"Tracy already had one child; Little Tino. She got pregnant by one of her John's and when she wouldn't end her pregnancy her rank dropped from number one. One day Juan and I were talking and he looked at me and said why couldn't I have met you first?" Leelah's eyes glistened. She sniffed and put out the last of her cigarette. "I guess those were the magic words because I fell into Juan like I was falling into a bottomless pool. I explained that I could not be with a man that went back and forth from woman to woman. I would be the one and only or I would be nothing.