Chapter 1

I hear my alarm go off for the fifth time this morning, and not really wanting to get up, I reach over and slam the alarm's snooze. I know that the next time it goes off, Mom will come and tell me to get up. I haven't be to excited about anything lately. I think everyone has noticed a bit. I mean I am always late but now some days I just don't go. I get yelled at by my parents all the time for it, but I just really could careless. I grab my pillow and set it on my head just as the alarm goes to blare once again. The trap door comes open and mom pulls the pillow off my head.

"Marinette, you have to go to school. I mean it, I am not going to let you keep doing this. Alya is downstairs, get dressed now," Mom never yelled at me, she still doesn't though I can tell that she wants to.

I get up and grab my usually pink pants and white flowered shirt with the black jacket. I look in the mirror to see how I look.

Ugly, like always. Just like everyone expects. You could never be pretty, not like it matters. No one will ever truly love you, so why not do the whole world a favour and kill yourself.

I hurry down the stairs and see Alya standing there with Nino laughing.

They are laughing at you. You are nothing but a joke to them anyways.

Alya looks up with a smile and waves. I don't wave back. My parents take notice as well as Alya. They share a look before Alya and Nino pull me onward to school. As we cross the street, I see Adrien getting out of a car. He looks over and waves at us. Alya and Nino wave, but I don't. Again Alya notices, and this time both Nino and Adrien notice too. I see Chloe coming out from inside the school. She ignores Adrien which causes everyone else to be surprised, not me. She sticks out her hand and smirks before she makes as scene.

"Why are you here? Do you even go to this school anymore? You like, never here. Mari-trash, go climb in the dumpster that you came out of. Or better yet, jump of a roof," She slaps my face as soon as she finishes.

"Hello Chloe," I say dully. Everyone notices but I can tell they all brush it off as a mood.

I am trying to tell you, no one cares. It is just you. You are ugly, stupid, worthless, and useless. Why should anyone care anyways.

"Plus, have you gained weight? You look so fat and ugly. No one cares about you, so why come back?" Chloe states as I start to walk away. Alya takes this as the perfect time to punch Chloe.

"Shut it, Chloe. You don't know anything," Alya yells at her, then she turns attention to me. "Don't listen to her, girl. We love you just the way you are."

Liar, and if you knew that I knew then you would act just like her. You want a puppet. You want a toy. I am not going to give you the satisfaction. You all can see me after my plan. Then we can see if you really care. Which no one will even notice I am gone.

I continue to walk, leaving Alya running after me. As the day goes on even the teachers are being to notice. Maybe if I pretend that today is just a mood, then everyone will once again show their true side.

"Miss Dupain-Cheng?" One of my teachers ask. I look up, "Are you okay?"

I am not going to answer that question, so I look at the clock and notice that it is almost time for lunch. I get up without a word and go to leave the room. The teacher blocks the door.

"I asked you a question. I would like an answer," the teacher points out. I am done with this.

"Just peachy," I almost hiss. The teacher looks surprised and I leave. I don't go back to school after that, I want no more questions.

They don't care if you told them. They would just encourage you to do it. You should make it come faster. There is no reason for you to end up hurt. No reason at all. You have gave them too many chances. So, now it is time to show them what you really want. It can be tonight.

I almost nod. I know that school is now over and that my parents are going to be mad at me for what I did. But who cares, not them. They couldn't be anymore enjoyed to watch as I fall back into the state that I once almost was in. My parents still talk about that time, and they are the only ones who know about it. They act like they care, but really they wish they had someone else as their child.

A hand hits my shoulder and I look up. Luka, Juleka's brother, is standing right there. He might actually care, but most likely not.

Of course not, why would he? Have you seen your self. You are so stupid and worthless that no one could ever look at you and care. Not even a blind person would want to be around you.

Luka sits down next to me, "Marinette, Juleka told me that you skipped half the day at school."

"So?" I ask with a bit of attitude.

"I want to make sure your okay," He looks away to the sky, "but it is pretty obvious that you're not."

"Of course I am, I just didn't have a great dream and now everyone is constantly on me."

"I get it, Marinette. I really do, but you're going to get through this. I don't know how I can help, but I know that this isn't just a dream to you. This has been happening for a while now. So, please tell me what is on your mind."

"I told you, it is just because of a dream. Leave me alone."

"Fine, but know one thing. People do love you," Luka states as he gets up and leaves.

You know that is bull crap. If they cared they wouldn't hound you about your health and about your homework. They wouldn't be like him and try and push the answers out. Just like everyone else.

It is getting late, so I walk home. When I walk in my parents are sitting on the couch crying. I wait a minute to listen into their conversation.

"Marinette isn't okay, honey. Look at the signs. It is happening again and no one else understands. I am afraid. You know that this is the only time she will show it. Come tomorrow or precious little girl will act like it was all just a faze and suffer until she tries again. I can't lose her," Mom cries to Dad. I walk upstairs.

She knew you were there. She was probably telling him how much happier they will be without you.

I lay down in my bed. As I turn my back to the open air, I hear my trap door open. A sigh of relief floats across the room just before the door closes. I close my eyes.

"No one cares about you," Alya's face shows up.

"You're completely useless," Mom and Dad states from behind me.

"I could never love you," Adrien is to my left.

"That we should you compassion when you didn't deserve it," Everyone I know is now in a circle around me.

"Kill yourself, just jump," Their voices mending together.

"Hate you."

"No one loves you."

"Worthless."

"Ugly."

"Stupid."

I wake up with a start just as my alarm goes off for the first time today. I get up and decide to play the 'Everything Is Okay' game.