yona's headboard

"nurse!! Bring a sedative on this room ASAP!!"

I secured Yona first and went to stop Brix

"Sir! Please stop!! You might hurt yourself"

"Why would she!!??!" he continued throwing things, kicking his bed

"Sir please calm down!!"

"leave!!!" he told me to leave the room

"I'm going to leave this room if you calm down first"

"Doc here's the sedative"

"Give it to me"

As I tried to get the sedative, he grabbed a book and threw it to the nurse who's about to give me the sedative the hardbound book stuck the Nurse's head. And I lost my temper….

I went to his direction and though he kept throwing things…

"BRIX!!! STOP!! PLEASE!!!" I said as I was trying to hold his arm.

"STOP!!!!" I got a hold of his shoulders when he suddenly knelt down on the floor and stared at nothingness… I knelt down with him…

"BRIX!! You're not the only one who's using this room look at that child!!! She's so scared!! For goodness sake!!! she just regained consciousness from an accident!!!! I know you're hurting but please will you stop this!!?? you're scaring the child!!!"

"I don't care!!!"

"Brix stop!!! She already left you!!! There's nothing you can do!!! Learn to let go and respect yourself, move on!!! I can't imagine this is how much you've changed!! The Brix I know is sweet and mindful of people around him!! Don't let just one girl ruin you!!! There are thousands who love you Brix and those are your fans, she's not the only girl you'll meet!! There are millions in the world and I'm sure you'll meet the perfect one!!"

"She's not just some kind of girl!!! I only want her!!! I love her!!! and she's coming back!!"

"oh really??!? SHE LEFT YOU ALREADY!!!! Snap out of it!!"

"Who are you to say that!!!!??"

"I know!!! I'm just your fan… I spent my whole life supporting you!!! Thinking you were a reasonable type of a person, but I no longer see it now."

"See YOU ARE JUST A FAN!! Why?? Do you want me to like you?!? Are you expecting that??!! That's why you're sticking with me??!! That's why you kept on visiting that girl and pretend to watch over her overnight so you could be near me, are you trying to Flirt with me?!??!"

"I'm not flirting with you!!! I'm a doctor and it's my job to take care of my patients! we neglect our sleep to take care of our patients!!! It's part of my duty for goodness sake!!! I may like you but not as----"

"see!! You said you like me, what?!? you're expecting me to date you??!! Dream on!!! You're just like one of my stupid fan-girls!!! LEAVE!!!"

"Don't call your fans stupid because you know what?!? Even though you fail or commit mistakes they will be the one to support you, so if they're not around you wouldn't have come this far…" I stood up and because of what I said he seems to calm down.

"I think you no longer need this one stupid fan girl of yours… today you lost one..."

As I was about to leave the room….

"fix yourself, if you need anything call the nurse"

Bora was on the door…

"Doc, are you okay?"

"watch Yona for a while and comfort her, tell her she shouldn't be scared of the man across her, tell her he's just going through hard time, so she wouldn't be scared, I'll just go out for a walk and some fresh air."

"how about the operation doc?"

"we'll still be doing that, we can't delay that operation, I'll just go for a while"

"okay doc…"

I went to the rooftop of the hospital, there's a helipad in the middle. I went there and sat down and suddenly tears fell down. I just can't believe my idol doing that. Doesn't he know that, us, his fans are hurting for him too?? I wish his heart could move on and find a reason to stand back on his feet again. I lie down and shouted to relieve the heavy feelings I have.

"Ya!! From this point forward I'm no longer what you called your stupid fan!!!"

"I'm no longer a fan of yours!!"

"no longer special treatments!!"

"you're just a patient to me now and not my idol!!!"

"hooooooooo!!!!!!"

"ahhhhhhh!!!!"