Regret

Jamie POV

I am startled awake by a feeling that something is wrong. Xavier is going mental in my mind, I sit up in bed and notice that I'm completely naked, as i look down beside me i notice Marissa is lay next to me also completely naked. I curse under my breath 'What the fuck have i done' i think as i run my hands over my face. 'You've ruined our life.' Xavier growls as he runs back and forth in my mind.

Ignoring him i swing my legs around placing my feet on the ground, as i got to stand my knees buckle under me forcing me to the floor. I begin to feel a lot of pain flow through my body all at once, confused at what is happening 'Someone is leaving the pack idiot ' Xavier snarls in my head.

Realisation finally dawns on me and i begin to panic. Ignoring the pain throughout my body i pick myself off the floor, run out my room and out the house. As soon as I'm out the house i shift into Xavier and begin to run as fast as we can, heading for my Gamma's home. When we reach our destination i notice that all the lights are off.

I shift back into my human form and run straight for the door kicking it open. The door fly's open and i enter, listening for anyone but no one was there causing me to panic more. I run up the stairs following my mates smell which if I'm being honest was really hard, it was scattered everywhere. I come to a door at the top of the stairs, opening it i realise it's Regan's room. 'It's empty.' I thought to myself as i quickly shut the door.

I open the next door which is a girl's bedroom, but it's not Payton her scent isn't as strong. It's also empty, i begin to shake as i realise my fear may actually become a reality. I open the last room, my hand shaking on the door knob as i open the door. Its empty, my heart completely drops, 'She's gone.' I thought before i begin to cry, my heart shattering into a million tiny pieces.

I drop to my knees not able to hold my own weight up anymore, the weight of my guilt weighing me down. Xavier let out a painful long howl which made me sob more before he began to snarl at me. 'This is all your fault' He furiously growled at me. 'I Xavier give up my right as Alpha and refuse to be your wolf Jamie Michael Miles.' He growls before he completely disappears. Leaving me completely empty i drop to the floor even more curling into a ball. I cry harder then i have ever done before, feeling more vulnerable then i have ever been. "I have been such a fool." i began to sob out, "I've lost my mate and my wolf all because of my own stupid decisions." I cried out. I stayed there lying on the ground not able to move until my tears were all dried out.

I eventually got up and left the house, walking back to the pack house as i could no longer shift. Xavier was completely gone i was now human, as i walked back i thought about what i was going to say to my mother and father. They are going to be so angry, hell I'm angry, angry at myself, how could i have done this. I rejected her, then found out about her a curse that was placed on her and then i slept wit Marissa.

Xavier warned me it was going to be a big mistake but i couldn't help myself. How can i be so stupid, she must of felt it when i slept with Marissa, there is a very old saying i remember reading it when i was training. 'If a mate sleeps with another, there other half feels the pain of the rejection.' There are some wolves that swear the females have visions of the males conquests.

I really hope that isn't the case with Payton, i really hope she didn't see me have sex with Marissa. How am i going to explain all this to my parents though, how am i going to tell them because of my stupid decisions, i am now wolf less and mate less. How am i going to run a pack as a human Alpha. 'I cant' i screamed to myself.

It took me ages to finally reach the pack house but i did as the sun began to rise. I open the door to the pack house taking a deep breath, as soon as i step into the house, my mother and father were in front of me with furious expressions.

I know they must of felt it they are the current Alpha and Luna after all. I gulp loudly, terrified now to open my mouth. As i turned to face my mom i was nearly floored by the look she gave me, as i stood there in my naked form i began tremble. 'I've hurt them all' I sobbed out at the back of mind. "Please tell me you didn't hurt that poor girl again." My mother begged, pain sweeping across her face as her eyes fill with tears.

I hung my head low not able to meet her eyes., she took this as confirmation. "What did you do?" My father yells furiously at me causing me to bow lower. His alpha aura growing thicker and thicker the angrier he gets. I don't reply to ashamed of my answer. "Tell me now." He demands using his full Alpha voice. Unable to lie or refuse him i blurt it out, "I slept with Marissa." I dropped my head low disgusted with what i had done. I hear a gasp which causes me to lift my head to look at my parents, they a completely gobsmacked, before giving me a murderous glare.