Changed My Life At Least I Thought

I return to Tallahassee I was greeted by my mother and daughter I was to excited to see my baby girl. I spent time with my baby for a minute until I got a phone call from the last person I wanted to hear from. What's up Erica nothing spending time with my kid why what's up? trying to see if we can link up in catch since you been gone. I'll think about it. Cool that's all I ask from you. Yeah yeah what ever you say. I told my mama I'll be back. I link back up with Jazz. I thought after I left Job Corp I would change nope I didn't I'm still the same old me. I came home in vibe with my kid and my people had laughs and play time. The next day I left in went to hang with Jazz in she treated me to a good time. After that I was heading home to my shorty in relax. Erica what's up Jazz where you about to go? I'm heading home to my kid. Oh ok well let me know you made it when you get there. Ok Jazz I will.

The week past it was time to head back to Georgia to graduate. I was so excited I got to see all my baes we had a good laugh no and played around till it was time to go walk cross the stage they meet my little girl and my mother. We had a blast so as we walked cross the stage we showed out while graduating. I seen my ex girlfriend Sarah she kissed me saying I miss u in love you.  I looked at her like don't kiss me I don't know where your mouth been at. You miss me? No I don't I been chilling I'm good. Don't do me like that in my mind I'm thinking get out my mf face but I didn't say it I just kept walking. I hung out with my people until we left to go take pictures.

But unfortunately I didn't get a chance to take pictures cause my Fuck ass uncle went to acting stupid in I cursed him out in front of everybody didn't give a dam no more. The whole ride back I didn't eat speak or say nothing to nobody was ready to hit the streets again in get high Fuck everything and everybody. We made it back to Tallahassee I jumped out the car in left for days weeks never came home.

I got high every day I hit licks everyday just to feed my habit I didn't care about nobody. I went home played with my baby until she fell a sleep. I waited until she was all the way out before I started packing my stuff so I could leave again. I had done met my other mama by my sister Net. We got close in I moved in with her she was helping me get my self together. She know I loved her to death I call her mama g and my little sister Pooh she took me in like I was one of hers.

She never loved me no different she did everything that I never had in life she mad sure I had.  I moved in with ma I had a curfew but my curfew was at 12 at night. I hang with Jazz she never knew what kind of high we was she just thought we was on weed. Me and Jazz will disappear for days again but I knew when I got home I already knew what to expect because I was a minor out all times of night in didn't tell her where I was going.

I got ready to head home I already knew I was gone get into trouble. I came in the door that morning I'm looking to see if ma was still sleep. Little sis Pooh came to the door you better hurry up in go in the room in act like you sleep. I got in the room just in time before she came in I had a bad hang over. I laid there acting like I'm sleep when she came in. Get up Erica what I'm tired ma. Get your ass up now.

I roll over yes ma what do you want. She looked at me with that look in her eyes where we're you these pass couple of days. I been hanging with Jazz ma oh okay get up in come here I can't yeah you can.  I got up in went in her room like a fool and she locked the door behind me. Remind you'll I'm high as I don't know what. You know what to do right yes ma'am. I laid cross the bed while she got her belt. You know I know you high and under the influence that's why you stayed away from here. I can smell it on you when you came in the house this morning thinking I'm sleep. Lay on cross this bed in let's get it. I tried to come up with why I came home late I tried to plea so I wouldn't get a whooping. I laid cross the bed I tried to squeeze my butt together it didn't work. One hit I was down off the bed.

Okay I won't do it no more. Ma grabbed me get back cross the bed in hold it. I got up in started crying please it hurt it hurts. Ooh I'm not done Erica you gone learn you a child an you have curfew in responsibilities for a reason. I got up from one hit in laid back cross the bed. Another hit I dropped again holding my butt hollering. Get up Erica if I get you up I'm going to give you a lot worse then that.

I stood up but I didn't lay cross the bed cause my butt was on fire I couldn't do it. Ma grabbed me in just went to work I hollered so much till I got sleepy.  I was put on punishment after a beating. From here on out Erica you gone do better and become a better women if I got anything to do with you while I'm in your life. I got in bed in stayed there until dinner I couldn't even sit down then. But I never knew she really cared about me like her own until I seen it for myself while living with her and from that day I begun to see a little change in my ways. So just know she don't play in you will see what I mean.