I should have known to not let you go all on your own.

She's my Momma 08

Days have passed and gone, it was finally the day team Natsu, Wendy, Levy and the rest of the Fairy Tail mages dreaded. It was finally the day where they will a hold memorial service for their lost comrade, the sun didn't shine nor is it good. Gray skies invaded the whole Fiore, and as soon as the clock stroked five at the morning the rain poured down.

The funeral is being held at the Magnolia Cathedral, mages from different kinds of Guilds came with solemn expressions to pay respect to the fallen fairy. The mass is to start at one in the afternoon, but of course some guild mates didn't even dare show up at the guild and one to be exact were Natsu and Happy.

The duo was at Lucy's apartment grieving the most and neither of them was moving, both have the expression of being lost. If anyone would dare look them in the eyes they'd somehow could feel the despair inside them, they were both laying down at Lucy's carpet.

Not saying anything but breathing, they were just so lost in grieving that they somehow couldn't dare move. And that wasn't all, they both haven't eaten properly. They somehow couldn't find an appetite to eat, they have gotten quite thin and eye bags dance under their eyes.

Slowly and suddenly Lucy's door crept open making a noise of creak, it was the Master with Levy that came in, and Natsu knew what and why they were here for. Slowly the expected visitors came in and plod their way towards the quiet duo.

"Natsu, Happy, it's time" Macarov solemnly said at the two, his voice soft yet at the same time firm.

Natsu and Happy gradually turn their head towards the Master, both is having no expression in their face. They didn't said a thing but with that one look Levy again began to shed tears, she cannot help it she knows the feeling those two are in, but she knows theirs were deeper than her own.

"Come to the cathedral before one, you two must be there for her sake" Macarov ended and trudge their way out the room, leaving the two to think and decide.

"For her sake" Natsu whispered closing his eyes.

He sighs not knowing what to do he never really did felt this lost before not even when Igneel left, or when Igneel died. Yeah he cried, he mourned and grieved but not like this, now all he felt was numb and hollowness. As if he does not have a heart to feel, as if all his sense disappeared and as if he was no longer human being, he sighs.

Happy looked at his father not really knowing what to do, say, think or move. He literally does not know what to do; now that his mother wasn't there for them what are they going to do? As Happy closed his eyes the picture of her mother, him and his father flashed through his mind.

Then he cried he thought he has no more tears to cry guess he was wrong, he was now sobbing his heart out again. A couple of seconds ago all he felt was numbness, and now? He was again a sobbing mess well who could really complain, he lost his mother for Mavis' sake.

As the clock drag on it was finally time to go, Natsu and Happy reluctantly moved from their spot. They were both now on their way out the house when Lucy's landlady came in wearing one of Lucy's blouse.

"Landlady" Natsu muttered looking at the woman who was now in front of him, his face empty of emotion but his eyes raged with despair and sadness.

"My deepest condolence young man" she said solemnly, she may just be Lucy's landlady but she was also close to her, and although she nags all the time of rent money she really cares deeply for the blonde celestial mage.

Looking around the room the landlady sighs; she cannot help but recall the time of when they disappeared for about 7 years. She dryly chuckled at the thought; it was all too familiar yet so depressing then again would this time be different? Would she ever comeback just like last time? Would she? The landlady doubts it.

"It's just like when you all disappeared for 7 years" she voiced out her thoughts, now looking at the duo.

"Don't worry, I will not move nor sell the apartment to anyone else" she reassures and walks away leaving the emotionless duo on their own, the landlady was going to get ready as she is also going to attend the funeral after all.

With that done Natsu and Happy walked away too, as they also are going to prepare for her funeral. Her funeral, they never did thought this day would come, in which Lucy would no longer be with them. In which Lucy would eternally leave them, that thought never really did crossed their minds not until it happened.

Future Lucy's death may be a one thing but this shit was deeper, their present Lucy died and neither Natsu nor Happy was there for her. And he promised to protect her, ha! Natsu was a laughing stock to himself, he was a disgrace of his own thought, he was a disappointment.

Hours passed by so suddenly fast, the funeral now have ended and the only ones who were standing at Lucy's tomb were Natsu, Happy- in his human form; Erza, Gray, Mira, Levy, Juvia, Gajeel, Cana, Wendy, Charles and Yukino. They were all now drenched from the rain, their tears mixed with pouring rain masking their tears.

"Luce" Natsu breathed in, trying to stop the ache from within.

"Why'd you have to go, momma" Happy whispered for the wind to carry, his hands on his eyes trying to control the tears that seemed to never stop no matter what he tries.

"I should've been there; I should've been there with her. I should've went for her but I stayed back, it's my fault I'm sorry I'm so so sorry, Luce" Natsu sobbed and dropped to the floor, his heart hurt so much that he somehow was suffocating.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry, Luce please, please come back" Natsu chanted over and over again, his head on the cold hard ground with his hand clenched to his heart.

"Momma, I'll be a good boy, I won't raid the frig with papa anymore, I won't eat raw fish anymore, I won't tease about your weight anymore, just please come back" the father and son pleaded wanting her back but they all know she won't be coming back, she was dead for Mavis' sake how can she come back?

"Lucy, you've been a great and an awesome friend and sister to me. You've put up with our destructive side and never did made us change for it, instead you just laugh it off, Lucy I'm going to miss you so so much" Erza stated, her shoulders shaking her eyes shut close with tear strolling down.

"I'm gonna miss you little sis, I'm gonna miss how you'll nag about being cold, how you would shout at us to get out, how you'd desperately try and hide your own made book. Don't worry Lucy, I won't fight with flame-ass for the time being" Gray said, dryly chuckling at what he lastly said his face was stern but his eyes and streaming tears says so the otherwise.

"I should have never stomped that request, I should've checked it twice before granting your job a go. But I didn't, I'm sorry Lucy I should've been careful I'm sorry, I'm sorry" Mira cried and fall to the cold wet floor, feeling guilty of what she had done, guilty of letting their blonde haired woman go.

"Lu-chan, I'm sorry we didn't make it in time, I'm sorry I was of no use. I'm sorry, I should've tried my hardest I should've..." Levy cried her heart out, her mind going blank as if all she somehow knew vanished and none remained, except for the fact of her best friend being dead.

"Love-rival, Juvia, Juvia doesn't know what to say, all Juvia could feel is shallowness, Love-rival was the reason why Juvia and Gajeel-kun is here right now at Fairy Tail. Juvia is thankful for being one of her friends, Juvia's sorry for not being a good friend for once. Get some rest Lucy-san, Juvia hopes in our next life we could still meet and be friends, Juvia's gonna miss you Lucy-san"

"Hey Bunny girl" Gajeel started not really knowing what to say to a dead family, when all of a sudden his stern expression faded he finally let his tears out, the feeling of guilt and hopelessness settled in at his steeled heart.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being too late to come to your rescue, I'm sorry I'm really truly sorry" Gajeel sobbed no longer could think of anything else.

They all bid their farewell at the Lucy's tomb but neither was moving from their spot, they were now all looking lost and down on the ground. The cold wet ground and the chilling wind didn't bother them; they were emotionless and senseless to put on words.

"What shall I do now? What am I gonna do now? When you're not here with me, with us! You can't just leave me, Happy and everyone else like this! You have to come back and face your responsibilities Luce! You have to! What do you expect us to do?! To just pick ourselves back up and suck it up?! You know I couldn't do shit when you're not here with me! You know me, you know us too well to leave us like this, Luce." He shouted, stormed, wailed and broke down once again.

"I never even got tell you and I should've told you while I had the chance, I should've told you that I... I love you, Luce" Natsu muttered quietly, the ones close to him heard his mutter a sad smile plastered on their faces.

. . . . . . . Chapter 08 E.N.D

Or is it even the end?