AXOSFK

"How can you tell a person what you feel about that person if you can't muster any strength to swallow your pride just to say what you want to say?"

That was the question Vin Santos kept asking himself. Still he wasn’t sure on how to do that. He never experienced that feeling before. Since that start of high school, he always got caught up in different criminal cases. But on the last year of high school, things would change. 

He never thought he'd be off track. He can't sing when he want to. He became deaf and is now having a hard time following the beat. The tunes and lyrics are now disconnected. He can't remember the songs he sung, and he realized “I’ve lost my music”.

Lost My Music

<p>It's been days I'm feeling down, I always feel tired even though I don't do much. I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now. I don't have any appetite for any food, I always stay in my room curled up in my bed. I only get up when I need to use the bathroom or go to school. I can't focus on the lessons being discussed by the teachers, I just stare out the window watching clouds pass by. Whenever someone tries to talk to me I feel unengaged in the conversation, I just nod my head whenever they ask me a question. Then after school I always go straight home, to my room and curl up in my bed. Sometimes I find myself crying for no reason, or was there? I feel lost, I feel that something was missing inside me. A part of me I always had when I was younger, but lost along the way growing up. I want to talk to someone, but at the same time I don't. Is this a valid feeling? Was there something wrong with me? Can I find what was missing?</p>

Special Chapter IX: His Melancholy