Poetry: I Was
I was pregnant at 14
Her name was Amour
Her initials A.O.T
She would kick at happiness
When her father came to me at dawn
Stay slient when he left me
Alone.
She would move around
When I was distressed
Want to reveal herself
When I was nauseas
But I love her
The same way I loved him
She grew in me
Blossomed beautifully
The doctor saying she would
Be perfect without any issues
But than, there was something else
Another child within
Call him Odio
He stayed safe behind
My beloved.
My lover began to look at me strange
How would I ever change
The expressions on his face
It wouldn't even age
Wasn't even a stage
But I still stayed
My lover began to treat me horribly.
Bumping my shoulder
Like a stranger
Entering 18
Was like entering hell's
Door
Bent out of shape
I kept hitting my chest
Begging for some air
Something to revive
My still cold heart
My children felt
Iike forgiveness.
My mind lost in insanity
But I still deserved love
And I would wait upon him
I would love him
I would take care of his seed
Within me
And yes, he would be proud
Until he stopped caring
Until he stopped loving me
Looked me in the eyes
And said I'm crazy
It will never be me.
They were never his
The drop of my tears
Felt like a fountain of blood
That fell down like calvary
When he pushed me
Down the stairs
Amour & Odio
Love & Hatred
In a constant
Fight in me to
See who would be the first
To live
The first to be born
Or the first to inherit
Survival?
He rejected me
He rejected what was in me
Don't get me started
On how he betrayed me
So he pushed me
I lost my children
I lost my love,
My hatred
I only had emptiness, I was blind
But I knew
I only had nothing
And now that I could see
I was numb