Relapse

My flesh has more wounds

Than I'd like to admit.

I have relapsed again

Just to try and forget.

That burn makes me feel.

I feel alive once it stings.

In the moment im fine,

But more pain it brings.

Am I alone?

I feel judged for how I feel.

Ive been awake for days

Because nothing feels real.

I want to let go.

This relapse wasnt enough.

Maybe next time i'll go deeper,

And life wont be so tough.

SS