Zairi

I slammed the door shut and slid down to the ground.I closed my eyes and let my head fall back to the door.The churning inside quieted down.The darkness fading away.Albeit very slowly.

I would have killed him.I would have killed someone.

Oh, Holy Mother.

If he hadn't stopped me,I would have someone's blood on my hands.I looked down at the same trembling hands.The intent to go out and complete the same task was nagging inside.I couldn't.

I JUST CANNOT.

What if he hadn't come on time.It was only Ma's name that brought me near from that far edge I was heading towards.Today I would have committed the biggest sin of Life.Betraying everything that Ma taught.I would have crushed her very essence from my soul.Would I have been able to live then..?

Yesss.

Something dark whispered from inside.

NO.NO.NO.