Senior year. Everyone has their life going. Plans are being laid out for their future. 

There is Mitchelle Kim or popularly known for her stage name Sunny, the school band's female vocalist. Beautiful, talented and kind. A ray of sunshine. She has her life all planned out, her 3 year-relationship going steady to the handsome and intelligent band's male vocalist Jackson Choi aka Jack. Lucky for them, they are aiming for the same thing. What more could she ask for? Right? 

Together with them is Breana Jung, the drummer. No one would have thought her to be the cute, shy, intelligent and lovely type once she's holding the sticks and whipping it on stage. Sure she can perform on stage but self-assurance and confidence is what keeps her from being in the spotlight. Afraid of getting hurt again, she keeps her circle small and her feelings always in check. She likes to keep her thoughts to herself. Will she ever open up? 

Unlike her, Maria Han or Ari, Sunny's bestfriend is outgoing and bares it all. She wouldn't be told to do things just to fit in and she never much cared about what most people think of her. She's energetic, sassy, popular and 'in'. After all, she's the cheerleader in the cheering squad for the school basketball team. But until when? 

Everything is pretty normal until it wasn't anymore. 

Cause there's Alexandria Song or Alex, the interesting and charming transfer student. A painful memory from Breana's past that will force her to confront her issues which will lead her to Ari. Alex - the person who'll be turning Sunny's life into more than just one season. But just like every person Alex has her own problems she chose to run away from. How long would it be until it catches up to her?

Read how the threads of connections between these four women unravels. Friendship, love, forgiveness, acceptance, betrayal, lies, secrets, hate, what feelings would overcome?

Four by Forever

We watched as the nurse patched up Bree’s wounds and bruises. Then she lets her lie flat on the bed. 


Bree is cocooned by the white sheets. Her head cushioned on the same white pillows. 


“You need to rest. I’ll be giving you pain meds when you go home later and tell you what to do with those.” The nurse advised the student. 


“One may look after her or you may go if you have class, I could write you a late pass." The nurse directed to us. "She’s going to be fine, all her injuries are external though it may leave some marks and blackening on her skin but those will disappear over time. I’ll be in my office if you need anything.” Then she exits the room after we thanked her. 


The three of us stayed silent even when the nurse was gone. 


Before it could turn more awkward than it should, Breana spoke. “Alex, you both should go. I’ll be fine. Thank you for saving me there.” 


Then she turned to me. “Thank you for helping us, Sunny. I’ll be okay. I just need to rest.” 


“Are you sure?” I look into her eyes. Pain swims in the brown seas of her glassy orbs. We know she’s not fine. Most wounds, especially deep ones are not always visible outside. Despite knowing it, I also know I’m not the one who could take that pain away. I also wonder who. 


Still, she hummed back to me. She smiles slightly as if to prove her point. I slowly got closer to her and gave her hand a gentle squeeze, and a reassuring smile. “Take care, Bree. Keep in mind I’m always here to talk to if you needed someone.” 


The gesture was slow enough to give Alex the time to decide if she’ll talk to me. I think even Bree is urging her to but it will be Alex’ decision. 


I turned my back on Bree to exit. I walked slowly. I even purposely shorten my gait as I passed by Alex and reached the door. I held on the knob before turning it. Nothing, I slowly closed the door when I was fully out of the room. I didn’t hear a thing. 


I didn’t know when did it start hurting but it does. I gave her too many chances. I could only egg her on but not force her to open up. 


I leaned on the door for support as I close my eyes. 


It hurts knowing that she’s not even trying to make me understand her. 


It hurts that she’s avoiding me when I’m missing her. 


It hurts that she doesn’t look like she wants to mend things between us. 


I took a step away and another. And another. Despite every time I do, my heart tells me not to. I realize… 


Maybe it hurts this much because I already love you Alex. 


That every day and night I tell myself it is just weird and impossible…every time I force myself into thinking all I’m feeling for you is platonic, it just makes me think about you more in way that’s far from one would call as that. 


Every time I try to question my sexuality, I also and always counter the thought with the fact that I had a relationship with a man, Jackson. 


Yet, why do I feel more regret and pain in the thought of losing you than when I did lose him? 


P.S. Im back! With a banger! Apologies, I haven't been feeling well lately.


Chapter 45: Maybe