Chapter 18: The devil is draining me

I don't love anymore, as in I love my family, but I don't fall in love anymore and y'all should know why if y'all actually read Chapter 11. Anyway, I stopped with that bullshit and the rest of what I'm doing is left in the dark, I'm not gay, I still like girls, but I don't love them, if a girl was to show genuine interest in me, then I'll consider it, but it's always one-sided, it's never gonna work out. The way I see it, I don't need anyone in my life as a wife, all I need is family and close friends honestly, I know one thing though, I cannot give up chasing the ladies, it's that wonderful part of me that just can't control itself and I can feel it killing me extremely slowly, so I gotta relieve stress sometimes, or I can have a good looking jawn do it for me? Maybe even more, for me? I don't wanna hear shit about "you on some weird shit", what was that my nigga, you think like that too, only thing is some are better at hiding it than others, in fact, I hid mines so well, niggas didn't know I was like that, niggas also DON'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT ME!