Author's Stupid Complaints

this is how I feel when I write stories.

It contains me complaining and overall being a cry baby.

if you're here for Rem:Zero. Ignore this one and continue reading what you were reading Earlier. because this will contain useless stuff of me complaining on why I don't feel like I get support, even though I do get it. anyways...

Heya!

Tion_Official here and I'm here to complain.

Soo… recently some of the things i've been thinking and it's not about the stories. 

It's about my future and what ill do.

I like writing and I want to do it as my job, but without motivation I clearly lack progress.

For example.

I write a new story, it immediately gets me bored when I hit 50 chapters. Why?

Nothing is really helping me to motivate me.

I'm an immature, autisic…? 15 year old, maybe that's the problem. But I somehow can't really work hard not unless I get paid or something.

I'm not asking for you guys to pay me so I can write more. No. That's literally the most shitiest thing I can possibly do.

It's just I can't find any reason to continue something not unless I'm getting clear support and you guys really want me to do it.

I can write more, but I won't put in much work. Why? Cause it doesn't help me and my family and my suppossed life.

I'm writing a fanfic and I want to add more stories to it and create interesting things, but I'm just adding filler at this point.

It means useless things you shouldn't know about, because it's just there.

That goes same for my other stories.

I just add filler until I find the best time to add the plot and the plot isn't that even good as I just wrote it in one go.

I actually write my stories in one go. No checking, no caring what it says as long as it makes sense a little.

I'm just basically complaining because I'm not getting paid for this, Jesus Christ. Sorry for this but I guess you could see this as a way of how I think about all this.

You can agree to the fact I am kind of asking you guys to please support while at the same time, just saying, but mostly asking. I have to be honest.

But I'm just a teenager with problems.

If ya don't know I'm not really normal. I think of creepy stuff every time.

Creepy stuff may not sound bad but oh I wish I can go to my wording limits.

Some of you may be thinking.

I just need to work hard to get actual support and get my fatass up because the world isn't my personal bank account.

I am planning, but once again. I'm not normal. I'm just desperate at this point and I thank you for the info but my mind itself won't follow itself.

Anyways. To sum it all up.

I won't be writing many interesting chapters. I won't double check on my work or draft anything. Once I think it's good, I publish it. 

I'm starting to neglect school, fuck.

I might game end myself.

I can't say kill towards me, because I'm afraid I'll get fucked in the ass by saying that.

My parents are starting to see me as a dissapointment. I understand why. 

You don't care. I know. I just wonder why you're still reading this, anyways.

Let me tell you a useless thing that won't probably happen, but if it does it will apply.

I think if I'm getting paid for this, I will absolutely plan my stories.

I can actually plan and figure things out if this makes sense or not.

I write my stories in one go with no planning so doing this can change a lot.

More interesting stuff.

I can actually write more than ever. Because I know it's needed to be done.

And more good things actually.

If you're asking why I don't do this now??

Well again. School. It fucking sucks and I'm sick of it, and I can't really focus on it anymore.

We're learning about the heart, and you know what I know? I already fucking know the fucking heart. It was taught to us last fucking year. What the fuck is the benifit of learning the fucking heart. If I'm planning to be a doctor. That's good, but I'm not planning to save any lives by being a doctor! Fuck sakes…

Anyways thanks for reading this waste piece of trash.

Expect more trash from me, and in the future I might stop, or continue more trash. Or i might actually take things seriously for once.