Chapter 28- Please tell me about you

''Here'' he says and puts the thirty dollars I gave him to pay for my dinner in my hand.

I snatch it from him and put in it my jacket pocket because I know he won't give up if I don't take it. He makes his way back on the bed to his previous position. I avoid eye contact with him and even looking at him. He stares at my legs and I pull my dress down even lower to cover my thighs, he smiles at my attempt to cover myself then brings his hand to my chin, he tries to turn me to face him but I stiffen and jerk away from his touch but he tries again and this time I turn to face him. I look deep into those blue eyes and I've melted already and under his spell.

''She means nothing to me'' he pauses then continues.

''Yes we used to fuck, I mean sleep together but we haven't for a while''

''So you haven't slept with her that night of the party?''

''Yes I did but that was the only time, we haven't slept together in months, it was only that night and it was just a blowjob'' he continues. He says blowjob like it's nothing.

''You all looked like you were dating''

''We are not''

''So you don't love her?''

''No I don't, I don't like anyone far less for love''

''You all look really good together though''

''No we don't okay. She means nothing to me, we're just friends, we'll sort of. She's part of the group''

''She looks like she likes you''

''Well she doesn't''

''How do you know? Maybe she does but just didn't tell you''

''No she doesn't Stessian'' he clenches his jaw and I know he's getting mad.

''You both seem really close and have a deep connection''

''We have known each other for some time but we don't have a deep connection''

''So do you still sleep with her?''

''No Stessian''

''When was the last time you did?''

''At the party, I just told you that'' his voice getting louder.

''Why did you?''

''Because I was bored and she was there so we did''

''So you have sex with people when you're bored?''

''Maybe'' he says.

''But we aren't together and it was just that time, not again'' he says and I wonder if he's just talking about her and if he's with anyone else.

''Are you done obsessing over her?''

''Take me back to the tent''

''No''

''What do you mean no! I wanna go back, I don't wanna be here'' I shout at him.

''I will take you back after''

''After what?''

''After you calm down''

I take off for the door and I head down the hallway. I try to open the front door but it's locked, he locked it of course.

Did he trap me in here?

I stand by the door trying to unlock it and I suddenly feel like crying. Something lifts me off the ground and carries me back into the bedroom, he rests me gently on the bed and I try to push past him but he grabs both of my hands and pins my hands to the bed, he's now hovering over me with his legs around my waist. My breathing is heavy and fast and I just wanna run away from here and from him. He nuzzles into my neck and whispers something by my earlobe.

''Relax baby'' he purrs.

He trails soft kisses from my jaw all the way down to my neck. They immediately calm me and my mind is blank and the only thing I think about is his lips on my neck. His lips are soft but a bit dry and full of hunger as they meet my neck. I smell the smoke even more from his chest. He sucks down hard and long on a spot on my lower neck which I know is gonna leave a mark tomorrow. He gets off of me and pulls me up to sit on the bed. I'm much more relaxed than I was before, he knows exactly what to do to get me to relax and under his spell.

He gets up and walks out of the room without saying anything. I just stay in my place sitting on the edge of the bed. I look around the room and I just wanna get up and look through everything in his room, not out of anger, I just wanna look through all the drawers and touch and smell is clothes. I wanna go to the bathroom and imagine his naked body in the shower.

God, snap out of it Sia, I'm turning into an obsessive freak over him. He returns about a minute later with a glass in his hand which I assume contains water. He offers a drink but I decline.

'' So you don't wanna eat from me nor drink from me?'' he raises his brows.

He is so weird why does he want me to do that?

''No I'm just not hungry nor thirsty''

He offers it to me again and I finally take the glass, if I didn't accept the drink he wasn't going to stop, apparently, he desperately wants me to eat and drink from him. I see the droplets of saliva on the rim of the glass from where he was drinking and I put my mouth on the exact spot. I smell some alcohol and a hint of mint as I gulp down a mouthful. He watches my every move then he brings his thumb and glides it over my lips causing my breathing to pick up and a gasp escapes my mouth. He takes the glass back and rests it on the bedside table. He puts both his hands on both of my arms and gently squeezes them but I pull away.

''How could you say those things to me?'' I ask, my voice is soft and timid.

''I'm sorry, I was just mad because you had no right to listen in on my conversation and look through my phone.'' he says and that's true, I shouldn't have done that.

''I'm sorry I know I shouldn't have, but you didn't have to say those things to me, it really hurt me''

''I know it did and I'm sorry. I just said it out of anger but I didn't mean one word of it'' he says and his eyes are full of sorrow and the bright blue in his eyes is visible.

''It wasn't just what you said when you threw the brick at me that hurt even more''

''I didn't throw it at you, I would never do that. I was just furious and I wanted to punch something and smash something but I would've never hit you. I saw how scared you were when I did that and I felt horrible after and wish I hadn't done that but I did and I'm sorry'' he says and I blink a few times to see if those words just came out his mouth and it did. Wow, I never thought he would've said that.

His words make me feel so much better and they're even better than what I wanted to hear. I want to just hug him and tell him that it's okay but I decide not too and decide to ask him more when he's in this gentle state.

''So why did you say those things if you didn't mean it''

''Because I was fuming when you said you read my messages and I said those things to hurt you but I didn't mean them''

''Why did you act like that at the party? Like you didn't know me and you were all over her at the party''

''I didn't expect to see you there and I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything''

''Really? Because you acted like you didn't know me at all in front of your friends and when Brooke was being rude to me you acted like it was nothing and you avoided looking at me''

''I didn't expect to see you there and it was a shock and I didn't know what to say or do. ''

'' You were all over her''

''She was all over me''

''You were too'' I say way too soft that I doubt he even heard me.

''Why did you come to the party anyway? And how did you even get there?''

''I came because I wanted to see why you were lying to me about where you were going that night and I took the bus. Why did you lie to me about the party?''

''I didn't lie I just didn't say anything''

''You did lie, when I asked you what you were going to do that night you said just relax at home when you were really going to the party''

''Because it wasn't any of your business to know where I was going'' He says and my expression totally changes and I'm back to feeling hurt like I was before.

'' I didn't tell you because I knew you would be upset and insist on knowing everything about the party and all that''

''Or maybe you just didn't want me to go so I wouldn't see you and Brooke together'' I say and his face gets serious.

''Yes Stessian okay because I didn't want you to see her and get all jealous''

''I'm not jealous. I know you didn't tell me about the party because you didn't want me to go with you and let everyone know about me and also because you didn't want me to see you and her together''

''Why would you wanna come to that party anyway? None of the people there are anything like you, they all drink, smoke and sleep around with almost everyone there. Why would you wanna be there you're nothing like that?'' He asks and I have to idea how to answer.

I didn't want to go there, I only went to see why he was lying to me about his whereabouts that night.

''Your friends didn't even know about me''

''Why would they? There's nothing to tell'' He says and I move to leave.

I try to push past him and walk away but he grabs my arms and guides me to sit back down.

''Look I'm sorry okay. Can we just forget about this? You know about the party and you came and you met everyone and saw what you wanted to see so can we just forget about it please?'' He asks and I nod.

He walks over to his dresser and pulls out a black t-shirt and throws it to me.

''Put this on''

''What?''

''Well I assume you won't be sleeping in that dress right?''

''Sleeping? I'm not sleeping here''

He doesn't say anything instead he just makes his way back on the bed and stares at me.

''So you really gonna be grumpy all night?''

''I'm not grumpy''

''Would you just relax. Just put the t-shirt on and let's sleep, we won't do anything''

''I can't stay out all night, I have to go back to the tents'' I tell him which is true but also because I can't sleep with him in his bed. He said we won't do anything but still, I barely know him, I can't just sleep in his bed, I'm not that type of girl.

He may be used to girls just sleeping with him all the time like Brooke and the others but not me, I'm not like them and he needs to know that.

''No one will know'' he says.

I can't sleep with him in his bed, he said we wouldn't do anything but I have never slept with someone in their bed before let alone a guy like him.

I can't sleep here with him that might lead to other things that I don't want, I have to go.

''I can't, I'm sorry I have to go'' I tell him and he walks up to me.

''So you would rather sleep in a small tent on the hard ground than sleep in a bed with the sexiest man that you've been thinking about for almost the last month?'' he smirks and he walks up closer to me.

How does he know I have been thinking about him?

''I'm just afraid it might lead to something...'' I stop as he walks so close to me I can feel his breath on my face as he looks down.

He bends down gently hits his forehead against mine and he puts both of his hands at the back of my head while we look into each other's eyes. His lips are so close to mine, so close that I wish they were covering mine right now, I want him so bad especially when he's half-naked in front of me.

''We're just gonna sleep that's all, there's nothing to be scared about'' he whispers and his voice along with his thick accent calms me and I find myself nodding and I walk to the bathroom.

I make my way to the bathroom and lock the door behind. The bathroom is big, there is a wide white sink to the front with a large counter. There is a shower behind the sink and a bathtub to the side. I look through all his things laid out on the sink counter, his cleanser, toothbrush, toothpaste, and mouthwash. I look through everything here, his shampoo, soap, and body wash.

''Stessian! hurry up I'm getting more impatient by the second!'' he calls out from the bed.

Ugh. Why does he keep calling me Stessian? it's annoying.

I know I told him not to call me anything because I thought I wouldn't have to talk to him again but if he is gonna call me just call me Sia, I'm pretty sure he calls me Stessian just to annoy me and if he does it's working. I put the T-shirt on and it smells clean and fresh, I like wearing his shirts but I like to wear the dirty ones, the ones he just wore because his scent inhabits them then my body and it's the only scent I would ever want to smell. I pull the t-shirt down the lowest it could reach which is the middle of my thighs. I know he's seen me in his t-shirt before at the stream but I'm embarrassed to go out there now wearing it.

This t-shirt is way too short, I can't let him see me in this, it might lead to something I don't want it to.

''Stessian, where are you?''

''I'm coming!'' I shout back.

Gosh, he really is impatient. I don't want to go out there, I'm nervous more than ever. After looking at myself at least 5 times in the mirror and Hero calling 10 times in the last minute I finally make my way outside. As I open the door Hero's eyes immediately look up from his phone and they travel from my eyes to the rest of my body, his lips are parted and looks like he wants to say something.

''Come over here'' he says but I stay in my place by the couch not moving.

He gets up and walks over to me then places both of his hands on either side of my face bringing his face so close to mine.

''What's wrong?'' he asks, his voice is full of care.

''I want you to know that I'm not like the other girls you're with. I won't just sleep with you if that's what you're thinking''

''I know that and I wasn't thinking that. We won't have sex until you're ready'' He says and I back away a bit.

Until I'm ready? I won't ever be ready to have sex with him so he shouldn't be expecting anything because he's not gonna get it. EVER. This is my first and last night here, I'm not ever coming back.

He kisses me on the cheek gently then walks back over to the bed. As he walks over to the bed I watch how firm his behind looks and I wish I could see it bare, he should really take his boxers off.

Oh my god! look at what I'm thinking, my mind is so messed up and it has been ever since I met him.

I walk over to the bedside table and put my neatly folded dress on the top. I sit on the edge of the bed and try to avoid looking at Hero and his boxers.

''Come over here and lie down''

I lie down on the edge and face the other way, if I turn one bit I will fall off.

''What are you doing? Turn this way''

I turn around and I look up at him, he lays down on his back with his hands behind his head. He looks down at me while I look up at him. He moves one of his hands from behind his hand to my cheek. His thumb moves up and down my cheek as he looks at my lips who are hungry for him. He slowly lifts his head up and brings his lips to mine, our kiss is soft and slow and before I know it he pulls me on top of him. His breath is hot in my mouth and his lips are a bit dry but are tongue is soaked as it reaches in my mouth. I take his tongue in and suck hard causing him to moan in my mouth, he then slides his tongue back in his mouth and takes my lower lip in between his teeth, he bites it hard and pulls it in his mouth causing me to groan with pleasure wanting more. My bottom lip feels swollen and I know he left a mark from his teeth. Our kiss never breaks as I hover over him, his hand slowly grazes up and down my thigh and I gasp and pull away when they reach the waistband of my panties. I get off of him and lie back down on my side facing him.

''Come over here'' he says and I move closer to me, he pulls much closer to him so now my head is on his chest and his arm is around me.

I can't believe I'm here right now in his bed.

His chest is hard against my soft cheek, it's so smooth and hot and his abs and muscles are prominent along with his perfectly flawless thick body. He asks me multiple questions about me and we talk about me and my life for an hour, where I grew up, things I like to do, my family and friends, my school life and he asks me about my plans for the future again and I reply the same as I did when he asked me that at the stream. He's so interested in my life but he's so closed off about his.

''Will you ever tell me anything about you?'' I ask my fingers trailing up and down the middle of his chest.

''Maybe sometime''

''So you get to know everything about me but I can't know anything about you?'' I break away from our moment and sit up to look at him.

''It's complicated''

''Okay so explain it to me''

''Not now, maybe some other time'' he says and I lie back down on his chest.

''Do you drink and smoke every night?''

''Most nights''

''Why?''

''Because I want to'' he snaps and decide to not ask anymore.

He's so young to be drinking and smoking and he's just ruining his body at such a young age but who am I to tell him that? if I do he might just get mad and kick me out leaving me in the middle of the forest with no idea how to get back to the tents so I decide to not tell him that.

''I'm cold'' I say and he reaches for the blanket at the end of the bed and covers us both.

I pull the blanket close to my shoulder and snuggle under it, this is the softest blanket I have ever felt.

He gets up and turns the lamp off then heads to the bathroom then back out to the bedroom and I lift the blanket up on his side as an indication for him to get under.

''Can't wait for me can you?'' he smirks and I roll my eyes.

He brings me closer to him on the bed and wraps his arm around my shoulder with his finger touching my ear while his other hand and mine are playing thumb wrestling on his chest. His hands are a bit callused but his fingers are a bit soft. I win three times and he gives me a wickening smile which tells me that he let me win. Our fingers are playing with each other right now. His fingers start to slow down and when I look up at him his eyes are closed. He looks so peaceful when he's asleep, I've never seen it before but it's the sight I can stare at for hours. His lips are parted a bit and his forehead is to mine as he falls asleep, his head his lowered to my mine and I bring my hand to his hair and trace my finger along his hairline. I bring him closer to me and hug him even tighter under the soft blanket.

His breathing is slow and soft, I watch as his chest rises then falls due to his slow, quiet breathing, my head also moves in the direction of his chest up and down. I would not rather be anywhere else right now. In Hero's bed, him shirtless in only his boxers, wearing his shirt snuggled together under his blanket and having my head on his chest while his blanket covers us both, there is no other place I would rather be than here.

I'm so cozy and comfortable right now in his bed hugging him under the blanket while he's asleep, I wish I could be here every night instead of sleeping on the hard ground in the tent. I stare at Hero for at least 10 minutes and admire his perfect face as he sleeps until I feel sleepy myself. I bring the blanket up a bit over my shoulder and over his chest as I pull him in even closer to me and I finally fall asleep on his hard chest.