Chapter 54

A knock at his window made Todorokis head shoot up. He opened it, and a familiar ravenet more or less fell right into his arms. "Oops." Todoroki put Midoriya down and took a step back. "Midoriya. Why are- wait, why are you bleeding?!" "Oh, some guys thought it was a good idea to try and beat me up. I showed them why it's not." Midoriya gave him a shaky grin.

He stood up and wiped his nose, seemingly a bit embarrassed. "Anyways, I suppose you were asking why I'm here. We should talk about a few things. I'm sure you have questions I can answer." Todoroki could guess what this was about. "Touya. You killed him, didn't you?" Midoriya totted his head lightly. "You still jump to conclusions too quickly."

Then he came closer to Todoroki, lightly smiling. "Touya has went places as Dabi… It could be anyone, couldn't it? And the rest of your family could quite easily be next." Todoroki felt like Midoriya was seeing right through him, into his soul. The ravenet knew exactly what Todoroki secretly feared. And those uninterpretable green eyes seemed to scream 'I know what you fantasize about'.

"Todoroki… I know you're a bit of a vengeful person somewhere in there." Midoriya hit his pointer finger into Todorokis chest. "Tell me, what would you like to do to whoever murdered your brother?" Todorokis breath hitched. He didn't want to lose his cool, but he was more than upset. Normally, it was easier for him to hide his rage behind an apathetic mask, but that wasn't the case today.

"I… quite a few things, but it wouldn't be much like a Hero to do more than fantasize a bit. I can't even think about actually doing that. I'm not a villain like Touya." Todorokis voice was strained. Midoriyas face went blank. "Are you sure about that?" No, Todoroki wasn't. But the glimmering in Midoriyas eyes told him this boy wasn't as innocent as he seemed right now.

"Stop playing with me." Todorokis expression dropped. "You're trying to get me to do something. I'm sure you're the killer." Midoriyas face closed up. "You're good." His voice was almost a whisper, as if he was just a voice in Todorokis mind. Then his mood suddenly brightened up again.

"I've changed my mind. You're someone I'd rather actually have been friends with. But I guessed I missed that chance, huh?" Midoriyas wide, slightly malicious smile didn't manage to hide the bitterness in his voice, and the dim light in the room lightly reflected on his dampening eyes. Then he turned around and left the same way he came.

"MIDORIYA!" Todoroki barged over to the window, but his late night visitor was already out of sight. Little did he know that this had been the last time Midoriya would ever talk to him.

-/-

Why am I crying? I'm not even feeling sad.

It's not like he was of any importance, so what is it I'm missing?

…

Guess Kacchan will have to pay the part.

-/-

Someone poked my cheek and I shot up. "Huh?" "Hey Kacchan." Dekus voice was quiet and soundless. I slowly turned to him. "So you're back, huh? Snapped out of your seizure- What the fuck did you do this time?!" Deku had scratches all over his face, his hair was messy, his nose bleeding lightly and his eyes swollen as if he had cried.

He wiped his nose. "Well… I met your little middle school fanclub. Don't remember their names. And the winged one had the great idea of trying to beat me up. Now my nose won't stop bleeding for some reason." I sighed. "Tsubasa and Tesaki, I think. Fucking cowards."

(Dared to give fingers a name. Not cannon though.)

A few minutes later, Deku was patched up and his nose okay again. I threw the last bloody tissue away and turned back to him. "So, what did you cry about? Hurt that much?" Deku shook his head. "Not at all, actually. Dunno either why I cried." So he admitted it.

I stared at Deku for a short while, then I averted my eyes from him. "Let's just go to bed." Deku and I lied down and I put my arms around him tightly. He let it happen without any reaction. Many things about him concerned me right now.

Number one, his skin and breath were cold tonight. Number two, he had cried again. Makes it twice a day. And I didn't even know why. Number three, Dekus absence of mind. Thinking wasn't bad, but if Deku thought of something, the world was about to go down in flames. And number four, the emotions he emitted.

Heavily negative. Dark. Depressing. Fucking suicidal.

We all know Deku was unpredictable. That meant I might wake up to a corpse… His corpse, or… Not at all. I guessed I had to hold Deku even tighter tonight. But something told me he wouldn't sleep, no matter what I did.

-/-

…

I'm still feeling so alone.