Chapter 43

"Whoa" Josh exclaimed

"Yup"

I was at his house telling him all that happened yesterday. I really need to tell someone, its hard keeping it in.

Drew and I aren't on talking terms. He was the only one I could tell all my problems

Josh will have to do, for now

"I'm so sorry to hear that love"

I cuddled into him, my head on his chest, taking in his sweet scent

"I feel like I can tell you anything"

"Of course you can. I'm always here for you"

I leaned up to kiss him. Something was wrong, he was hesitant to kiss me back

"What's wrong?" I questioned pulling myself away from him

"Something's been bothering me"

"Which is?"

"What are we?"

I mentally face palmed myself

Great. Just great

Why do guys always have to catch feelings for me easily?

Yeah, I had sex with you but with no strings attached. Can't you take a hint?

Boys are supposed to be playing my role of not caring but its the reverse case with me

"I don't know"

He sighed

"You still like Drew, don't you?"

Of course I do. How can I forget about him so soon?

"Yes I do"

"Okay"

"Wait... Do you like me?"

"I do. I'd be a fool not to"

"Of course"

I flipped my hair making him laugh

"For real though. You're a beautiful girl with a great personality. I don't know there's something about you that's so attractive"

"I appreciate that"

"I like you a lot but that's the reason why I have to let you go. I just want you to be happy. I hope this guy realizes how lucky he is"

I smiled.

"I hope he does too"..

"Are you gonna tell him?"

"Tell him what?"

"That we had sex"

"I have to. That is, if we get back together"

"You definitely will. You're into each other"

"I guess"

"Is he gonna get mad at you?"

"Eh..... Probably"

He held me close and kissed my forehead

"I really do care about you Bella"

"I care about you too"

"So what are you doing for your birthday tomorrow?"

"I don't know. Too sad to throw a party. I didn't even plan one "

"Come on. You have to do something fun"

"Hanging out with my friends is fun. If we go out, will you come?"

"Of course. Anything for you"

"Thanks"

"Aren't you going to school?"

"I don't feel like going" I whined

"You have to. Come on"

"Fine"

"You want me to drive you?"

"No thanks, I brought my car"

I got up and grabbed my bag

"Thank you for everything Josh"

"You're welcome"

I bent down to give him a short kiss

"Have a nice day"

"You too love"

I waved at him then went out the door. I walked to the elevator and pressed the button

Luckily for me, no one was inside so it opened immediately

I hummed till I got to the ground floor. I was about to walk out of the building but the doorman stopped me

"Excuse me miss"

Why is a doorman trying to get my attention? I feel insulted. I wanted to ignore him but my instincts told me otherwise

"Yes" I turned

"I just want to say you're beautiful. I can tell you're bothered about something, don't let it weigh you down. Just thought I'd give you a few words of encouragement"

I blinked my eyes in astonishment. How did he...??

"How could you tell I was troubled?"

"I'm a people's person"

I couldn't even say a word. I walked out of the building.

I got into my car and drove off to school

I turned up the radio, josh's house is like twenty five minutes away from my school which is a really long drive

I see you driving round town with the girl I love and I'm like forget you

I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough and I'm like forget you

And forget him too

See if I was richer I'd still be with you

Now ain't that some shit

And with this pain in my chest I still wish you the best with a forget you...

The song reminded me of Madison and Drew. That's another case I have to figure out especially if I want him back

Twenty minutes and eight songs later I arrived at school

I parked my car, got my things then came down. I plugged in my earphones as I walked into school. I'm going to try and ignore any unimportant person. No negative energy will be tolerated today.

"Hello!"

Oh no. I could even hear her voice over the music

I'll just keep walking. She'll think I didn't hear her because of my earphones

My plan didn't work because the persistent bitch couldn't stay in her lane

She ran up to me and held my hand. I turned back and smiled

"Hi Madison"

"Hey I've been calling your name"

"Sorry, I turn my music up loud"

"I can see that"

"What's up?"

"We've been looking for you. You missed the first three periods"

"By 'we', you mean?"

"Your friends and I"

"Oh. I've been feeling a little sick"

"Sorry. Its time for lunch now"

I checked my wrist watch

"Oh true"

"Come on. Let's go"

We walked together through the lonely corridors. An evil thought came into my mind

I could push her into the janitor's closet and strangle her to death.

I watch enough crime movies to know how to cover up a murder. I have a pair of gloves in my bag too

"Hey!"

I snapped out of my thoughts

"What?"

"I've been tryna talk to you for a minute, are you okay?"

"Not really I'm sorry"

"Its fine"

If only she knew what I was thinking about.

We entered the cafeteria. I said hi to everyone that greeted me

We got to my table. I said hi to my friends too and sat down

"Where have you been?" They attacked

I giggled

"Hello to you too"

"We've been worried sick" Stephanie said

"Yeah, Amber was about to call a search party on your behalf" Leslie added

"Aww" I cooed "they missed me" I wiped a fake tear from my eye

"Drama queen"

"Proud of it" I stuck my tongue out

"Where were you?" Leslie asked suspiciously

"A friend's place"

"Male or female?"

I smirked

"Why so bothered?"

"Come on, we need to talk".

Before I could respond she dragged me out the cafeteria and into the hallway

Fortunately it was still empty so no one could hear us. She took me to a small partitioned corner

"Who did you go see?" She looked angry

I smirked

"Calm down mom"

"I'm serious"

"Its none of your business"

"I know that"

"Then why are you asking?"

"I'm scared for you. I'm scared its a guy you went to visit"

"Why?"

"Because I know you hook up with guys to escape your pain!"

Boom!

That took a shot straight at my heart. For once in my life, I felt like a slut

"Is that what you think of me?" My voice was low

"Its the truth" she shrugged

"Wow"

"I'm sorry if my words hurt you but I'm not lying, am i? "

It is true but that hurt my feelings. I couldn't even bring out words from my partly open mouth

"I-i"

She looked remorseful when she saw how it affected me

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that I promise. I was just trying to look out for you"

She held my hand but I shook it off

"Bella I'm sorry... "

"Its fine"

I pushed past her and walked away