Love Is Dead

Erica Erica said a voice I recognize but wasn't sure if I was sure. I walked to the bus route I hear a dude voice calling my name. I pause to look around I see somebody waving me down. I'm looking like who in the h e double hockey sticks is that. He got closer I realize who it was. Hey Lil Fred I miss you so as I ran up to him in hugged him I was greeted by some chick he was with.  I turned I ask who that girl looking at like that I don't do well with ignorant bitches looking at me.  Lil Fred grabbed me chill sis that's my old lady well one of them.

I talked to him we got caught up with each other about school back in the days. We

had some laughs in chill until my bus came. I had to get ready to leave for church. Of course me in my brother talked in she got mad I didn't care I was being petty for a reason. But then I was like I'm bout to leave ain't got time I got saved in trying to change my ways. Yeah yeah when you got save right before I started school. I left I hugged him an got on my bus while he got on his. Me in him chill everyday after school and in between classes. One day I was in class with this one girl I thought was off a little.

I seat right next to her and got to know her became good friends her name was Shay love we be came good friends at school then along the way I had came upon two other females. We all became real close with each other. Then one day I was just chilling with one of the chicks at the bus stop in we started talking. One day all three of us went to study together in she started helping us with out with our work. Just to let you'll know me and baby mama had started back talking round this time to see if it would work. Me an Mya started chilling one day she was next to me when I got into an argument with my baby mama she was like are you okay I said no she just made me mad over some petty stuff.

We begin to talk in she invited me out for a night party and told me to bring my computer and my speakers so I did. I get a call you ready yeah what you want to drink? Some grey goose so she brought the big bottle for me and we got high. Mind I suppose to be changing my ways but that night I didn't care. I turned my phone off in went in the room with Maya we laid there in talked. Then next thing you know we kissing I had that silk playing in the background in started getting into.  I kissed from head to feet made her feel like I was something that's addicted.

I kissed that inter thigh she moan in grabbed my hair. She went to grinding my face in riding it real good. Then I gave her the big daddy in she was so loud I was making that butt climb the walls. She said Erica stop stop I can't stop so I got her in that position where she on her neck while I gave her that big daddy. She fell off the bed in grabbed me in said you mines from this day forward I never got Fucked so good. Ugh I can't stand the fact she treat you like that I would cherish every moment we ever have. The next day I was getting ready for class the next day I get a call from baby mama.

Hey baby daddy what was you doing last night you didn't answer my call? I paused in said I had a long night I'm tired I had to study for my class test. Not telling her I slept with the girl she always accused me of cheating with. That day at school we met up in she was telling me she told her girl she wasn't happy in she didn't want to be with her. One day at school she ask me why are you so hard to get. What you mean Maya? I mean why you still with her and not with me yet. Its not that easy me and her got history so she was like I understand. The time goes on me in Maya had been creeping around for about 2 or 3 years.

Me an Maya made it official after sleeping around. Until one day I knew my ice cream and cake would be gone because once you tell one person it gets thrown out soon as you piss in they cereal.  I get up I have ten messages on my phone.  I called her back what's up bae what's going on. What you mean what's going on mad. I heard you slept with heifer. Look you not about to disrespect her like that her name is Maya and no I did not sleep with her. She told me that somebody came back to her saying Ooh I was messed up in I slept with Maya so I told bae no I didn't sleep with her you the only one I deal with.

Then she came out of no where hey? Hey Maya what's up? Nothing who you on the phone with baby mama hold on. So bae I'm going to call you when I come back home in we will have this conversation later in not right now I got fam over. Okay bae but it's not over until I say it's over okay bae I love you kisses. Maya pulled me to the side in said you better leave her in come be with me I can't be sharing you with her. She don't treat you right she don't even make you happy so why stay.  I'm thinking to myself like why leave her she still gone be by my side so as I talk to Maya bae call.

What's up? Nothing I'm in need of a understanding well bae I'm sorry but I did make a mistake in slept with Maya that night I didn't answer. So you did hurt me huh yeah I'm sorry for the pain don't leave I won't talk to her no more. I said that I won't mess with her no more but I told another lie me in Maya kept sleeping together until I had to make a decision out of both of them and the decision I made was the worse decision ever in my life I never thought cheating on somebody could hurt until you run into somebody like you.

As you know I have a hard decision to make between to women that I love with all my heart. Well at least I thought I was with one. So the day has come where I had to make a decision between both in I couldn't do it so baby mama made it for me. I really didn't want her to leave I wanted her in my corner. But I gave it up for Maya thinking the grass was greener on the other side. Well I was wrong like hell she put on a perfect girl expression. I had done fell in love with her because of what she can do with her mouth piece, clean, cook and everything I thought she was the right one for me.

Man one day all that change when I get a call at 4 in the morning. Hey what's up Maya? Nothing I messed up what you mean I messed up? I slept with my ex boy friend really yeah bol said Maya. Oh okay that's what's up I'm glad to know it funny but just know karma gone hit you a hundred times worse. Best believe I'm going after what's next in dear to you. Maya said what you mean don't worry about it you'll walk in on it. The next day Maya called me wyd Erica? bol really did you just call my phone man bitch bye. I hung up she called right back what do you want? I'm sorry I never ment to hurt you like this okay whatever.

I hung up again in she called back again. Just listen to me Erica wtf is there to say you did what you did. So that's how we do? Yeah I'm done with you period. The next day I went to school in ran into Maya I walked right passed her like I never met her period.  I walked to the bus stop I was sitting on a bench I got up for a few seconds I come back this heifer sat in my chair. I comforted her like get out my seat I was here first heifer. She got up like she was big in bad I had to let it be known I'm not nothing to play with. She got bold to so I like her we click together I became best friends with this heifer and her name is Karen me in her became friends in never left each other side.

One day me and Karen was walking campus together in we was laughing in hanging and Maya approach me so you got another bitch? I bol at her like are you serious you gone have the nuts to come in my face in ask me am I seeing somebody else when you cheated on me like let's be real. Karen came over do we have a problem? No Karen let's go don't nothing needs to be explained here. Then we ran into Lisa after years of her been gone I was happy as hell to see her.  I jumped in her arms an I introduce her to Karen. We all went to lunch and had a good time talking together.

Maya come up so you got another one on your team it don't take long huh. Bol girl get out my face I'm not with that bs today. She grabbed me come here let my arm go I don't have nothing to say to you really. We go to her house she puts me in a position where I couldn't do nothing but look at her like why. She got done she said now act right. Of course I forgave her but not knowing she was going to continue hurting me. One day I had enough in did a hurt full thing that put a end to our relationship for good. One  day I met one of her friends in we started getting high an she left in went to the south side in left us at her crib. It  went down she started playing with the cat in her bed. It felt so good to get revenge on her the way she hurt me.  I did it in her bed and not only that I had a great time getting my nut.

She came home in was pissed off she broke all my stuff. I laughed an told her girl I'm good I got mines three times.  I called for me a ride in left.  I get a phone call from her friend telling me she got locked up over some dumb stuff so I laughed. Girl I ain't got nothing to do with her we over I'm good. I get a phone call hey can you come visit me and put some money on my books.  I did that for a couple of months.  I got her everything she needed while in there. She sent me a letter telling me she's heading to prison so of course I held her down until. That day I went to visitation to see her.

I had done been through some changes since she seen me last.  I walked in to she her I put some money on her books so she can get some stuff. We sat in talked I told her I can't do this no more I will no longer be coming to see her or I will not put nothing on her books told her to tell her girl to do it. Then  she writes me a letter saying I see what you mean when you say karma is a mf. Because she got hurt by a female that was just like her but worse she was abusive. She was like bae I miss you I really wish we can start over when I get out. I had to think about a lot before I wrote her back. So then I wrote her back in spoke my mind I told her I couldn't never go backwards because you hurt me and I can't do nothing but be friends.  I ended the hold thing with her until I wrote her back a few months later in let her know we are friends.