When You Wish Upon A Star

WARNING: Suicide, self harm, angst

I look up at the sky.

Fix my eyes on Alpha Centauri.

That was our star.

That.. Used to be our star.

Virgil couldn't take it.

He promised he'd become a star, shining like Alpha Centauri, so I knew he was always there.

At least, that was what the letter had said. I read it again, going over it in my head.

I'm sorry, Logan.

This world just wasn't meant for me.

I'll always be with you, and I'll become a star. A bright one like our star, so you'll always know I'm there.

I know this is just me taking the selfish way out. I know I should be able to do it. But I'm not strong enough, Logan.

I'm sorry.

Your Starlight

Virgil

A tear slides down my face.

I should've noticed he was hurting. I should've tried to help. I knew he wasn't okay, but he swore he was getting better!

And then he did it.

Slit his wrists and swallowed all the pills he could find.

I want my Starlight back.

I get in the car.

Drive back to our house.

It's too quiet without Virgil. He would always be making sound; talking, laughing, sometimes singing. He had an amazing voice, but he would hardly ever sing in front of anyone.

I go to bed.

Try to ignore the empty side of it.

It's much colder without him here. More tears track down my face as I try to sleep.

And eventually, I do.

I wake from a dream smiling.

Virgil was there.

And he's gone now.

...

I can't do this.

I need him.

Tears are coming.

Coming fast.

I run to the bathroom and pull out any pills I can find.

Empty them onto the floor.

Is that enough to kill me? I don't know.

I fill up the cup with water. We always keep a cup in the bathroom.

I begin downing the pills as fast as I can, throwing back mouthfuls of water and three, four, five pills at a time.

The world begins to bend. My arms begin to slow down, but I'm still trying to take more pills.

My arms drop to my sides.

The world is swinging around me.

I feel like I'm full of lead.

My eyes begin to close.

And I smile.

I'll see my Starlight soon.