Not The Same

No I'm not better,

And no it's not easier to cope.

My pains only grown stronger,

And I've started losing hope.

My babies no longer with me

I can't feel her inside.

No I am not better

Because all these nights I've cried.

I will never get over this,

Nor will I ever forget.

How I couldn't save her

Is something I'll always regret.

I am not better.

I'm not living each day like you.

I deal with this heartache everyday,

And you will never have a clue.

I cry, and cry, and cry,

And get weak in my knees.

I fall to the ground and pray,

"Lord, bring her back to me, please."

These nights are growing weary,

But I guess I keep my pain deep inside.

I dont want people to worry,

So all my emotions I hide.

I will never be who I once was

I'll never be able to explain.

This weight that's been put on me..

I'll never be the same.

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