Chapter 236: Melina

Austin won't even give me a pity fuck when he knows I'm going to die. I lay in the dark feeling sorry for myself. I really need to suck it up. Suck up the disappointment called life. Suck up the fact that I will die and no one will care.

To make this entire day worse, I turned on the flashlight and the batteries failed within two minutes. If I'm lucky, I'll die down here tonight just like the flashlight batteries. I could probably tear the blanket and fashion a noose. That would work if I wasn't a chicken shit. I've thought of suicide most of my life and have never been able to take that final step. Now is no different. After yawning and trying to find a comfortable position to sleep, I manage to let the world fade and take me into nightmares.