Chapter 9

       * time skip to when tae went back home (  jungkook rented a house for tae)

                    I went back home expecting jungkook to still be there but he wasn't , i cried my self to sleep again  thinking about the baby and jungkook

      * time skip to the next morning at  work*

           i went to the personnel manager  to submit  my resignation letter . "mr kim, does mr jeon know about your resignation"

           " dont worry mr lee. i've got his acquiescence. or i wouldn't do this" i lied  "plus, i'll  stay for another 3 months" i added

             "Then i can  approve of this since Mr jeon has permitted it" "ok thanks" i said as i left Mr lee is probably thinking that jungkook is dumping me because baekhyun is back

          Buzz Buzz 

         my phone rang  but it was just a text from jimin asking me to come to his place for dinner i smiled because i've hardly had friends since the thing with  baekhyun three years ago i thought as made my way to jimin's place.

          "wow!  How tasty! how did you cook this soup jimin? and even the rice  tastes yummy" i exclaimed 

          "who said i cooked them? i called for a food delivery. A star like me won't cook for an assistant like you"  jimin laughed so i knew it was a joke. " slow down, Didn't you have breakfast? jimin said "i didn't huh ton for it ( i didn't have time for it" i said smacking on some ribs.

             "taehyung what were you thinking? no breakfast with your terminal cancer ?" jimin said worriedly. 

            i laughed happily still eating "taehyung i have something to ask" jimin said   interrupting  me   "yeah?"

        "Taehyung, you're  pregnant now, jungkook is going to find out sooner or later. if you wanna sacrifice your own life for his baby, i suggest you make a plan as soon as possible."    jimin said  "let me think about it" i muttered

                " if the baby is born, i hope you can let me adopt it" jimin spoke softly  "what? are you joking" i laughed awkwardly

             "not at all i wanna adopt this baby... you go through all the troubles to give birth, to this child, and for what letting this baby live his or her life being an illegitimate child, do you want this baby to grow up in gossips" jimin asked 

        "i..."    "if you leave this baby to your parents, do you think they would take care  of the child who has been their shame? if you give him to me, i cant promise to treat him like my biological child but i will give him the best education and care. i will take care of him"

          i know what jimin means ... my parent may not love this child like the way jimin will, they don't even like me their biological child but i bet if it was baekhyun's child they would welcome him with open arms   but i can't ruin jimin's career 

             " jimin you have to understand, an unmarried star with a kid won't have a good career"i said trying to convince him because i don't wanna hurt his career 

                "that's not something you should worry about. i don't wanna stay in the entertainment industry anyway"  jimin answered  "i've earned enough money these years, i can buy a shop, do some business and live a normal life, if you feel guilty give me all your money" jimin pointed out smiling. 

             " no problem" i yelled ready to give him everything he needs to take care of my child  " i was  kidding! i don't want your  money!" jimin exclaimed  "thanks jimin for doing this"

      " Don't be that way. im just sick of my job, i'm not just doing this because of you. Actually , i'm doing this for myself too. i can't have a baby of my own" jimin muttered sadly 

       "Ah, am sorry if that was a touching subject" i said hurriedly "nah, it's okay. i'll call a driver to send you to the company" jimin said 

     " taehyung do you know why i want to help you, because i had the experience of trying to give birth to a child. But it still didn't work out at the end, i was in love with someone like you are and i would risk my life to give birth to my baby, our children will never get their fathers love... taehyung you're just like me from that time , so when i heard that you idiot wanna die for your child i didn't disuade you from it " jimin said and hugged me and we cried a long time before the driver came to pick me up.

  Buzz buzz 

         my phone rang and i saw  it was my mom which is weird cause she never called me since three years ago 

              "hi mom"  "taehyung, come home for dinner tonight,  baekhyun was home last night . he's   been away from home for 3 years . let the past stay in the past, baekhyun misses you . you.. forget about jungkook will you?  everyone can see he only loves baekhyun.. you don't have to..."  "i know . something came up. i gotta go"  i caught her off   not wanting to here more of that bullshit.

        my own mother thinks of me as a bad person just like everyone  else does. they wanna forget that past but  i still cannot understand, what did  i do wrong three years ago? the note book found at baekhyun's door revealed my secrets. . Baekhyun left so as to let me and jungkook be together  then i became the evil person . god knows how that notebook ended up at baekhyun's door   what did i  do wrong  i've been away from home for three years saince then my parents have cut all connection with me, even when i cried to them that jungkook raped me but they didnt believe i thought as i know found my self in front of my parents huge mansion.

                          ¨taehyung¨