FIVE

(2017, October 06)

It was nearly midnight when I broke my sleep because of nightmares.

I came out of the house and went to the pizzeria, don't worry, the pizzeria is always opened. I asked for the small size pizza, with a cigarette but it was Walter who lights my cigarette when I was checking my purse and couldn't find the lighter.

"So, why are you here, girl?"

"You are asking me why people come to a pizzeria?"

"Nice one, but do know what time is it? It's already 12:30 A.M and your mom may be worrying about you right now."

"Don't worry, I just came by my house, it's just opposite side of next block."

"Can I join you?"

"Sure."

"Hi, I am Walter."

"Binisha here."

(Shaking hands)

"So what are doing here?", Walter asked.

"Just killing my anxiety. What about you?"

"Maybe killing the anxiety too."

"Ah! Alright."

"Listen, girl, something here smells like it's not good. Do you know how the time manage the thing? Nobody knows."

"Haha, how can you say that?"

"Say what?"

"That time manage things. Listen, I am 18 years old and you should feel shy to learn things from me. It's not time that manages the things. It's us."

"Wow, but I have heard that line before from Necco."

"Did you just said Necco?"

"Yes."

"Do you know him?"

"Of course, who don't know about that writer. Yes, I do."

"He is my idol. I want to meet him. Do you know where he lives?"

"Well, I don't know where is he but I hope maybe he will expose himself in the public."

"But that's not the point, I just want to meet him before the public knows him."

"So, do you think you will meet him very soon?"

"Yes, I think so because I am following my dream."

"Following your dreams?"

"Yes, if you follow your dream then anything can happen. Just don't stop dreaming."

"It's not that easy. Nothing is achieved easily. Sometimes it's like things are done easily but it's not. Like when you breathe."

"What's wrong with breath. It's easy, just inhale and then exhale."

"No stupid girl, the diaphragm is pulled flat, pushing out the lower ribcage and abdomen, then the muscles between your ribs pull your rib cage up and out. This expands the chest and draws air into the lungs. Air is pulled into your nose or mouth, and your windpipe. This is what happens when we breathe. But we won't understand it until we suffer from it."

"Suffer?"

"Yes. Let the time manage things and we have to go through everything."

And then he went out of the pizzeria.

I got the question in my head.

Necco said, "It's us who have to manage our time".

But this guy just made anti-quotes like him. I am not his fan, I shouldn't follow his quotes.

After eating, I went home. I said to myself that I should follow Necco's quotes but I am still not accepting.

I am confused about if time manages things or we have to manage things on our own.

Maybe, the time and the things here are actually not the time and the things. Wait, what I am saying? Time is just time and things are just things. Shut up, I know I am making you confused too, but I am more confused because you are just reading and I am suffering.

I wrote this diary on my confusion.

Opps! I mean, this confusion in my diary.

(Phone ringing!!!!)

"Hey, it's Freeda."

"What happened?"

"Can we meet in the mall tomorrow where we used to buy clothes?"

"Sure."

**(Next Day)**

I woke up. Hey, I am still confused ok.

Time, Things. Let it go now.

Oh right, Freeda. I should call her.

"Hey, Freeda."

"Hey, I am waiting."

"Ok, I will be there ASAP!".

I took a cab to get there. I could see Freeda in a distance from a cab and she was waiting for me. I reached to her.

"Hey, are you, Okey, why did you call me here?"

"Let's go, you will find it."

She took me to the hall behind the mall.

Wow, what a rhyming, hall behind the mall.

As I entered the hall, it was quite dark and suddenly the lights hit the room.

"Happy birthday Binisha."

That was the best moment of my life. I was speechless. I didn't know what to do but it was the best part. We 3 celebrated it in the hall with some shake of glass and then I helped them to their home.

When I went home. I was thinking to publish a new e-book. It took 5 months to complete the e-book named "The Magical Clock" which was based on fiction with some time travel shit. But, it was a big hit and besides, I made it a paid e-book and I started earning from that one.

I wrote 5 e-books in a year and earned a lot from that which I needed to find Necco.

My stomach was hurting. I was near to my monthly period. My mom told me her friends gonna visit us tomorrow and she was Annie. so I need to clean the whole house and here it ends my backstory.

(End of 5 years Flashback)

It was a quiet evening and I could see Mrs Annie leaving our home. Finally, some peace.

But when I open my computer and checked my E-mail, I nearly got a big heart attack. I got a mail. It was from Necco.

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Try to understand my feeling.

It's Necco.

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Are you understanding my happiness rising?

I knew this day would probably come because I used his name in every of my book on the front page as a dedication.

As I thought, he was from Germany.

I respond with my happiness to him and said him everything.

He gave me a clue to find him.

He said he lives in a city in German named Munich.

I told this to Lilly and Freeda.

Now, my journey will begin tomorrow.

I am gonna find him so soon.

I told my mom that I will be leaving for some days, maybe it could take some weeks or months or even years. I am a legal teenager because I was 19 and I can live on my own.

My mom agreed because it was time to make some carrier.

Tomorrow will be a new day for me.