Chapter 4

Luna pov.

I  wake up happy and energetic.

Well yesterday was eventful. Anyway.

It's a new day and I need to go down to hell today. Only god knows how long I will be. Omg jk no he doesn't.

Mornings god I hate them. I sit up quietly trying not to wake Stefan. I turn around to get undressed and get in the shower. While I do I can feel eyes on my bare body. "You are suppose to be asleep Mr. Salvatore and staring and a naked woman while your spoken for is not that smart." You can hear him stiffle a laugh.

"I have a serious question." Stefan says while I finish putting on my undies and sports bra.

"What is up?" I questioned worried.

"Your a girl so have you ever been with somebody and actually fall for the persons closest friend or brother." I tilt my head down knowing this was about Elena. I am ok talking about his girlfriend but I hate him sad.

"Yes I have. I was with Nik and I couldn't help but fall for his brother. I soon realised that I wanted to be friends nothing more because I know it will turn out horribly." I answer.

"What do you think about Elena?" I sigh a sit on the bed. I look off in the distance and speak from my heart.

"I think Elena loves you and would do anything for you. I think she is scared of admitting she has grown an attraction towards your brother, she doesn't love him though not yet but I feel soon she will love him but you should hold on till then. I think she is too scared to admit she is pulling you both along with out realising it. She is still in love with you but taking it as a girl to girl understanding. Not with a dying passion. She wants to but she can't, she has been broken and she is trying to mend herself. By herself she doesn't realise she is loved. She knows you love her she just doesn't know fully the way you do. She is also jealous. It hits her like bricks. You can tell. She is afraid that someone will take away what is hers." I say truly honest. (Even if you are y really hers)

I think in my head.

"She loves you Stefan and you love her like a love sick puppy. But I will not stand in the way of your happiness between you and your girl." I give a small smile.

Compel him.

He widens his eyes at my words realising what I am about to do but yet he can't move.

Before I compel him I pour out my heart.

"Stefan Salvatore. I love you 😍 I am in love with you. I have the same feeling with you as i did with my nik when we first met. Ad much as i wanna call you mine because of knowinh what i know i cantBut you need to love someone else and I will move on soon. I will always love you. So when you remember our love we will start fresh and I promise I will not compel you unless it's life or death or you need it."

"Luna please don't do this. Please I will do anything just don't." I give a sad smile and give him a passionate kiss on his lips. Just to start the mate bond. Yes i know it was selfish but its what i had to do.. well wanted to do.

"I need you to let me go and get your girl. This is for you and Elena. I will give my happiness up for you both. This is why you need to forget. Forget that I love you and you love me romantically until you know with everything in your body says your not going to be together ever again. You will remember me helping you gain trust with the boys. You will also remember I am your anchor. Unless you change your mind. You will love me as a best friend. Forget your love for me until you know you are done with Elena, Please forgive me when you remember I do love you." I compel while tears are in my eyes. And I wipe them away as the compulsion starts to work.

"Hey Luna. You ok?" I shake my head yes then lay down going to sleep. Crying inside. He lays next to me and we sleep. I honestly dont think that was necessary but its what i choose.

About 5 hours later I get up to find a sleeping vampire. So I get in the shower and get cleaned up. While I am in the shower I start to sing out of habit. I just make this one up because I am depressed with life. The ONLY thing carring me through is that I will get Sammy. After that I can turn my emotions all off Everything.

I turn the shower still singing softly about Stefan and all my heart breaks about my fake happiness.

I get dressed in my Victoria secret Bra and undies and I put my Black and Red crop top on so you could see my waist bracelet I but my black leggings on and I put on my leather jacket. I put my makeup on. Dark smoky eye and beautiful eyebrows. I grabbed my heels that are red stilettos. After I am finished I just Walk down stairs grabbing the portal book from the desk.

Unfortunately I need to read this book to be one step ahead on what ever this crap is. I sit on my leather pink chair crossed my pedicured blood red toes with my heels to match and I start to read.

About 20 minutes later chuck comes down.

"Lu La. come on we need to talk soon or later." I roll my eyes and ignore. "Lu. Come on you can't possibly still be mad at me can you? It was one time thing." I have tried to stay calm and ignore but I can't.

"No it wasn't Just one time. You forget to remember I have more powers than you I am a queen of your heaven. Lucifer's hell and so so much more. Everyone knows that queens are always one step ahead. We think of Everything before it happens. You didn't catch me. Or surprise me. I knew it was a high possibility that it would happen. I just didn't know when. You killed my heart. Lytertally. It doesn't beat any more. I am 17. I am going to stay 17 For the rest of eternity. I am the one keeping you and your son Lucifer at ease. When you cheated I read every single thing in your mind I saw what you Saw in the past year. You told everyone to hurt me except for Nick. You thought that I wouldn't find out so you kept doing it over and over. some vamps,humans then Demons. And I can be mad at you I can hold a grudge. Now if you will excuse me I know what I need to do to get Sammy out." I try to get up but I am stopped once again by arms.

"What is wrong other than that your wearing makeup and you never do that unless you want to feel any emotion." I scoff at his comment but I knew he was right.

"That is the problem I feel everything. Guilt, love. hate, anger, lust. Every emotion known to man and I just want it to stop. I want to shut it off. Completely so after I save Sammy I am Doing that Shutting it off... completely. Stefan. I compelled Stefan to forget his feelings for me so he can be with Elena and love Elena. I need to push everyone away so I don't need to get hurt." I look at him in his eyes so he can see my soul. He waits a few second of just looking and reading my soul. "Don't get me wrong. I LOVE helping others I love giving and doing for others I love it more than myself I am just tired of getting broken time and time again. Thank you ex boyfriend for letting me cry on shoulder but now I really need to go get spammy." I say trying to be happy. I stand up and scream. In 5 seconds flat everyone is in front of me.

"Are you okay Luna what happen who died." Dean rambles, but me and chuck start to laugh.

"I am completely fine I just know how to get Sammy outta hell. We all need to go. And I know you guys can't but I can and if you are linked to me we all will become one. meaning you all can have all my powers." They looked at me like I have 3 heads.

I cut my wrist. I grabbed my a cup and poured the cup all the way to the top. and it was a huge water bottle.

"Drink this, Stefan" I say while bandaging my wrist up. I realize that he can't control it so I go to him. And I compel him. "You can have control of your blood lust. You can stop if you need to. Blood doesn't control you. you control it." I say and then she drinks a good amount needed to be linked for how ever long I needed. Stefan stopped drinking when he had enough and I saw Dean have a disgusted face.

"What?" I ask he rolls his eyes like I don't see the problem.

"He is drinking your blood and you okay with that?" he asked with sass and I see Stefan put his head down in defeat. I however am not giving up.

"And your judging why. If you haven't noticed which you haven't obviously is that he hates this. But this is the only was to survive. When you eat pie and food all day and it somehow gets in your hair I don't judge so neither will you. If it is your only way to live I would do the same. just outta blood bags. Stefan is the good one here so don't act all innocent. Besides Your about to find out what the vampire in him craves and what it taste like to him." I do my signature smirk while his eyes widen realizing what I was going to make him do.

I gave him the blood and waved my hand over Stefan. I then wave it over the cup. "Drink this to know this is what he deals with every day. And to save your brother." He hesitantly takes the cup and takes the sip.

"Vanilla and strawberries. I thought that it would be a metallic taste." I snort

"Only to humans your taste buds are totally different from supernatural. Every one is different. If an angel drinks my blood it is a different taste. Its not flavor for them its an emotion. Something that drives that angel to move because of that person. You understand?" I say and Dean and Stefan look confused but not the other two they know exactly what I mean. I think of a way to explain and I thought of one.

"Think of it like this When cas drinks my blood he will get an emotion and will be high from that emotion of felling for a few hours." I shrug it off. I give my blood to Castiel.

He suddenly gets all googly eyes. "Well we know how he feels about you." Dean says angrily

I give chuck my blood and we all have my blood flowing through our veins and now then need to learn how to control them so I teleport us out side. They are all standing in a line and chuck looks jealous for no aparent reason. I soon realize he is part angel. then it hit me he was jealous when I was with boys. And he was lustful towards me. Oh shiz.

"Hold each other's hands, you all are now connected with me. Same powers as I do. Now you need to control the main powers." I say as I pace back and forth talking to them.

"Telekinesis. One of the hardest powers ever. It takes a lot of consecration and imagination." I put a soda can on the floor and get a pillow and cut it up so the feathers are all out. "Imagine what you want your object to do. Then do it. You will always have distractions but just pretend there is just you and that object in the room." I tell them

"Stefan. You know a witch in Mystic falls. Yell do what she does." He puts his hand up and starts his thing. He gets it on a good start until I snap my fingers and Elena is being killed by him. "Remember this is a distraction. Hell will get in your head make you see things that are not there. Just know you can beat it. It is just something trying to get you to stop what your doing and it will kill you or make you stay there forever." I say sad.

"How the hell do you know that Luna?" I look at the ground not wanting to answer deans question. But cas reads my mind and says it for me.

"She knows because it was when she was twisted and cruel but still had a heart." I continued to look down but realise there is nothing to be ashamed of it was the past.

"Right yea it happen but just know our word for if we see something that looks like us is-" I mind link them 'Luna. They will think your are calling my name but in reality it's to let each other know it's you."

I look at Stefan and he is still focused on his work and he does it. I know the supernatural can easily do it so now I am just focused on Dean. "Go ahead dean give it a try." He tries and tries but nothing happens, so I being amazing give him persuasion knowing only Him and Stefan can hear me so I wispier in his ear.

"You got this dean" he is still struggling so I think of a new way to fix of the problem. "Dean picture me naked. Focus on that, then do what you want to do." he stands there and turns to look at me staring. He then smiles and says  

"What makes you think I like you still sweetheart?" He tries to smirk but I do the real thing.

"Well you dont have to still like me. Frankly I dont want you too. But I know u still lust after me." I said.

"Really... like u would know if Iwant to have sex with you. " he questions. I roll my eyes 

" Look around you. All you needed was a little motivation so when ever you need the motivation just think about that." I smirk then continue with the lesson.

"We only need one more power for the basic. Power line because tomorrow we are going to hell. Stefan I can cut you link now if you want. You do not need to go with us, it will be dangerous. Any one else speak now or forever hold your peace." I look around and nobody says anything. 

"I am not leaving. I will help you till the end. Always and forever." My head snaps to him. That was something my nik would always say to me...

"The second power is the earth those are the only ones I really use." I snap my fingers and forget what Stefan says while I huge vine popped out of the ground I sat on it. "To control the elements and nature... You need to be caringand kind. Like a mother I suppose. The thing your controlling are alive waiting to be told by me mother nature." I kiss the vine and pat the top of it like a child. "If you Protect them they will protect you. All you need to do is ask." Stefan tried to get one of the plants to move but you could see anger blowing off of him like a wave. I went up to him looked in his eyes. 

"Stefan look." I say in a soft motherly tone. "It's ok to be angered while you control nature. Just don't make them feel like your anger is towards them." I grab his hand and make him sit Chris Cross  style and I do that to all of the dashing men. Dean of course sits next to me "Okay for this one I want you all to feel your hands in the dirt. Feel the grass under your palms as it tickles it softly. Watch the trees move. Realize your surroundings are not Just humans here. Everything is alive to the tiniest bug to the biggest tree. And finally say 'I accept you' Then you are one. But the moment you aren't there for your plants and the earth they will turn on you. Care for them and only them like they are your daughters that is about to go on a date with a boy you like. Keep that in mind and you will never go wrong." I smiled thinking about my nature that I love so dearly. All the boys could tell I loved everything but didn't show it until today. 

"Okay now dean you try do something with nature or the earth." I say and he looks at me with admiration. He holds his hand out on the grass and says under his breath 'I accept you and love you like I love your mother.' I realized he was talking about me but I pretended I didn't hear that.  He can't love me... I would have felt it if he was a mate... He can't.. 

Suddenly a beautiful purple rose comes to me. Then all of a purple flowers come to me and make a huge heart on the ground then I feel flowers crawling up my back giving me a flower crown.  I gasp and smile. "Thank you Dean." He then gets that glint in his eyes of admiration and lust. 

"Okay now everyone try" I say as everyone is ready to go to hell.

"Now that every body has completed and mastered my gifts would anyone like to go now to get my little brother back or later?" Everybody choose eat first then go get Sammy.  So I begin to conjour up food, we ate it then I made the door way to hell.