I haven't been myself lately
My heart left my body
Searching for its safety
Since it got hurt by everybody
So when my heart left
I had a clear chest
I didn't care
I was no longer scared
No more tears
I lacked empathy
And I got so lost in this fantasy
That I forgot who I was
So I'm asking you this
How long was I gone
How much emotional breakdowns
Would I have before I become a bomb
How long was I gone
I've been holding my head high but I'm tired of being strong
How long was I gone
And before you respond
Answer me this
Did you like the new me or the old me
Better
Did you compare my actions and come to the conclusion that I was a pretender
It's funny what people would say when you start to change
Always judging people talking about your acting strange
But
It's because of you
I realized my heart wasn't something you wanted to value
So I became different
So I'm asking you this
How long was I gone
How much emotional breakdowns
Did I have before I become a bomb
How long was I gone
I've been holding my head high but I'm tired of being strong
How long was I gone
When I was gone
Did you then appreciate the heart you once fed on
Did you realize the value of the heart you stepped on
I'm never coming back
I'm too tired of everyone's attack
My heart is tired of being everyone's race track
So say goodbye to me
I'm a new person, I'm finally free
I'm finally gone
I had too many breakdowns
That I became a bomb
I'm finally gone
I held my strength for too long
That now I'm no longer strong