Rain

WARNING: Sexual assault, flashbacks, angst

NOTE: If you have been sexually assaulted, please speak up! It is not your fault it happened to you, no matter what you think. You were not asking for it, and it is not a compliment. Please talk to someone

Patton always loved the rain.

He would listen to it pounding on the roof, sit in his backyard and let it drench him.

It made him feel clean, help him forget that horrible night-

No.

Don't think about that.

Patton turned his face up and closed his eyes, feeling the rain on his face. He shivered slightly, but he didn't care.

The human body's cells are always regenerating, he thought to himself, reciting what he had read years earlier. Dying and regenerating. A full body regeneration takes roughly seven years. One day I will have a body you have never touched. That thought kept Patton going. One day I will have a body you have never touched.

It was reaching the three-year mark since it happened.

He remembered that night vividly..

No.

Stop thinking about it.

It was time to go inside.

As much as he wanted to stay outside forever, he didn't want to get sick, sitting out here in the freezing cold rain.

Patton checked the clock as he walked inside, shaking his head to clear some of the water out.

It was nearly 6 pm. Time to get something happening for dinner.

Patton's mind wandered as he slowly boiled water and poured in pasta, humming Disney songs to himself as he spun around the kitchen.

Virgil would be here soon.

It had been nearly three years, but he still insisted on showing up, every day, just to check on him.

Patton hadn't bothered changing into dry clothes, Virgil was used to Patton's love of the rain.

Patton smiled as he heard the door unlock and creak open.

It was easier for Virgil to just have a key, so he could let himself in.

"Hey Patt."

"Hey kiddo!" Patton said, turning around. Instantly, he knew something was wrong. Virgil was looking worried, really worried, and kept glancing toward the door, which he'd made sure he'd locked once he'd entered. "What's wrong?"

"Patt- I think it's best if you sit down for this."

Now Patton was worried.

He and Virgil walked over to the couch and sat down.

"Patton.. He's out. He escaped jail."

The memories came flooding back in, the memories Patton always tried his best to block out.

It was a warm night. A nice temperature for Summer.

Patton heard his phone ring from the kitchen and walked over, seeing it was Remus. He hit Accept and held the phone to his ear. "Hey Remus!"

"Hi Patton. I was wondering.. Did you want to come to the park with me?"

"Yeah! Let me just get ready, and I'll be right there!"

"Okay. See you there."

Patton pressed End Call and put his phone down, quickly running upstairs to change into something other than his pyjamas.

He came back downstairs a few minutes later, grabbing his phone, wallet and keys, and leaving the house.

He walked down to the park near his house. He met up with his friends a lot there, so Remus' request wasn't unusual.

He made his way over to the big tree in the middle of the park where he always met up with the others whenever they went to the park.

He saw the figure standing next to it and smiled, raising his arm and waving. Remus waved back.

The two walked around the park for a while, before Remus looked up. "It's getting late. Want to come to mine? We can watch some movies."

Patton nodded. "Sure!"

They went back to Remus' car and got in, driving to Remus' house.

Patton should've never agreed.

He'd blocked out most of that awful night, but he would never forget Remus' words when he finally stopped.

"This'll be our little secret, right darling? Just our secret."

Patton had been too traumatised to do anything more than nod numbly.

"Want me to drive you home?"

Patton nodded again. He didn't want to be any closer to Remus but he was his only way home, he wasn't walking home at this time of night.

"Bye, darling!" Patton didn't reply, didn't wave or even look at Remus, he just walked up his small path to the front door and unlocked it, locking it tightly behind him as soon as he was inside.

He slowly made his way up to his room, sitting down on the bed as what had just happened began to sink in, and Patton began to cry.

He had been violated in the worst way.

Someone he had considered a friend had violated his boundaries and his body.

Patton didn't leave his house for the next three weeks, walking silently around his house, ignoring calls from his "friends".

He couldn't even trust his friends, could he?

After three weeks, finally Virgil got too worried to continue leaving messages and went to Patton's house, knocking on the door and waiting for at least five minutes until finally the door opened, a tiny bit. "Who is it."

"It's Virgil, please Patton, we're all really worried."

Hearing Virgil's voice, Patton broke into tears, opening the door fully and dragging Virgil inside, slamming the door shut behind him.

"Patton, what happened?"

It took an hour of talking for Virgil to convince Patton to tell him what happened.

Together they'd pressed charges and gotten Remus sentenced, and Virgil had started visiting him everyday.

Patton wasn't looking at Virgil, he seemed to be looking past him, tears slowly sliding down his face, and jumped as Virgil gently placed a hand on his face to wipe them away. Patton's eyes focused on Virgil and the tears came faster as Patton threw himself into Virgil's arms and holding him tightly, feeling Virgil do the same.

Virgil was the only one allowed to touch Patt anymore.

"Don't worry Patt, they'll find him soon."

"Can you stay with me until they do?"

"Of course I can."

Patton pulled back and Virgil wiped more tears from his face. "Can we watch some Disney?"

Virgil nodded. "I'm going to get some blankets, you pick the movie."

Patton nodded, and watched as Virgil made his way up the stairs before walking over to the DVD case and pulling out Aladdin and slotting it into the machine.

He settled himself on the couch, and Virgil came downstairs carrying an enormous pile of blankets.

He dropped them all on the floor and quickly went to the kitchen to make popcorn as Patton got to work making himself a nest of blankets to sit inside.

Virgil came over a few minutes later holding a bowl of popcorn, and sat down next to the pile of blankets surrounding Patton.

He offered the bowl to the pile, and a hand reached out from inside to take some. "Thanks Virge."

"Anytime Patt."

Virgil had texted the others so they wouldn't get worried about him not showing up, and was preparing to leave. The two of them had been at Patton's house for about a week, Patton didn't feel safe going out in public and they needed groceries.

"Be careful, okay Virge? We have no idea where he is, and he could be anywhere.. Promise you won't take too long?"

Virgil smiled, giving Patton a hug. "I promise I'll be back soon. And of course I'll be careful."

"Okay then... I'll see you soon."

Virgil nodded and made his way out he door, locking it behind him. Patton went back to the couch and sat back down. He'd been watching Disney nonstop, just to take his mind off things.

Around three quarters of the way through the movie, the lock clicked and Patton turned his head toward it.

That was faster than he'd expected.

He stood up to go help Virgil with the bags, and made his way to the door as it swung open.

And he stopped short.

Remus grinned darkly.

"Hello.. Darling..."

Patton's scream wasn't loud enough to make it past Remus' hand.