Jazz and Ryan

It was getting dark again when Ryan woke he was slightly off the bed and drool covered his pillow. He felt rested for the first time in weeks. Sliding away from Jazz he smiled as she cuddled his pillow. Kissing her forehead he covered her back up so she wouldn't get cold tucking the blanket around her feet lightly.

Leaving a note beside the bed for her to wake up to so she wouldn't be scared he left the cabin. He wouldn't waste a minute showing her his love anymore he had been trying so hard. He really did love her. Jazz was very jealous though. She had began transitioning since the age of 5 but her parents fought it. And fought their relationship ever harder filling restraining orders and even moving towns over. But Jazz had always found a way back to him. Eric had teased him about being gay but he had never saw it that way. Jazz had always been an would always be his girl. Her father had beat the tar snot out of her the night after she brought Ryan home. And that was the last time she had went home. She left the hospital and came to live with Ryan and Eric s parents. They were druggies but they treated Jazz with as little care as they did their own kids and ignored her presence in their home. Only paying attention to her oxycodone prescriptions then forgetting she existed which was fine by her.

During a tough patch Ryan had gone out with some of his buddies. Jazz had stayed home in a huff swearing Ryan "better" come home that night or it was over.

His friends were going to "be damn" If he let that heshe tell him what to do. He had laughed at his buddies jokes already drunk past his normal limits.

They kept his glass full and he did his best to keep it empty. Dragging ass to the rest room he peed for what seemed like an eternity.

Returning to his buddies he picked up his drink and chugged it down. Soon he was laughing and dancing and stubbling. He started to feel faint and delirious. Had someone slipped something is his drink. He though falling onto the couch.

Being shaken awake Ryan awoke with a start. His pants were nowhere to be found and there was a girl with her face in his lap. He jumped up. More naked people from the party lay around the floor. To this day Ryan still couldn't remember what happened that night. Except he'd been drugged and breaking Brian's jaw after wards. But he could remember the destroyed look on Jasmine's face. And how she still gave him that look when she didn't think he would notice. But he did notice and he felt terrible and guilty. Even more because he didn't remember and couldn't answer all of her questions.

An at home drug test showed several illegal drugs in his system. And never again would he jeopardize his relationship or his life. And as he topped the deck he sighed. He didn't know how to chase away her fear. But he would try as long as she was willing. He wouldn't lose her again. He would do anything for her just like he had promised.

Eric was at the helm looking as groggy as he himself had when his brother releaved him hours prior. Now the sun was setting and the water was choppy.

"Bro….," Ryan said

" Yeah I'm going. Have at it lil bro,said Eric waving his thanks to his brother and hurrying to the kitchen to grab a bite before he went to sleep. The stew was cold but he ate it anyway. Laddling three full scoops into the bowl. He salted the food and sopped it up with bread. A breakfast of Kings he thought laughing to himself as he finished his bowl. Proud of himself and thinking he was gonna get his girl safe. Maybe start a family. Hell he thought let's start now. Rinsing the dish he returned it to the cabinet. He was gonna sneak in and give her some wake up sex. It had been way too long he thought sadly. But he wanted her safe and she soon would be.

As he came to the cabin grabbing the handle to the door he pulled it open slightly. Just when he heard his brother scream out "home ahead". Just as his grandfather had done so many times before. Letting the door latch close and swing shut he returned topside to see Ryan smiling at the helm. They were in Alaskan waters. He yawned like a cat pulling himself above deck but cheesed at he and his brothers work. Soon they would be somewhere that really felt like home.

Sarah startled by the door shutting scrambled to wipe herself and get her clothes back on. As did Chris. Leaving the cabin shirtless since Sarah used his shirt to clean herself.

Noel was just leaving her cabin when she saw Chris exit quickly and shirtless. Slipping back in she cracked the door. He kissed Sarah grinding against her. Then left to go above deck. Sarah went back into her cabin and returned with the shirt he had been wearing throwing it behind a box and going uptop. Noel raised one eyebrow and went above deck herself.

Soon almost all of the group was topside and beaming at the coast of Alaska. Sarah looked out at the water and felt dirty. Chris winked when she looked at him. She smiled back slightly feeling guilty yet full filled. Eric was none the wiser coming to hug her from behind.

Ryan was at the helm. He guided the boat along the coast smileing and feeling at home behind the wheel. Jasmine finally woke and joined him wrapping her arms around his stomach and hugging him tight.

"Well hello gorgeous," he said turning and pulling her to his side.

"Good morning baby. Thank you for the letter. Your so sweet," whispered Jasmine stretching up on her tip toes to kiss Ryan on the cheek.

Ryan smiling kissed her lips and pulled her around in front of him. He put her hands on the wheel and put his fingers between hers. Jasmine stared at the jagged scars on Ryan's wrist.

"Look your driving the boat ," he said whispering in her ear and kissing her neck.

She smiled ,they had been together for what seemed like forever to Jasmine. And boy did she love her some of this man. And Ryan may have only been seventeen but a man he had proved to be.

He worked two jobs to help pay the bills. He had graduated from high school early via GED and was taking night classes at the local College. He still managed to find time for her and always put her first.

Took her on dates and went to every HRT appointment with her he could.

From the day she moved in with him he had made her breakfast each weekend morning and she made him dinner every weeknight. Yes they had plenty little arguments but neither could stay mad at the other for long. And those big brown eyes of his always drew her back to him.

Jasmine smiled again leaning against him. His strong chest holding firm her light weight. He nuzzled her neck making her smile wider. And this was normal for them now. Even better than it ever had been siCnce…. before.

Jazz could never get enough of Ryan. Which sometimes caused problems. She knew she was clingy and insecure. And she knew Ryan felt guilty about that night. The night she found him part of her heart melted away that day.

She hadn't wanted him to go out partying with the guys he graduated with. Something just didn't feel right. Two of them Jazz knew we're homophobic and cracked jokes about her. Ryan stuck up for her but she still didn't like it. And she had asked him to stay home promising him sex and as much alcohol as he wanted to drink. Alex offered to smoke him out. Jasmine bought some new langeri and when he came home from work to change she greeted him.

He had told her she was beautiful. His smile was so big. And he had dropped his backpack at the door. And they proceeded to have hot sex.

Ryan looked on Shocked.by the pleasure, surprise and intensity in which Jasmine attacked him….did I mention attack? For a moment his brain couldnt even function thankfully his lips took the initiative and kissed her back just as passionately. Just as his brain was beginning to register everything her hands began to work his zipper stealthy like snake she managed to unzip his pants and press him against the wall at the same time. Not so surprisingly they both ended up naked very quickly. And a certain member of his slipped deep inside Jasmine as he squirted lube up and down his shaft. He stroked till her moans and deep breathing had him nearly unaware of his surroundings. He came fast and hard. Then with his hands he made Jazz cum her moans nearly starting a round two.

Afterwards Ryan kissed her and held her. But he told her he still wanted to go out. Even though he would be late to the party. And after showering and dressing they argued about the subject. Him calling her a " jealous bitch" and storming out the door around nine o'clock.

She stayed up talking to Alex tilll her friend had to go sleep for work. Then Jazz cried for awhile and took a nap. It was around midnight. She woke up at about 2:30am. She got up and showered and cleaned the house.

By the time she was done it was 4:30 in the morning. Checking her phone she noticed he hadn't been online his last post was at 9pm talking about how excited he was for the party with fifty likes. His Facebook read inactive. And he hadn't read any of her messages since then. Jasmine was getting worried more and more buy the minute. She had had a bad feeling before but this she couldn't get past.

Brad or Brian she couldnt remember his name. Was throwing the party at his parents house across town.They had hung out at the guys house once before. So Jazz grabbing Eric's keys she and drove the fifteen minutes to the guys house.

The door was standing wide open. Toilet paper littered the lawn outside and beer bottles and cans lay scattered inside.

There was a guy half naked guy asleep on the kitchen counter and two girls lay naked on the floor covered in silly string. Mitch or whatever his name sat in the dining room in a chair. There was a girl between his legs and he had his hands on her head. He noticed Jasmine standing in the doorway and smiled.

"Ryan's downstairs," he said and returned to moaning and thrusting into the girls mouth as she sucked him off.

Jasmine became more furious as she walked down the stairs of Brian's basement. The blacklight was on and in the blue haze she could make out bodies. People lay asleep naked and scattered all around the room. And as she looked around she saw him. Ryan lay in one corner of the he room.

Wrapped in only a sheet he was curled up with a blonde girl laying on his chest. Jazz shook him but he only snored and rolled over slumping into the corner more.

Jasmine unapologetically moved the girl to the floor with a thud she woke moaning in pain. Grabbing a cup full of Idgaf she poured it's contents onto Ryan waking him instantly. Looking around he sputtered and coughed. Jasmine slapped him so hard she hurt her hand. Leaving the house she drove away leaving Ryan to find his own means home.

Eric woke up for work around four pissed off about the van not being there. He was about to start bitching until he saw Jasmine's face. Hot tears streamed down her cheeks. He asked her where Ryan had was and what he had done but she waved him away while she packed her bags and called Alex to come get her.

Alex arrived in her uncles suv and Jasmine left the house. She stayed with Alex for almost three months ignoring Ryan's calls and texts. And blocking him on all social media. He tried to come to one of her ballet classes but she called the cops and had him esscorted from the property. Two weeks past, she got a call at four thirty in the morning. Looking at the phone she it was Eric. She hit ignore.

Five minutes passed and the phone rang again. Ended then rang once more. She rolled over answering sleepily.

"Eric this better be good,"she mumbled.

"Jazz you gotta come to the hospital. Ryan took two bottles of pills and slit his wrists. I found him in a tub of ice when I got home. We're at Mercy in Paris they are lifeflighting him to Little Rock but they don't think he's going to make it threw the day," Eric was sobbing nearly buy the end. That boy was all he had left for family.

" I'll be there hold on Eric. Tell Ryan I'm coming please Eric tell him." Jasmine jumped up and grabbed clothes she was dressing as she screamed for Alex to wake up.

Alex woke her neighbor and they agreed to make sure Liam got to school. Rushing to the the hospital to pick up a sobbing Eric.

They drove the two hour drive to Little Rock in half the time. Then with a Police escort and flashers going through the city. Ryan had lost nearly half the blood in his body. They'd pumped his stomach and rushed him to surgery to close his wrists. During surgery he had a stroke and slipped into a coma for three weeks.

Through it all Jasmine never left his side. She ate slept and lived by his bed. Alex had to return home to Liam but brought her clothes and food and money. Alex and Liam even stayed with Jasmines cousins so she could help more on the weekends.

The day Ryan opened his eyes was the day Jasmine realized how sorry Ryan had been. Seeing her there with him he cried like a baby. He nearly pulled out the tubes try to talk to her. She had to hold him still awhile Eric called for a nurse.

When he was able to speak again he had began to explain. This time Jazz listened.

" I went to the party and everything was fine. But after my second or third glass of Punch I started to feel weird. Mitch told me it wasn't spiked. He brought me some water and told me I could go downstairs to lay down. I fell asleep as soon as I got down there. And woke up with someone holding me down while this girl was poking me with a needle. But I think they had already drugged me cause I couldn't fight them off. Then these guys brought in this other girl in seemed drugged to. My veins were on fire."Ryan was in tears and Jazz rubbed his shoulder as he continued.

"I don't remember what happened after that. I think I passed out before…" he couldn't say the rest ,"when I woke up you had thrown the drink on me. I found Mitch and socked him in the face before I left. I walked home but you had already left….baby I called everyday. I even wrote you letters and tried to to apologize and tell you how stupid and sorry I was. But..but you never would answer me," Ryan looked at her with those eyes.

"I know baby I should have answered you, I should have talked to you I'm sorry,I was so mad. I thought you just cheated on me." Jasmine stammered crying to.

" No baby it's not your fault. Don't be sorry. I was so stupid I should have listened to you. Stayed home with you like you asked me to. I realized that when you left. Babe I couldn't handle a life without you. Without you Im nothing. Your my everything and I fucked that up. It's all my fault that I lost you. Please forgive me. I'll do anything to get you back. Don't go where I can't follow...I'm sorry, so sorry," Ryan sobbed into her shirt as she crawled in bed beside him and held him close.

"I'm not going anywhere baby I'm right here. Shhh, I forgive you love. It's all gonna be okay,Shhh,"she said rocking him as he cried.

Ryan had to stay a week in the mental ward after that. But Jazz came to see him every day. She'd had to do her homework all out of class. But Ryan was worth it and the day he went home she went with him.

Now as they pulled into the little channel near there destination she returned the wheel and let Ryan work his magic just like he had on her heart.

They wound down the channel until they reached a familiar set of Willow trees. Their great great grandma had planted these trees here for her husband. On the other side of the hanging branches was a hidden dock. Ryan coasted the boat to a stop and Eric tyed her off. They made eye contact and big cheesy smiles followed. They were home